Well 5 dpo and I have several could be symptoms. Yesterday I felt like crap- headache, nausaus, and tender breasts. I think it was a short lived virus. Today I am feeling better- my back is hurting though.
I am so happy I decided not to temp. Even though I would like to see what my temps are doing, I am happy that I am not stressing out about it. It is good to not worry about it each morning. We went today and bought a memory foam matress pad for our bed, hopefully it will also help with the no sleeping.
I so want to be pregnant this cycle. I know I said it would be ok, but it is like all my thoughts are I am. I hate thinking that becuase if I am not I will be upset. I guess I need to start thinking that their is a good chance I am possibly not pregnant this cycle. 7 days till I am suppose to test, that would make me be 12 dpo. I would like to wait until 14dpo, but would also like Clyde to be there so it looks like next Sunday is it.
6 dpo- looking at my chart from the cycle I got pregnant- today is the day I started spotting. Either I hope I do not spot (if it is bad) or I spot if good. I do not want to spot if it is the start of a m/c, if not then I would be ok spotting (implantation bleeding). Anyway! I hate this so much, why cant we come up with something that says pregnant the day after you o!!!
Well I am 8dpo and I am going insane with pregnancy symtoms. I am not sure if what I have is a symptom or I am just going crazy. I have all sorts of things (sore bbs, headache, backache, lower abdomenal cramps). Today I woke up and have been so nauseas all day. It feels like I need to go to the bathroom but dont (already had 1 bm today). My stomach is very tender around my belly button and the part under my belly button is where it is hurting the worst. Ugh. I eat and am fine for awhile and then it bothers me again. Why does the 2ww toy with me so.. 4 days till testing.
Goodness after reading that last post I do sound insane. I started af four days early. She showed up as spotting, and then by yesterday afternoon was bleeding. This morning I woke up in a ton of pain, lots of bleeding, and very light headed. Welcome back to pre- BCP's af. I haven't had one like that in awhile.
So onto another cycle. I believe I was having af symptoms or a stomach virus. I did feel like crap, so that is why I was thinking stomach virus. I am doing well with the outcome of this cycle. I think it is giving me a chance to continue to heal from my m/c- emotional and physically. So anyway all is good- cycle 2 here I come.
I am back and feeling better about this new cycle. I got online and bought not only Opks, but also pre-seed and a new BTT. I have been working at not posting as much and trying as hard to enjoy my time with this process it will happen.
Today is CD 11 on my 2nd cycle trying after my m/c. I have taken some time away from the boards, because i not only have been a little depressed I also dont want to get obsessed like last cycle. Last cycle I stressed way to much about what was happening and if I was pregnant. This cycle I am not so stressed- I could care less about my temps, and if I dont wake up to take them oh well. I also am still checking cp, and cm but again am not as obsessed as last cycle. i am not going through the downfall when af shows up.
I am also a little depressed. I use to love going to the March board to see about the girls that were there with me. I see them now and they are getting so big, and now it just hurts knowing it is not me. So I cant go there anymore. My jealousy is also kicking in which is horrible. I have been posting on ttc 0-12 month board and a majority of the ladies that were there when I started have moved on. I am so happy for them, but then I get sad because I wish I was moving on with them. Poor pitiful me I know!!
So I have pulled away from the boards. I also want to keep myself busy so that I dont stress out about ttc. Dh is out of town this week, and will be back on Thursday. I have a dr appointment on Thursday to check my cyst again. I am going to use robitussin this cycle starting on cd 20, and still using opks each day!
Well I think I am on cd 15, I am not exactly sure of the day. I had my appointment on Thursday to check my cyst, and realized I didn't post the results to that appointment. Well No Cysts!!! Yippee!! I had no cysts, and my Dr. said he saw a lot of follicles in my ovaries. So for once all good news at the drs office.
I am feeling pretty happy about this cycle. I bought tons of opks, and am testing everyday at the same time- closer to o I will probably check twice a day. I also am drinking Green Tea once a day, and also taking Robitussin to increase cm. I decided that since you are suppose to take it 3 times a day the 5 days before and the day of o, and since I am not sure when O will happen I am going to take one dose from cd 15-25 every other day. Then starting on cd 25-30 I am going to take it 3 times a day. I usually o between those days. I am also using preseed this cycle, even though we havent begun that. We are following the smep plan, so we have begun our bding marathon and will continue until o, which I believe will happen over Thanksgiving.
I was looking at my chart last cycle and I am starting to believe it was an annovulatory cycle. I got a positive opk, but I am not sure my temp increased since I didnt' temp after my so called o day. I also had spotting mid cycle which I never have, and I also had a very strange period this time. Normally my af is very heavy, but this time it was mostly spotting and 4 days earlier than expected. Putting all of that together I believe it is possible that I never actually ovulated. That may be all hopes though.
Well I am going to go, not to much to post since not much going on around here. I am just going to continue to bd and hopefully will get a bfp from this cycle.
Wow I just realized I haven't posted in a while- Today is cd 26, the day before Thanksgiving, and low and behold I got a blazing + OPk today!! I also this morning got a huge temp dip, which is what happened last cycle too. I am a little nervous about having to bd with family here, but I know it has to be done..
I am excited still about this cycle, not sure why, but I am not getting to upset about it. I know that if it doesn't happen next cycle we will continue to try, including using a fertility monitor. I will post later on in the 2ww. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!
Well today is cd 29 and I am not sure when I oed. I had a +opk on cd 26 and cd 27, I tested later in the day on cd 28, and it was negative. FF says I could ovulate between cd 26-cd 29. I had a temp rise yesterday but then today it dipped today. I am thinking about not temping but I would like to know if I am ovulating or not.
I am thinking about taking next cycle off- no opks or anything, just not prevent next cycle. That way I wont have to worry over the holidays about my temp and so on. We will see closer to the time though.
Well I am 4 dpo, and I am not too energetic about this cycle. I truely believe I missed the egg and am not going to stress about symptoms during this 2ww. I guess I am just not going to get my hopes up and then be disapointed, I would rather keep my hopes down and then be surprised with a bfp!