Well I think the witch found me this morning, even on the progesterone supps. I don't think it is full flow yet, but it is just a matter of time. On to #3, third time is the charm right?????
Another strange dream last night. I had a dream that DH and I were at my friends house, only it is not his current house, it was the house he grew up in. We were at a party and most of my childhood friends were there, including an ex boyfriend. The we flashed to a hospital and I was in labor but I was only 32 weeks pregnant. I was at the registration desk checking in and complaining that I was 32 weeks pg and have not had an u/s yet. I was demanding an u/s. I don't know what the heck my problem is, but I have had a strange sleeping week this week.
Well I took my first clomid pill tonight, round 7 of clomid 3 of IUI. I hope that the third time is the charm, sadly with every round that goes by I lose more hope. I am so upset. I realized that I will not be making DH a father before his 30th birthday, and I only have 2 more cycles to have a baby before MY 30th birthday. I feel like time is ticking away and I am losing more hope by the day. I thought I was feeling pretty good about this but sadly I am not.
Took my last pills this morning. If everything goes the same as last month I will get my U/S on Saturday and my IUI on Sunday, Easter Sunday. Kind of a nice day for an IUI, the resurrection of Christ and all. Hopefully I will have a little bit of an extra blessing this cycle. I was worried about the clinic not being open, but I just called and they said everything opperates as normal this weekend, just to make sure and call before 11 for my appointment times. No biggie, I will be up early and POAS excitedly!
I realized this weekend that I have not been a very good friend lately and that I get mad at people who don't know that we are TTC. For example, my pg friend that complains all the time. If she knew we were TTC she probably would not complain to me about it. It is a bit unfair of me to be mad at her for something she is sharing with her friend. I think I will have to call her and make sure she knows that she is a really good friend.
I cannot believe I forgot to udate this yesterday after the U/S. I had 2 follies 34 on the left and 19 on the right. I am a little concerned about the 19 being too small and the 34 being to large. The Dr was concerned about the 34 being a cyst so he only gave me 1/2 of the trigger shot.
well I just got home. The nurse asked me if I was having any pain, I thought that was a strange question and said yes that my right side was a little sore. She said that is good because that is where the good 19mm follie was. I was happy to hear her reassurance. I truly believe that the pain has more to do with the person doing the IUI than with the actualy procedure. I had the same person this time as I did for my first and it hurt again. The cramping was horrible even after she was done. When she was inserting the catheter she could not get thru and I actually felt a pop when it finally wnet in. Kinds uncomfortable. The person who did #2 was wonderful, the catheter went right in and I had NO cramping and no spotting like I have now and with #1. I am hopeful that I get the extra luck/faith of today being easter and this is the first IUI that DH was able to be there for. He has had to work for the other 2 so I am hopeful that the timing was just bad and that having DH there will be good and give us the bfp out come we wish for.
For the numbers.
115 mil before the wash
109 mil after with 50% motility
so 51.5 mil were put used for the IUI with 20% being of the best quality.
This is by far his best sample and he said it was because of the vodka and monster he drank last night!
Well I temped this morning, but it was WAY lower than any of my temps in my chart so I did not record it. I know that I Oed yesterday or Saturday based on the trigger shot I was given. I had a strange night sleeping last night so I think that contributed to the low temp. I woke up with out the covers on half of me and the cat was biting my head. He does that when I don't pay attention to him, usually it means he wants under the covers. I will just temp tomorrow and confirm O and stop temping. I was thinking of not taking the progesterone this time around, but I decided to use it as the RE has told me.
I did find out some interesting family history this weekend. I found out that my mom had endo and that is the reason she had to have a hysterectomy later in life. I asked her if it was something she had known about earlier in life, like during the child bearing age, and she said no, that it developed reapidly as she aged. She said the dr's feel it was likely that she had it all her life but that it got progressively worse as she aged and she decided to have a hysterectomy about 7 years ago. She started bleeding thinking it was her period in August and did not stop until after the hysterectomy 8 months later. I knew about the hysterectomy but not about the endo. From what I have found on-line I don't have any of the "symptoms" except that stupid infertility. I am wondering if this is something I should be concerned about and if I should bring it up to my RE. Mom has 3 kids and had one misscarriage. She did not have any problems conceiving us, my sister and I are 21 months apart and my brother was a total accident with my step dad before they were married. She conceived my sister and I in her early twenties and my brother in her thirties. I am 29 and wondering if this is causing my IF. If this cycle doesn't work then I am going to talk to my RE.
I was given my cross hairs but FF but I don't think they are correct and I am a little nervous about my chart, but then when am I not. FF says that I Oed the day of my trigger shot, the day before the IUI. I don't think it is true but it is hard to argue with the temp jump. My right side was still hurting when I went in for my IUI. Maybe I had just Oed that morning and am worrying for nothing. I think I remember reading that it is best for an IUI to be done up to 36 hours before or 36 hours after O, so I should still be okay, Right? I have decided to stop temping for the rest of the cycle, I will be on progesterone any way and that will make me have a higher temp than if I was not on it. Plus I find myself waking up all night wondering if it is time to temp. The less stress the better, plus I already know that I Oed. I am only 3DPO and already freaking out! This is going to be a long 2WW!
Not much going on here. I had some cramping this morning and don't know why. I am going to start my progesterone tonight. That stuff is so expensive! It is almost 200.00 for a 15 day supply. I need to talk to my RE and see if there is something else he can give me that does not cost as much. I am trying to stay positive, but it is hard given everything I have already been thru. It will happen, I know it.
Well I am down to the one week wait. Nothing new to report. I have had some strange cramping on the right side but nothing to write home about. That's about it, boring I know. If this cycle follows last then I should be having cold sweats and nightmares starting soon. I have been having some wicked dreams. One even involved my ex! I can remember them so well. I gues only time will tell.....................