Started my injections last night.
Crazy how after about half an hour after the shot my ovaries start to twitch.
Generally its just for a half hour or so but this time it was all last night and I have felt it today as well. It is a higher dose than I am use to so I guess we'll see what happens when I go for my scan next monday.
Scary it really does seem like its all happening too fast yet it cant seem to happen fast enough. I just want to know what the end result will be. If I am going to get a BFP and if the baby will be a sticky bean. hoping and praying that both of those things will happen and I will be getting an April 2006 baby!!
Im all bloated and its not very comfortable to walk, sit, lie, sleep. Im hoping that means lots of follicles and lots of mature eggs inside them.
I really hope this works first go or that we at least get a lot of embryo's out of this go. It will be way too hard to convince Martin to do another stimulation cycle.
I am so sick of saying Im a TTC'er. I hate it. After almost 8 years and 9 months of TTC I hate all the questions and all the preconceived notions people have when you answer them. Like at the moment I am arranging the invitations for my dad's 50th B'day party and was speaking to an old family friend yesterday to get her address to send the invite to her.
"How many children do you have?"
"No I dont have any children"
"Oh thats a shame. Don't you want them?"
"Yes we do very much."
"Oh then why"
"We have been trying."
"Are you doing it right" said with a chuckle
"yes thank you." (adding "Want the video" in my head)
"Do you think you aren't meant to have kids then"
"No I do think I am meant to have babies"
"Oh if you think so"
"Have you seen a doctor about it?"
"Yes for years"
"Oh".....then as an after thought "what did he say"
" Well. I was put though all sorts of tests. I have been through all sorts of fertility treatment and drugs" (explanation of drugs and whats involved here)
"Oh they are not really natural"
"They are used by a lot of people nowadays"
"Yeah but its still not natural"
"No but how else am I supposed to have a family"
"Well I guess it comes down to whether you are supposed to have a family..............And it obviously has not worked for you"
"Well in fact it did. Last year. But I miscarried"
"Oh well It was not really meant to be then."
"But I got pregnant 4 more times naturally this year and miscarried all of them too."
"Oh dear. perhaps you should give up then"
"No we are going through IVF right now"
"Oh dear. That really is not natural....you'll have 5 babies like those ones in the paper"
"No I wont they are very strict"
"Well I'd be prepared for it not to work or to have another miscarriage again then!!"
"Well I have to go my grandchildren are here. See you at the party"
Yeah Um I will be avoiding you all night and possibly even putting the wrong address on the invitation when I send it to you...........
Martin's car had to be put in for repairs and today we found out it was going to cost $781 to fix. Just happens to be the week we are supposed to pay $1470 for the IVF. gonna truy and put of paying for the IVF for a week and even then see if I can pay half next week and half the week after. UGH
Anyway so Martin was in a foul mood all weekend so this morning having no car had to drive with me all the way into the city getting there at 6.45am and then waiting for me then afterwards we had to go through peak hour traffic to get to him to work afterwards
Anyway as for my scan
I have lots of follies. she did not tell me how many because they are all under 10mm and she said that you dont know how many of those will actually turn into bigger follies or if any will reabsorb.
So my dose has been upped to 350IU(from 200) and I go back in on Thursday for another scan. Man I hope there is progress by then.
The longer the process takes the more antsy martin will get.
My Endo lining was 8. dunno really what that means..lol.
Well I had my scan this morning and I was so scared that there would be nothing there etc.
Anyway the nurse starts the scan and she tells me my lining is 9.7 thats cool anything over 8 is good.
Then she starts hunting for my left ovary and has trouble finding it.....I know the sucker is wedged in under my cervix. anyway she finally fins it and then we see the nice pretty follicles. 13mm, 13mm, 13mm and a bunch under 10mm
then she scans over to my right ovary and then the follies come into focus. 11mm, 11.5mm, 11.5mm, 12.5mm and a bunch under 10mm.
woo hoo I have follies.
Then she rang my doctor and the doctor upped my dose of meds again to 450IU and I have to go back to what will most likely be my final scan on monday. The follicles should have grown more by then and the ones under 10mm could have a chance to catch up and grow bigger.
Most likely my OPU(ovum pick up) will be wednesday/thursday and my ET(embryo transfer) will be friday/saturday
Now I need more of thos follie growing vibes for the ones I have to get bigger and the under 10mm ones to grow to a decent size too.
Holy moley I have had an over abundance of EWCM today. felt like I wet myself lol.
Also My boobs are really swollen and my nipples are all horrible and pink and hurt like the dickens. I would imagine this means my ovaries are ready to ovulate the eggs that are big enough but the drugs I am on is stopping that.
Bring on Monday
I managed to go to a movie on friday night but yesterday Martin wanted to go to the city and I just could not move. It hurts to walk and I have to pee all the time. I hope that meanst my follies are growing in numbers and size and mostly likely pressing on the old bladder. Its hard for martin to go out like that by himself. He says he feels single but not!! lol
Today he wanted to go to the sunday markets and I still could not go with him. Its going to be hard enough going down the road for my scan tomorrow. every car trip hurts cos the roads are so uneven and bumpy. then I will have to travel to the city on wednesday(pretty please) for the OPU and thats an even loger trip!!! It should be okay afterwards cos all my follies will have been drained but then when I go for the ET I will be needing to rest again and it will just happen to be on friday so I will be resting all weekend lol. Poor Martin!!
Oh well thems the breaks when you are going through IVF!!