That's pretty slack. If I do say so myself.. slacker!
I think a really hard part of being a board lurker is seeing other people get what I want.
I know some of us went from TOC to TTC to Conceiving..
I am just so sick of sitting in a holding pattern.
It's like I'm so very happy for them all... but inside I feel something hit my heart.. and it hurts.
I don't know what my life is going to be like for the next few years. I was comfortable where we were at.
Then God called us higher...
And we've answered. But should I even be a little upset? I don't think I'm called to be a childless woman... or maybe I missed the mark.
I lurk on the TTC 0-12 months board... and there are a lot of BFP over there these days.
I asked N.es if I got pregnant would that change anything?
He said probably...
Is it wrong to secretly pray I'm pregnant every month?
It has not seemed like God's timing even when we approached the date we felt God had given us to start TTC.
So maybe I can't hear.. or maybe I'm just not paying close enough attention.