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    The acupuncture has been blissful. I went for my third appointment today, and don't go again until next Monday. We have another 4-6 appointments before transfer (depends on whether we do 3-5 day). I'm really enjoying it. I also have a massage this Saturday, and plan to schedule another one the week of Memorial Day since Shirley won't be able to see me for acupuncture that week. I'm going to have to just start carrying my calendar with me everywhere. So far, work has been extremely flexible, and our schedule is definitely easing as we get into summer, so it's been nice.

    Got an email from Scott's cousin Christy today. She and her husband are expecting their second child. They've now gotten pregnant twice during the time period that we've been TTC. I'm okay...but it takes a bit of wind out of me. I am very happy for them, of course, I just look forward to the day when WE have good news to share. I pray it will be soon.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    BTW, I'm fairly obsessed today. I don't know if it's because we're within a week of starting the Lupron, or if it's because I'm bored at work so am killing time dinking around on the boards, but I can't seem to focus. I do so much better when I'm kept busy! I wish I could just take a month off of work so I could be leisurely and read books and stuff. Though I suppose that would probably make time go by even more slowly.

    I forgot to mention earlier that I had a good talk with my boss, Sid yesterday. I've been having a hard time accepting one of the new girls in my office. She's fairly obnoxious....always talking about so-and-so she knows and "the club", and interupting other perfectly nice conversations. Plus, she has an uncanny way of showing up just AFTER everybody else has done what needs to be done. I'm not saying she's a slacker, but...if it looks like a duck and sounds like a duck, it MAY be a duck.

    Anywho, Sid and I sorted it out, and I'm going to try and be patient and tolerant, and maybe help coach her on how things are around here. I'm vital to the team, and all that...Sid did say some very nice things, like how I just "have a way about me that makes people feel good", and that it's obvious I haven't been myself, etc.

    He then proceeded to ask if I've put any thought into what I'll do after we have a baby. Yikes! I wasn't really prepared to talk to him about it, even though we HAVE put some thought into it. Honestly, with Scott traveling so much it's quite difficult now, and we don't have any children! If we have twins, I definitely won't continue working. No way. We don't have any family nearby to help us, and I'm not keen on two infants in day care, so that's out. If we have one, I may have more flexibility, but ultimately, I likely will not continue working (at least full time) once I'm a mama. But NOW is not the time to discuss that with my boss. We aren't even preggers yet! I did promise him I would give him ample notice.

    All in all, a good conversation. I'm lucky to have such a great support network.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Nothing too crazy to report...Only 6 days until Lupron, and I know they'll fly by quickly. Scott returns from Columbus tonight and leaves again for China on Saturday, so we'll be busy hanging out together for the next couple days. Saturday I have a massage and maybe some shopping to look forward to (I don't want to buy much, just maybe a couple pairs of capris and/or shorts for summer - I've gained weight since starting BCPs, so I'm not entirely comfortable these days. Ugh.) Sunday I'll just relax, maybe rent some flix, do some reading. Low key. I don't mind the first couple days that Scott is gone...it only wears on me after 4-5 days.

    Monday I have acupuncture, and then it will be Tuesday, the day before I start Lupron/suppression! I have a busy week outside of that stuff next week, too. Bunko two nights, a business after hours (work) and golf meeting another night (ack!), and I'm hanging with my Little Sister on Tuesday (BBBS). Soooo....like I said, the time will fly.

    I've been pretty focused at work today, but I'm fading now. It's 3:43 for Pete's sake. Maybe now is a good time to wander into the kitchen and have a soda. I have plenty to do to keep me busy, if only I could keep my mind to it!
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    You know, I surf the boards pretty regularly. My job is somewhat stimulating, but I do need a break every once in awhile, so I pop over and check out what's going on with everybody else in the TTC world. There seem to be a lot of posts lately with people struggling on the issue of telling people about ART and being around babies and/or pregnant women.

    I guess I feel VERY lucky. Sure, it stings a bit when I hear that somebody else is pregnant, but I'm always thrilled for them so get past it quickly. DH and I were talking over lunch, and I think the reason it stings is that I SO want it to be me that's sharing good news. To be resentful or unhappy around babies and/or pregnant women just isn't in me. I LIKE babies, that's why I want one! And mothers are inspiring to me right now. But I do respect that everybody grieves in their own way...for me, I avoid maternity shops, Babies-R-Us, and all other retail stores pertaining to pregnancy and babies. I think I'd get lost in the melancholy. But again, that's just me.

    I also feel VERY lucky that we've been able to talk fairly openly with most of our close friends and family about the IVF. Nobody asks inappropriate or painful questions, offers unsolicited advice, or criticizes our choices in the least. If they are talking about us behind our backs, I don't worry about it because I'm sure it's well intentioned and we don't know about it anyway, so what's the difference? I've got WAY more important things to worry about! The most we get is the occasional, "how are you", which we've come to learn can be code for, "what's happening with your fertility treatments?" but if we don't feel like answering in depth, we don't, and everybody leaves it at that. It's been pretty much up to us to open the door to conversation. I can't believe how lucky we are sometimes, really.

    I'm a very open person. I don't have a lot of secrets, and in my family there aren't many topics that are off limits. For me, it's been very therapeutic to share our journey with the people around me. And I've been very fortunate that those same people have been very respectful of how difficult it's been for us over the past three years. The only people I haven't shared with have been my paternal grandparents and my dad's sister (my Aunt). From the same gene pool, they are very judgmental and religious. I honestly don't know their thoughts on ART, but I don't want to risk it because if they ARE opposed, they won't hesitate to share their thoughts, and frankly, I don't want to hear it. My dad respects that decision. He's awesome about it, actually. He told me the other day that he knows how painful this experience must be for us, and he respects our right to privacy. "If there's something you want me to know, I expect that you'll tell me. Otherwise, know that I love you and I'm rooting for all that you wish for." How awesome is that??? Lucky, I tell you.

    With that said, I have to tell you about cousin Connie. She's actually my dad's cousin, and very well intentioned...but...almost every time we see her she asks, "are you pregnant yet? no? well you better get to it girl!" Sure, that helps. Comments like, "you're not getting any younger" or "what are you waiting for?" are par for the course. I finally broke down and told my aunt that she needed to tell Connie to stop making those comments or else I would stop coming to family gatherings. That's been my only experience with insensitive comments. I can't imagine if she were my MIL or sister, or some of the other horror stories I've heard on the boards. At least I see Connie only a couple times each year.

    Well, Scott leaves for China tomorrow. Sigh. On a good note, I have a great line up of activities while he's gone. Massage tomorrow and Sunday with my Mom. Next weekend I scheduled a spa day on Saturday, so that will be nice (and overdue, you should see my roots!) I know the time will fly - it always does.

    Today I saw a post of somebody's + HPT. I got so thrilled. I thought, in just over a month, that could be mine. I'm going to keep thinking that way. Sure, I know that realistically it may not take the first time, but I'm going to think POSITIVE. I'm going to allow myself to be excited, and happy, and picture a time in the very near future when we have all that our hearts desire. I just KNOW it will happen. And I can't wait.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Default Gotta love Dear Abby

    This isn't an issue for me, but I can understand how it is for some women...

    From Sunday's Dear Abby -

    DEAR ABBY: On Mother's Day, our church has a tradition of asking all the mothers in the congregation to stand for a blessing and recognition of their importance to our community and the job they are doing.

    My wife refuses to stand and be recognized by our community as a mother. She says she won't do it because there are some women in our church who are not standing, and some of them might not be able to be mothers and may be hurt at the recognition the others are receiving.

    I realize that infertility may be a great loss to them, but these women live with it every day. I doubt that our church's annual recognition of mothers will add more pain than those women already endure. Don't you agree? -- PROUD HUSBAND AND FATHER IN THE MIDWEST

    DEAR PROUD HUSBAND AND FATHER: No, I do not agree. Your wife is a woman with unusual sensitivity and empathy for the feelings of others. I respect her stance on remaining seated, and so should you.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Well, the big day is almost here. I can't believe we set this train in motion tomorrow! I can't wait, but I know that the time will fly. The good news is I have a lot of fun stuff to look forward to in the meantime to keep myself occupied...

    Speaking of which, I better get back to work.

    ETA - forgot to mention earlier, last night I had a dream that I was abducted (maybe because of that little girl that was abducted in Portugal?) and my abductors injected me with bad things (maybe because I'm starting my injections tomorrow?) I feel more excited than anxious, but maybe the closer I'm getting the more anxious I'm getting. It's a big step! And this is a very stressful time, everyone keeps saying. I need to keep focusing on relaxing and making sure I'm getting my self-care in. I just with DH were home with me.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Default Elton John - Blessed (lyrics)

    Wow. Heard this on the radio on the way home tonight. It's a sign.

    Blessed - Elton John

    Hey you, you're a child in my head
    You haven't walked yet
    Your first words have yet to be said
    But I swear you'll be blessed

    I know you're still just a dream
    your eyes might be green
    Or the bluest that I've ever seen
    Anyway you'll be blessed

    And you, you'll be blessed
    You'll have the best
    I promise you that
    I'll pick a star from the sky
    Pull your name from a hat
    I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
    You'll be blessed

    I need you before I'm too old
    To have and to hold
    To walk with you and watch you grow
    And know that you're blessed

    I'm feeling incredibly emotional tonight, considering I don't have any hormonal fluctuations due to the BCP, I can only assume it's due to the mental buildup I have going on because tomorrow is the BIG DAY. Really, I need to calm down or I won't get any sleep!

    Perhaps the two glasses of wine I had tonight will help with that....sigh. I'm off to bed.

    Tomorrow....

    p.s. I really, really, really miss my husband.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Well, I had my Lupron Depot shot today. I was under the impression that I'd have to self-administer those shots daily, but they gave me just one shot that stays in the body for one month, so that's good. I'm to stay on BCP until Saturday (5/19) and once my period starts call them to schedule the baseline US and bloodwork (probably on 5/23). That evening I'll start stims. I'll self-administer stims for 10 days, and then Scott will administer the trigger shot (probably on 6/1). During stims I'll go in for monitoring on days 5, 7 and 9. 36 hours after the HSG shot, they will do the ER in Rochester Hills (about 90 minutes from home). No bed rest after the ER, just "take it easy". The transfer will be 3-5 days later, also in Rochester Hills, and I am on 24 hours bedrest after that, with 2 additional "light activity" days after that. They will not do a blood pregnancy test until 14 days post transfer. (ugh!)

    No more kickboxing once I start stims, and she wasn't sure about golf, at least the week of ER/ET and perhaps the following week, too. I'll have to ask Dr. Shamma about that one when I see him, I guess. I can still walk, but not at a "jarring" pace - they don't like treadmills...odd. I've always thought of treadmills as having more cushion, but I'll just take it easy either way and err on the side of caution.

    I got pretty detailed instructions in writing, and fortunately I had my meeting with Betsy, who is very patient and thorough. I don't feel like I walked away with any questions, which is good.

    Oh, and great news, the cysts were gone, and my uterus and ovaries looked "perfect". And I didn't even feel the Lupron shot, despite it being intramuscular.

    Scott send me these today - badly needed. He's so perfect (well, he's not, but he's perfect for me!)

    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    Default After the Lupron Depot

    I've felt weird the last few days. Not sure if it's mental, or what, but I've been absolutely exhausted. I'm not even motivated to workout in the a.m. which is so not like me. I almost feel like I have a constant hangover. And I've been crampy. I know it will all be worth it, so I'm sucking it up...but thought I'd mention it for posterity.

    The injection site is sore and bruised. It didn't hurt when I received it, but it sure hurts now. It's a pain in the ***....ha ha! Again, also worth it, a hundred times over.

    Well, I gotta get ready for work. Scott will be home in less than a week, thank God. I know the time will go by quickly. It always does. I've got plenty of plans for the weekend - hanging with the dog tonight, Blooms tomorrow (planting flowers in the community for you lurkers), cut/color/eyebrows at the spa in the afternoon, and then shopping for a dress to wear to the three weddings we have in June. I'll go for an a-line to allow for some bloating in my lower region. I haven't decided if I will go out Saturday, but at some point this weekend I also need to do laundry, clean the house, and mow the lawn, so there is no shortage of activity. I also hope to get dinner in with my grandparents on Sunday. Whew...I'm tired just thinking about all that, but like I said, it will make the time go by quickly!

    Happy Friday!!!!
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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    I'm switching to a blog....

    http://tracyscottm.blogspot.com/

    I don't feel comfortable sharing my online journal with family and friends.
    Tracy
    Mom to Evan Edward and Rowan Grace - DOB 9/16/08

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