Friday, Feb.3, 2006
Well I had some EWCM yesterday but the night before, dh and I bd'ed and I am still not convinced that the CM wasn't some post bd "stuff". I will see what I am producing today and I think that will give me a little more insight. I posted the question, and most of the ladies seem to think it is true EWCM so I hope they are right!!
I know both of my ovaries are aching and they do that shortly before and after O. I have to sit down very s-l-o-w-l-y lol. My temps are looking good anyway. I had a nice dip yesterday which I thought would correspond to O, but temp is 97.5 today so don't think it has quite happened yet... patience patience.....
I so want to have a 4th now. I was pondering it for a while and flipping back and forth on the subject, but now I know for sure. The problem is that I think its harder to concieve when I am totally obsessed with it-which I am starting to be. Trying to stay in the mindset of "If it happens, it happens" but its difficult to do..
I will be gone until monday, so hopefully by then I will on the 2ww...oh no :roll: now on to a new kind of obsessing!!!
Monday, Feb. 6, 2005
Well there was no O for me on the weekend I am afraid to say. I think now I know I am going to go get either an OPK or one of those fertility monitors because I have no idea what is going on. Sometimes I think the stress of not knowing if I am going to O soon or not keeps me from O'ing so maybe I will at least get some peace of mind.
My CM is gone back to sticky but my ovaries still ache...?
I am going to Walmart today to see what I can find..
I don't want to have a cycle like I did before when it was cd 38 before I O'd!!!!
I am soo frustrated!! I don't know if I o'd or not!! I hate this part!!!! :angry6: I think I o'd on cd 15 but the last time I bd'd besides last nite was on Cd 11!!! Is that too far away from o to keep those spermies alive? My Opks the night before yesterday was dark, and yesterday was dark (very close to being as dark as control), so I have no idea what is happening!!!! Why can't this be easy?!!! I am soo worried that IF i did ovulate on cd 15 that there were no sperm to greet that egg!!! :(
I can't wait to go to sleep to take my temp tomorrow so I can have a better insight as to what is happening!!!
Well I have definately o'd but the question is when....
If I did o on CD 15 like ff says I did, I probably missed the eggie :( :( . But if my Opk is right ( I will try to post a pic) then I o'd sometime after cd 16, like hopefully cd 18 in which case I may have caught the eggie!!
I am so confused... the temp jump indicates cd 15, but opk indicates after cd 16.... I posted the ? and hopefully I will get some insight into this...
I am feeling sad,, can those spermies last to fertilize that egg?
Well at least I ovulated....
Okay, I think I am officially going nuts. I am feeling nauseous and tired and I know darn well that it can't be pg symptoms, the poor little egg wouldn't have even implanted yet.
I sure hope I timed bd'ing right....I have got a poll going but alas no one is responding. I guess no one likes to answer questions like that (can't say I blame them). I am going to go with my gut instinct and say that I ovulated on cd 17 (like so many of my cycles before), and in that case it is good because I bd'd on cd 16. .. Plus my post-o temps have ALWAYS been above 97.9, so most signs point to me being 1 DPO....
9 days till testing.... oh no.... :roll:
Friday, February 10, 2006
Well, I had a nosedive in my temp this morning :-? I hope is just a temporary thing.... I am so confused about my o day!!!!
The thing is I feel bloated and gassy...I had that down in my last pg chart... My bb's don't hurt or anything but i didn't mark it down in my last pg chart either...
I would be the most surprised woman in the world if I am pg. Based on my chart, I think it's a bust. This obsessing is maddening!!! I actually want to by some POAS's!!!
Hopefully I will have some better entries than this next week..
Well the good news is FF FINALLY figured out that I o'd on cd 17 (I knew I did). And my temp did go back up. It is down to 98.1 from 98.5 but I am trying not to overanalyze my post o temp until about after 8 DPO because the egg doesn't implant until then and that is when temps should go up. I still feel like this cycle is a wash though... :( I don't know why. I am feelling tugging in my abdomen but it is way too early to blame that on a pregnancy...
I am crossing my fingers that my temp goes back up!!!
please please please please
Tuesday, Valentine's Day
What a valentines day present for me--I started spotting--alot!! :( Granted it is still only spotting but there is alot and it mostly means I am out this month.. :( I don't understand i am only 6 DPO!!! I guess the pill did this to me. I am so sad my valentines day is going to be horrible. Dh is taking me for supper tonight and I am just not up to it now... I will for him but I am just so disappointed..
I think I will go buy some progesterone cream.. It can't hurt... I so thought I might be pregnant... :( :( :(
Okay, it is almost noon and I am spotting still but not any more than before. I feel okay otherwise. I looked at my old pg chart with Josh and I saw that I started spotting 6 dpo too. And now that I think about it, I remember thinking that month was a bust but then the spotting seemed to stop, so please please please send alot of babydust my way!!!! I will be gone this afternoon and tomorrow on a course but I am hoping hoping hoping that when I come back on thursday I have good news....
Thursday, February 16, CD1
She came.... :(
On to the next cycle.
Tomorrow I won't be checking in because I am throwing a baby shower for a close friend (see above entries) who just had a beautiful little girl. I will be back monday.
I think I had a short LP because of just coming off the pill. TCOYF says short lp's are common after coming off the pill. I was only on it for 3 months but I guess that is enough. Cross your fingers that AF has a short visit this month!!!
OMG!!!!!!! I am PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!
I totally thought this month was a wash!!!! I have been spotting so I am being cautiously happy. On friday I woke up and my temp shot back up to 98.4 and I was going to test in the morning but didn't. I tested at 6 pm and got a BFP!!!
On saturday I was going to test in the morning but I didn't because I had this huge gush of blood so I thought I lost the pg. But I had no further bleeding just brown stuff so on sunday I tested and I got another BFP!!!
I can't believe this!!! I have NO symptoms by the way. I am going to call the ob/gyn and find out about the spotting. She will probably want to see me.
Okay, it's after 9 and I made an appointment to see my new ob. Boy was I spoiled with Dr.Lim! They won't even look at me until I am 3 months pg!!! She just said if I am bleeding, go to the hospital. To heck with that, I made an appointment with my GP for Thursday. Dr Lim would have had a 6 week u/s booked already.... Sheesh