Today is 6 dpo, and I am doing well this cycle. I am not stressing, and my temps seem to have flattened out (same temp past 2 days). In the several months I have been temping I have never had that after o. Next cycle I am going to relax no temping, charting, or anything to help. I am just going to bd when I want to and etc.
I am so tired today, but I believe it is because of allergies/cold and also that I subbed yesterday for a spec ed teacher assistant, and I was exhausted last night. I almost slept the entire night last night, but woke up around 4:30 to pee (that is usnusal I normally pee several times by then). Anyway I am sorry for the ramble I am bored and this is what happens.
Well today is 8 dpo, and I am sick. I woke up this morning feeling like total crap. I am very emotional but I think it has to do with the fact that I am not feeling good. I have given up on this cycle, I dont think I am pregnant- no symptoms what so ever. Oh well.
Well it looks like I am fixing to start af early again. This morning I woke up in a great mood because my temp was up again. I went to the bathroom and was checking my cp and noticed a smudge of red. I freaked out- WHY?? Why do I keep getting af earlier then expected? Why am I not getting pregnant? etc. Well then I had a bm and a glob of brownish/red mixed with cm came out. I checked my cp again and now it was more a mix of cm with brown. So an hour later I went to the bathroom and now nothing- WTH.
I guess I am just sick of this torture- I cant do it anymore. We are taking this next cycle off- no temping, charting, etc. I do not want to have to worry about taking my temp over the holidays, and worrying about bding on schedule. So we are just going to relax this next cycle. I need to take a cycle off.
Well it is now 2 days since my last post, and I am still only spotting. I guess my m/c and D&c have screwed up my periods. Before my m/c I had no spotting beforehand, several days of heavy flow, and then spotting for a few days. The past two cycles I have spotted for 2 days, heavy flo for 3 days, and then spotting again for a few more days. I took a test yesterday just to check and it was negative. I knew it would be negative, but I wanted to make sure it wasn't just implantation spotting. I believe that af is very close since I am now getting af cramps and it looks like the bleeding is picking up.
We are definitely taking next cycle to relax. They have me oing over New Year's eve. We will not only have guests, but I know we will not be able to work in a bd session since we go to sleep at different times on that night. I also want to be able to enjoy drinking, etc. So no temping, charting, etc. I am happy with this decision- I am going to try to get in shape (40 days is enough time to loose some weight)
I surrender all!! I am putting the ttc process in God's hands. He is in charge and I am going to give it all to him. I trust that he will give me a child when we are ready, and it is all in his hands. Wow such a relaxation has come over me, and it is amazing how much it calms me.
Af is almost gone, and Christmas is almost here. I have been busy shopping, cleaning, cooking, and just enjoying the holidays. My bro and his family are coming next weekend, and will be here for two weeks. I am so excited about seeing them. We are making plans for New Year's= either we are going to have Clyde's family here on NYE or NYD.
I also cant believe that we have almost been dating for 7 years. It feels like we just met, but I feel like I have known him forever. I love my baby!!!
I am so thankful for this wonderful time of year!! Happy Holidays everyone!
Well af has left the building, and i am now on cd7!! I am so relaxed about this cycle, and what I needed was to take this cycle off. I am spending the time exercising and eating right. I have lost a total of 2 pounds, which for me is good. 14 more to go!!! Clyde built me a step and i have been spending the day exercising using that.
Christmas is almost here!!!!! Less than 2 weeks and i am so excited!!! YIPPEEE!!!
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, and man am I excited. I am so happy to go see my entire family, and get to spend time with my wonderful nieces. We are leaving tomorrow morning, and I am not exactly sure when I will be back. Clyde is going out of town for work, and I am trying to decide if I want to come back or just stay in AL while he is gone. I guess I have to decide!!
As Christmas and The New Year approaches I think about this past year. It was a difficult year in more ways than one. This year I lost my teaching position, my wonderful uncle passed away, and I had my m/c and d&c. I am so blessed though- I have a wonderful husband and family, a great house, and we are doing ok financially. I am blessed. Next year will bring the one thing that i am wantly so desperately (I hope)
I cant believe we have been together for 7 years- our first date was on January 2 7 years ago. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and sooner or later our family will be complete. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Christmas was wonderful- everything was great and I got wonderful gifts. Well today is 4 days after Christmas, and we are finally celebrating Christmas with dh's family. Tonight we are all going over there for present exchange, and dinner. I am so excited about this weekend since it will be New Year's Eve and Day. I am so excited about getting to relax and enjoy my time with dh.
We are on cd 24, I checked ff today, and we are getting close to ovulating. Even though I am not temping I still know o is coming. I have all the classic symptoms, but I am not sure when it will happen. FF says on the 1 or 2 of January, which is next Monday or Tuesday. I am just happy to be able to celebrate not only the day of our first date, but also the day we got engaged this weekend. Maybe just maybe I will get a surprise anniversary gift!! I think it would be amazing to say we concieved on the day we started dating. It would just be magical in my eyes. I also think it would mean a lot more to me, being around this time.
I am not going to get my hopes up though, due to the fact that it will most likely end the same way as the past two months- with bfn. I will not be testing until I am on cd 45 or more, since that will be the longest cycle I have ever have- and that will make me late. God give me strength not to stress during this part of my cycle.
Today is the day ff says I am to ovulate, and I am pretty sure it is about to happen. CM is very ewcm, cp is high and soft, and I have the classic o symptoms. Yesterday I woke up sick as a dog, and think either I have a bad chest cold or I have brochitus. I am having a difficult time breathing, but am doing ok. What a way to enjoy my anniversary.