I am proud of myself for not testing behind DH's back this morning, but I did promise him I wouldn't. He was so cute last night he told me he was going to hide all the tests, I keep them all in a drawer in the closet. I told him there is one hiding somewhere else, he rolled his eyes. Then he made me promise again that I would not test this morning, even made me say "I promise". It is wierd, in the mornings my boobs are okay, a little tender, but at night it is a whole nother story, and it is only the sides. I did not temp this morning, I did not want to take the chance of a low temp. Still no spotting today and if it stays away I am going to test tomorrow. I hope I have a really good update for you tomorrow!
I found spot this morning, just a little, but there are cramps and it is only a matter of time before AF arrives. It is okay though, a 14 day LP is great for me and it is one step closer to that BFP. I Oed pretty early this cycle, cd12, and I usually don't O until cd14, maybe the egg wasn't fully developed yet. I am actually pretty optimistic about this which is a complete 180 for me. The small victories are reason to keep me positive and moving forward.
Well, the witch found me but it is okay, I was expecting it. I am feeling pretty good, it is DH that is being negative. We were talking and he said he just doesn't think it will happen. Really? I am usually the negative nelly and here I am trying to stay positive and he is the negative nelly. I understand his feelings tho, after over a year of trying it is hard to imagine it will happen. I think, for him, I will give it a couple more tries (non medicated) then if it doesn't happen I will have a lap done and possibly and HSG. I am not a big fan of surgery, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I just gotta make sure it is covered by my insurance.
Well I am cd11 so that means I am getting ready to O. DH and I will begin the marathon BDing tonight! Poor guy is working 7 days a week so he is really tired, but as I tell him, he just needs to suck it up!
On a sad note, I may have to put my dog to sleep. I have had him for 11 years and he is a great dog, for me. He was abused by my ex and has hated men ever since. One night, like 10 years ago, he was sleeping at my door as usual and my little brother (10 YRS) was staying the night. My brother got up in the middle of the night to pee and was walking down the hallway when my dog started growling and showing teeth. My brother yelled that it was him and he stopped. Well flash forward 10 years and DH and I are married and my dog STILL protects me. 3, yes THREE, times now DH has gotten up for work and came back into the room to say bye and my dog has growled and BIT him on his leg. That is right, he bit my DH three times. Then last night, one of our other dogs was walking by him to lay down in the room, because he still sleeps at the door, and he attacked her. She held her own and it ended with her pinning him down with her teeth around his neck, but that should have never happened. She nas not showed agression like that before and I am not 100% sure who was at fault, I was already in bed half asleep, but I know that my dog is getting more agressive the older he gets. My biggest worry is that my friend is coming to stay with us for a while and she is bringing her son. I don't want her son to get up in the middle of the night and get attacked by my dog. I can do anything I want without the fear of him doing anything to me. I pee every night and he has never even so much as growled at me, but I think the problem is he is "protecting" me. I am worried about his behavior and not sure what to do. He is older, 11, and has arthritis and liver problems, but is otherwise healthy. I just don't know what to do.
Okay, so before Clomid I was a faithful CD14 ovulator. On Clomid it varied from CD14-16, but mostly on CD15. Last month was my first month off clomid and I Oed on CD12 and this month I got my positive OPK today, again on CD12. I know that OPK's are supposed to tell you that you will O in the next 24-36 hours, but almost every time I get a positive OPK I O that day, strange I know but whatever. I am expecting to O today, tomorrow at the latest and I am still worried that it may be too early for Oing. I looked on line and from the limited amount of information I have read it sounds like Oing on CD12 is okay, but I will keep looking.
Wow, long time no update. As I predicted I Oed on cd12 making me 9dpo today. A few days ago I started having wierd cramping in my lower abdomen. I don't know if I can say with confidence that it is my uterus, but it is low and painful. I don't know why exactaly, but it feels like my stomach or whatever it is, is trying to jump out of my body. I have also noticed that my boobs are tender too, but only on the outside and only when I push on them. I know they can be pg symptoms, but I have been at this far to long to lable them as such.
On a side note, I was asked to be one of the mods of the TTC for the first time board. I am excited and fell special and like a loser all at the same time. I feel special that I was asked, but like a loser because I have been on the board long enough to be asked! The announcement has not be made yet, but I am excited about it.
Well here I am at 14dpo and I spotted all weekend. I tested this morning, even after spotting (I am gluten for punishment!), and it was a BFN, but it is okay. I don't know why but I am at peace with it. I am learning patience, it is hard but I am working on it. Next month we are not going to have good timing at all. AF is supposed to arrive soon, and since the past two months I have Oed on CD12 I will be out of town when I O next month. We are just going to have to BD before I leave and when I get back and hope for the best. I am going to call my RE about doing the Lap and HSG. I need to make sure the lap is covered by insurance so I will go with the HSG first. I am still in the let it happen mood, but I would like to know if something is working against us.
I have a great friend, I don't deserve her forgiveness for the childish way I acted last time I saw her, but she forgave me anyway. In case you don't remember my friend had a baby and I could not bring myself to see her or hold her when we were at another friends house together. So anyway, they came over for a BBQ this weekend and she is the most adorable little girl I have ever seen. She looks just like her father, she even has his temper (at 2 months old!)
The announcement was made, I am a mod of the TTC for the first time board!
I am getting ready to O, but will be gone out of town for the next few days, without DH . How is that for timing. I look at it this way, we have had PERFECT timing for so long now, even 3 IUI's, and I have not gotten PG, maybe if we have bad timing..... I know I am reaching, but hey, what else have I got to think about all day. Maybe I will be so stressed out from flying (I HATE flying) that Oing will be delayed until I get back. We will see what happens (although I am not expecting much).
I am back and sunburned! I am happy to say that I don't think I Oed while I was gone like I thought I would. I did not take my OPK's or Temp while I was gone but I took it this morning and it was the same temp as last Thursday. I took an OPK today too and it is pretty close to being positive. Hopefully the stress from my trip delayed the O! I will have to jump DH tonight.
I went in last week for my annual exam and the first question my OB asked is where are we in getting pregnant. I said not far since I am not pg yet! This is the same Dr who REFUSED to believe that a 28 year old would have a problem getting pregnant. We have been trying for well over a year now and he still has the same "relax, it will happen" attitude. Then he tells me that I have gained 9 pounds in a year and says that maybe that is contributing to the problem. If I were to lose 10 -15 pounds it could greatly increase my chances of getting pg and I was shocked. 10 pounds puts me back to my weight last year when I was still having a problem getting pg! I know that I need to lose weight, I have actually gained 25 pounds since I started seeing him 4 years ago, but don't tell me that I need to get down to a weight that I was at last year when I was having fertility issues.
In other news, I am 5dpo and already anxious to test! I don't know why, I know better. I will wait it out, I hope I will wait it out anyways!