Well today is CD3- and I am ready for af to leave. It has been an emotional two days, it seemed everything was going wrong and that I would never be able to ttc again. My first day of my af started the same day I first posted, it was very painful that night which caused some emotions to come back from my m/c. Seeing the blood wasn't hard, but the cramping was. So I went to bed early and hoped the pain would go away.
Yesterday I woke up with more cramping. I decided to take medicine, but would have to wait till after my dentist and fingerprinting appointment to take the medicine the dr gave me. So I went to my fingerprinting appt and for some odd reason the machine wouldn't read my fingerprints, so we will see if it actually works. Then I went to the dentist and found out that I have to get my wisdom teeth removed. I got so upset because I did not want this to get in my way of ttc. So I decided I would go ahead and call and see if they could quickly make me an appointment to get them removed.
Well I called this morning and told them that I was trying to get pregnant and was wondering if I could get an appointment quickly. She told me that they would look at my x rays and go from there. Well Clyde went and got my x rays from the dentist and took them to the surgeon. They looked over them and called me back this afternoon. I definitely need them removed, and they worked me into the schedule for next Friday- Sept 30.. So I will be getting all four removed during my non fertile time and this will not mess up this ttc cycle.Yeah
So now the only thing standing in my way of ttc is my appointment next week to check on my cyst. I am so scared that it is going to be bigger and the dr is going to put me on bcps to make it go away. But I am not going to worry about that until I know for sure. I hope it is ok and I will be ok with ttc again!!!!
Ok well i am in a dilema, that only clyde and I can decide on.
I am not sure I am ready to ttc. I think I am emotionally ready most days, but then I think about it and I cant imagine having another m/c, and am scared that that will happen again. Physically- My dr told me that I just needed to wait until af comes till I try again, well now she is here and now I am freaking out. I believe I ovulated this last cycle, and af came so I believe that everything is happening the way it should, but what if I begin ttc too soon. What if I should wait another cycle or two. UGH!!!!!
I talked to Clyde last night, and he said just to wait and see what is going on around my fertile time. He is scared that I will have a hard time with the wisdom teeth removal, and wants to make sure everything is ok. If I am fine and we get pregnant this cycle then that would be great, but I cant help think what if we do and my body is not ready. I have an appointment with my dr next week, and I guess I will ask him again if everything is ok and if he thinks I am fine to ttc this cycle, or if he thinks I should give it another cycle. Also I am not sure about the cyst, so I guess I will just wait till Wednesday to see what happens at the doctor. I will take this one day at a time- if it happens then I believe it is God's will.
Everyone I talk to says well you are not even sure you will get pregnant that first cycle. Well that is what worries me- I did get pregnant my first cycle last time. What if I do and my body isn't ready for a pregnancy- Could i deal with another m/c. Ugh- well thanks for letting me vent and get this out- I needed to say it.
Wow- it has been awhile since i last posted. I have decided that I am ready to ttc. I know it is going to be tough, but I cant imagine not having a baby- and the only way to do that is ttc.
I had my appointment today. My dr found another cyst, on my right side, where the previous one was on my left side. The previous one was gone. I talked to him and he said it is ok if I ttc and that it will probably disappear soon. So I am full force ttc- hopefully in 30 days I will be getting a bfp!
Well today I have gotten myself ready to ttc. I went out today and bought a pack of 20 opk's and a pee cup. I also bought another box of opk's so I would have enough to get me through this cycle. I also went and bought another container of prenatal vitamins. So I am ready.
We bded last night for the first time since my m/c. I was amazed that it didn't hurt, and that I was ok with it. It was very nice to be intimate like that again. I think we are going to follow the sperm meets egg plan- bding every other day until I get a + Opk, then bding those three days, then taper off once my cm dries up.
I have figured out the way my cm is, I think. I noticed on the last two cycles that I usually have a few days of heavy cm, it goes away for a day or two, and then very heavy for one day- that is the day I ovualte. Both cycles that day has been 14 days before af comes. So good luck to me.
I have my wisdom teeth surgery tomorrow. Hopefully it will go smoothly so it wont mess up our ttc.
Today is CD16, and I am confused. Last night we bded as soon as dh got home from work. I actually attacked him which I think he liked. It was the first time we did it that quick after work, so I would say around 6 pm. I had the normal amount of leftover semen last night, but it tapered off close to bedtime. This morning I woke up with very heavy cm. It is transparent, and slippery- kind of like lubrication. It is stretchy though, which is what is confusing me. It looks like all the pictures of fertile cm. So I took an Opk. Normally my opks are completely negative, only the control line shows up. Well today i have two lines, but the test line is slightly lighter than the control line, which is a negative. My cp is high, soft and closed so ff says I am most likely fertile. So I dont know. I know though that i have longer cycles and this is extremely early for me to o. I guess I can just bd tonight and see tomorrow what is going on. Dh Is going out of town next week so I guess I am hoping that this is it, so I can have my time with him before he leaves. Oh well again I guess I will have to wait and see. I will let you know as soon as I find out.
Ok well i am in the same situtation i was in earlier. I believed I oed, which for me is wierd this early, but I am not sure when. It could possibly have been the 16, which ff tends to agree with, or it could be the 19. If it was the 16 then why do I have such a huge temp drop on the 19, would that be to soon for implantation, I wish you could just find one certain thing that would tell you YOU Oed, but I guess for me it is not that easy. Well I am just going to continue to bd, and either get af or a bfp soon. I HOPE!!!!
Well today is cd 28, a lot has happened since the last time I posted. FF gave me crosshairs on Cd 16, so I believed it. I went through the dreaded 2ww, but started to get very depressed watching my temp drop lower and lower. So I gave up hope at the end of last week. Well Saturday (today is monday) ff took away my crosshairs. As I looked at my chart I wasn't 100% sure I oed when ff said I did. First off none of my normal symptoms of o had occured, second I still had cm which after o for me is wierd. Third it was really early. So yesterday I took a opk and it was very close to positive. The lines were the same color- all of the symptoms of o are here- my cervix is high, soft and open, my cm is ewcm, my temp dipped, and I had a + opk. This morning I woke up and took another opk, and it was a definite positive (no doubts about it)- So it looks like I was wrong and getting upset over nothing!!! I am finally oing today and it feels great! I am going to bd tonight and tomorrow for safe measures. Hopefully this one will work and stay stuck and I will be pregnant for real...
Well today is CD30 and I oed!!! I am pretty sure it was yesterday, CD29, since I had another +opk and more cm than normal. I am excited!! This morning my temps went up so it looks like this actually happened. Now I am in the dreaded 2ww, and hopefully will not stress about it. I actually am ok with the fact that it may not happen> I feel like if I am not pregnant this cycle, than this is God's way of telling me I need another month to heal!! Which is ok too. Anyway I will post later once I get those crosshairs..
Well after another night of no sleep, I have decided to stop temping during the 2ww. I am tired of stressing about the degree, and if I have had 3 hours of sleep, that I cant do it anymore. So I am going to take the next two weeks off. WOO HOO.. I am actually looking forward to not wondering- even though Clyde is going to have to hide the thermometer.
I have had the worst gas for the last two days. I remember that being one of the first symptoms I have had- but it is definitely too early this time around. Anyway I guess I will start the psycho behavior..