I am scared. NOthing has "happened" to make me think that this pregnancy won't be just fine except for previous experience. It is really hard to not be worried or scared that it may happen again. I had this horrible dream last night that I went to the bathroom and just started bleeding everywhere. It was horrible but says a lot about my fears. I am doing my best to think positively because the only thing I want is for this baby to grow and be healthy. I would give up all of material posessions for that to happen.
I wish it didn't have to be this way...I wish I wasn't so worried that something would go wrong. I know that I will feel a little bit better in a few months...after I get through our previous loss dates. I can't wait to get into the doc and get my HCG tested to make sure it is where it should be and is doubling. I should be able to get in this week.
My symptoms seem to come and go, which I think is fairly normal for this early in the pregnancy. I am exhausted right now and have a headache but my nausea hasn't been as bad today. I find myself overanalyzing everything...it is hard not to. I decided not to temp this morning..it would have been too hard to see it drop. I don't really need to temp so I figured why worry about it.
Good Night everyone! Hopefully tonights dream isn't as bad as last nights.
Its 8:25 pm and I am in another Hotel but in MD this time. I am exhausted but feeling ok other than that. The nausea comes and goes still and I have been really thirsty.
The good news is that my doctor called me this morning and I was able to get in before I was too far out of town. They took my blood to measure my hormone levels and she also gave me some progesterone supplements to take. I should hear the results tomorrow and then I will most likely go back in towards the end of the week for another blood draw. She said that if my progesterone is ok then I may not need to take the supplements. I just hope that this little bean sticks and develops into a healthy baby.
Well I am off to do some work and get in bed. Good Night All!!!
I am back home again finally and boy is it nice. I love coming home to my wonderful house and my very loving animals. DH has duty today and tomorrow or else he would be here too.
The nurse called me this morning with my blood test results from monday.......they are good!!! My HCG was 1100 and my progesterone was 35. Both are within the normal range..I was very happy to hear that news! My doc also wants me to schedule an ultrasound for the end of next week. I am just so happy that everything is going good so far. I just hope that the u/s will show us that little bean next week with a beating heart..how amazing would that be???
Man I am sure beat and I would love to just get in bed right now but too much to catch up on.
Ok so I have my first ultrasound and doc appt scheduled...its April 17th at 3:30pm. I am really excited and looking forward to having this appt. DH should be able to come too which is nice. I know that he wants to be there for each of the u/s's.
So far, i am feeling much the same as previous days. I am just really tired..I feel like I need a nap now. Work has been pretty busy today so thats kept my mind from wandering too much.
Ok so I have one dilemma that I am trying to solve. The question is...When to tell my mother?? Let me give you some background first, my mom raised me as a single mother and we have always been really close. I told her about my first two pregnancy's and m/c's after they m/c's had already happened. This last pregnancy I told her at the beginning becuase we were really excited and everything was going good. It was really hard calling her and telling her that the baby had stopped developing though but I did need her support. Ok so back to my original question...when should I tell her? We are going up to see her and my stepdad this saturday for Easter (I will be barely 5 weeks) so I could tell her then OR I can tell her on Mothers Day when she will come down here to visit. Mothers day seems like such a great day to tell her and I will also have already had at least one u/s, probably two so we will have a good idea of how everything is going. I just don' tknow if I can actually keep it from her for that long...another month?? that is going to be really hard. I am also trying to think what would she want and I think she would probably want to know now....she was so excited last time. Arrgghhhh...I just dont' know what to do. I will talk to DH about it tomorrow and see what he says but we need to decide before saturday! What would you do?
Happy Monday! Boy my stomach is really doing a number on me today. It just isn't happy with whatever I eat. BLAH!!! Its ok though..I will take it.
So I bet you are wondering what I ended up doing on Saturday...did I tell my mom or not???? I DID!! I am so glad that I did too. She was so happy and said that she had a feeling that I was since I was so happy each time we had talked. She is happy that my doc is being really great about this pregnancy and that I am on the progesterone. We have already made plans to look at fabric for the maternity clothes she is going to make me when she comes down for Mothers day. Speaking of Mothers day...I am going to buy these shirts that I found online that say "Future Grandma" for my mom and my MIL. If we haven't told my in-laws by then...she will know! I think they are going to love the shirts.
Can I just tell you how happy I am right now. I am REALLY happy. I am only thinking positively about this pregnancy and I have a really good feeling that everything is going to be just fine. I am visualizing holding my baby in December and its beautiful. Now I can't wait until the 17th and we get to see our little bean in the u/s and see that heart beating away.
Only 8 more sleeps until the u/s!!
Today is the day...our first u/s and doc appt. I am excited but am getting kind of nervous. I know its just past experience that is making me nervous for I feel really good about this pregnancy. So far things have been great...nausea has totally set in and I feel like hurling a lot of the time though I haven't yet. My boobs are not that sore yet...the sides are more tender than other places though they have been itching a lot. I don't remember them itching the last pregnancy. I have a bit of bloat and I am exhausted most of the time. The headaches are coming and going too. I love it though...I am just so happy to be pregnant.
I don't want to start a pegnancy journal just yet though...I want to wait a few more weeks still.
So remember my good friend marcia and her husband that died back in january? Well saturday is Marcia's 30th birthday. It is so sad that she won't be able to celebrate it. I really want to do something special for her on saturday, I just don't know what yet. I miss her so much. I know that she is looking down on me and helping this little bean...I can just feel it. Saturdya is going to be a hard day.
I will update more later with my u/s results....
The u/s went great yesterday. The baby is measuring about 6w5d so pretty close to what I thought. We also were able to see the heartbeat..it was amazing. The doctor said that we are "caustiously optimistic". Great huh? We are excited. We have another u/s schedule for next friday the 27th to make sure everything is progressing. I will be about 8 weeks then. That is the time period that our baby died the last time so I will be relieved a little bit more after that u/s. We will then have another u/s around 12 weeks. I have a really good and peacefull feeling about this pregnancy ladies.
Matt was happy too but we both decided to not tell anyone else just yet. We will wait a few more weeks to make an announcement..maybe until the end of May when I hit 12 weeks. We will see how things go.
Here is a pic of our little bean:
7 w 1d (approx)
Can I just say... :puke: I feel nauseated almost all day long!!! I am not actually puking but man I sure feel like I need to. I am also tired most of the day and don't feel like doing a lot of things. I am starting to get bloated too. Ok, enough of the complaining..right! Well I don't mean to complain or if it sounds that way...i am just writing what is going on with my body.
I think I am going to wait another week (until my next u/s on the 27th) before starting my pregnancy journal. I have a good feeling about this pregnancy but I don't want to get too ahead of myself..IYKWIM?
DH has duty this weekend so I am planning on just hanging out and relaxing. I am going to spend time with Misty and the kids tomorrow and thats about it. I am looking forward to it.
I hope you all have a great weekend!
Hi ladies! I finally started my pregnancy journal for those of you who would still like to follow my journey. Here is the link: http://www.pregnancy.org/bulletinboards/showthread.php?t=42262
Things are going great so far...this one is def. sticking! We also found out last week that we are having a boy! We are very excited.
I wish you all the best of luck and hope to be seeing some of you writing in your pregnancy journal soon.