CD20 and I think I may actually O today. I had some major cramping last night and my temp jumped a little bit today. The OPK I took yesterday had a line on it (not a dark line but a line none the less). I am planning on taking another OPK today so we will see what that brings. I am just glad that I didn't O yesterday since DH wasn't home. No worries now though..we will take care of business after dinner tonight. We will see if we are able to catch that egg! If not we will jsut try again next month.
Oh yeah...Happy Valentines day everyone! I received some beautiful red roses today from DH and we are meeting our very close friends for dinner tonight. It should be nice.
Ok so I went to the dentist yesterday and man it was hard. You know the part that I hate the most is the scraping...you know when she cleans the tarter off of your teeth. My teeth are still hurting from it. She promised though that it would not be as bad at my next cleaning. Oh and I have to go in next week for a filing. That shouldn't be too bad. I am really glad that I went though...my fear has been conquered.
YEAH for me...I O'd yesterday (or sometime between tuesday and Wednesday). We DTD last night so I really hope we caught the egg. It will be disapointing if we didn't but that just means it wasn't meant to be and we will try again next month. Ok so onto the dreaded 2WW, patience girls, I need patience! I need a distraction really but what could it be?? hmmmm, I will have to think about that. I am up for any suggestions???
5DPO and am doing ok. I had a rough day yesterday though...I had a huge headache and was feeling nausous...I could barely get off of the couch all day long. It was horrible. I haven't felt like that in a really long time. Maybe I slept wrong or something. I was finally able to keep down some excedrin and once that kicked in, my headache at least felt better.
I feel much better today but its kind of like I can feel the headahce just waiting to come forward...you know what I mean? Its like its not fully gone and if I do one wrong thing, it will be back. Weird.
Anyway, hopefully this week goes by quickly so I can test either this weekend or the beginning of next. We will see how long I can hold out for and how I am feeling. My birthday is next weekend so I want to know before then if I am pregnant...that way I know how much I can party. KWIM??? I can't believe that I am going to be 30. NO more 20's! I seem to be having a problem with this birthday. Oh well...we can't stop time, can we?
6DPO and trying very hard to not analyze everything that I am feeling right now. Here are some symptoms...
headaches (haven't had these in a while)
kind of crazy dreams
cramping a little bit today
Ok so these could all mean nothing, which is why I am trying really hard to not get excited that maybe we were able to conceive this month. I mean our chances are good but I also don't want to build myself up so much to just be devasted at the end of the month..KWIM???
Well we will see what tomorrow brings...if I get a temp dip in the next few days then that is a really good sign. Keep your fingers crossed for me!!
7DPO..not as many symptoms as I had yesterday except for a little bit of heartburn this morning. My temp keeps going up though so that is a good thing...its hasn't been this high since I was pregnant. We will see what happens.
I have decided that I will start POAS monday the 26th..I have a few girls from the November board testing with me that day so it should be fun!! I hope that we all get BFP's.
I have pretty much decided that I am going to try Acupuncture. I have been having a lot of issues with my neck and shoulders lately which is causing these tension headaches. My neck just feels so stiff lately. I talked to a coworker and she suggested that I try Acupuncture. She had a few sessions with great success. I figure I can have it help with my fertility too. I think I am going to wait until next week to call so that I can see if I am pregnant or not. I am not sure if that will matter but at least I will know something.
I had to go back to the dentist this morning for 2 fillings...it really wasn't that bad but my mouth is still sore. The anesthetic is the worse and I was numb for hours. Oh well..it had to be done, right? Everytime I go in that office, I think of my best friend Marcia that died in January. She was a dental hygenist and such an amazing person. I hadn't been to the dentist in 9 years and not while she was a practicing hygenist. I just kep watching my hygenist and thinking about how much Marcia did. I won't be able to call her up and ask her questions or talk to her about the work I had to have done. It just makes me miss her so much more.
Ok enough of that...boy this post is all over the place isn't it? Soo much going through my head right now I guess. Will see what tomorrow brings!
What a hard last few days for me. Where do I start? Why not with the TTC stuff. I am now on 12DPO and really have no signs of pregnancy yet. I had a temp dip Saturday morning so maybe this is implantation?? I just dont' know yet. I tested this morning but it came back a BFN. I am goign to wait a few more days and test again. We will see what happens. The thing is...if you look at my other cycles, my non pregnant cycles...none of them had a temp dip. Only my pregnant one. I am trying really hard not to think too much into this but it could be a good sign, no?
Onto personal stuff. My grandpa has been sick for a long time now, he has emphazema. It has progressively gotten worse over the last month. Last thursday he was put on life support and then taken off when we learned that he didn't want to be kept alive by machines. He was breathing on his own but we knew that he wouldn't last long. He died in his sleep early saturday morning. Even though I knew this was goign to happen, it was still so hard to get that phone call. How do you really prepare for someone dying? At least I was able to spend some quality time with him last summer in Alaska and I was even able to talk to him a few weeks ago. The service will be on Thursday and unfortunaly I will be unable to go. A last minute trip to Alaska is very expensive and we just odn't have the resources to make it out. My mom is on her way out there now. I just wish I could be there for her and my family. They have all been through so much.
I just don't know if I can take any more loss. I have lost 3 precious babies, 2 dear friends and now my grandpa. All in the span of a year. I just hope this is the end of it.
Well the witch is coming today, I just know it. My temp dropped this morning, I started spotting last night and I have the beginnings of some major cramping. Its weird though because if she does come today she will be early. That is if my O date was correct. OH well..maybe it is from all this stress as of late. So what does this mean, well if AF comes today then I will most likely O around March 14th which would give me a due date of...December 5th. I am ok with that. A December baby would be fun. So, I am a little dissapointed but it is the first cycle after the m/c so I wasn't expecting a lot. I was just hoping for a + on that HPT for my Birthday...what a great birthday present that would be. Well so far my prediction from Cheri is proving true...If I do get pregnant next cycle I may not find out until April which is the month she predicted for me. We will see how things go with this next cycle....maybe it will be more normal!
Well one good thing is that I can party hard this weekend!!! Drink up ladies!!!
I am so glad that today is Friday. This week seemed to have lasted forever. Its probably because so much is happening this week and I have been looking forward to this weekend for a month now.
My Grandpa's funeral was yesterday and from what I heard, it was a really nice service. The VA did a military salute to my granpda and my mom and aunt were given flags for his service. My Uncle read the eulogy...I am just sad that I missed it. I know I will hear more about it from my mom soon.
So my good friend Natalie is coming in to visit today. I am so excited to see her. I am taking a half day at work to surprise her at the airport. She thinks that I am working a full day and my DH will pick her up. I can't wait to see her face when she sees me. We are going to have a good weekend. I have a dinner planned for my birthday tomorrow night and the rest of the time we will just hang out and do whatever we want.
I can't believe that I am turnging 30 tomorrow. How time flies really. I have been thinking a lot about why this birhtday is effecting me so much and I think I figured it out. I thought that by 30 I would have had a baby of my own and I don't. That is kind of hard to deal with. I know that I will have a baby on my own but I really thought that i would by now..kwim?