I'm starting to get worried again.. I did an OPK when I get home last night and one this am.. they were both VERY negative. Very light lines.. I bought the digital ones, but i still pop out the stick and look to see exactly HOW negative it is. Hmmm... I know it is still early but I'm getting worried.. I can't help it.. I've been disappointed so many times before. I'll keep testing until Tuesday, CD 18, after that I don't have anymore. I have my b/w on the 15th anyway, so no point in testing after that. The b/w will show what's going on. I was so positive.. and I'm still trying to be.. its just so hard..
Last night we BD and it felt like a chore to me. I think DH was satisfied, but my mind was elsewhere.. Gah.. I try really hard not think about this TTC stuff. I don't know what to do..
Feeling a little better today. I think mostly because it is Friday!! Yippee!!
I'm going to happy hour tonight w/ a couple of friends. Hopefully that will help me relax in prep for my weekend full of BDing!!
I forgot to bring my OPK to work, so I'll have to do it tonight. I hope it's darker.. I'm really going to be bitter if this month is also a bust..
I was so worried too that it wasn't going to happen. Here's the rundown of the last couple of days..
Friday: I went out w/ a couple of girlfriends for happy hour. By the time I got home and got hubby fed, etc, i realized I hadn't POAS yet. So I decided to wait until the next morning. We BD'ed anyway.
Saturday: We get up to go to my parents' house. I POAS and it is BLARINGLY POSITIVE!! The digital one gave me a smiley face and when i pulled it out, it way darker then the other. VERY COOL! I showed hubby and he was happy. That night we came home and BD. I used Preseed in case my CM was low.
(Symptoms included major ovary pain, bloating and seensitive nips)
Sunday: another test and another positive!! New symptom of cramping down there and very h0rny! (Sorry TMI) That night we had some of the best BDing ever! (Thank God for hormones!!) Preseed was used again.
Monday: VERY sensitive nips! Holy cow! Couldn't even brush against them. I even had a hard time going to sleep cause they were so .. burning.. really weird. I asked DH when he has ever seen them like that and he didn't know. We didn't BD this day b/c DH was starting to feel underthe weather.
I'm so happy, I can't even stop saying it. I am on cloud nine. I don't care if we even get prego this round. Cause the BD is great and even better I ovulated!!
I haven't ovulated since J-U-N-E! I'm wondering if that is why the ovaries were so painful. Among being overstimulated by the Clomid.
So I am in the TWW. I have my B/W on Thursday to check my PL. I hope it doesn't matter that I didn't O until Monday. I've decided I will test on Thanksgiving. GAH!! What a wonderful day to find out, if i am!! SO much to be thankful for!! (i'm going to cry) It will be 10 DPO..
I'm actually really thankful right now that the next couple of weeks are going to fly by. We are celebrating T-giving at work on this Thursday. We leave for our cabin trip on Friday.. Monday I am hanging out w/ a friend.. Next week is only a partial week... Then a full weekend of football, family and food!! Wonderful!!
So I'm still having sensitive nips! 2 days past O.. weird. But I'm just taking them as good signs. I have my B/W tomorrow, but probably won't find out the results until next week. They are slow. I'm also having mild cramps in the uterus/ovary area.
I'm finally coming down off my high. Now I'm just tired and trying to get some work done since this and next week are short weeks for me.
Yesterday i was so ding batty! It was annoying me. I was very ADHD.. I would start working on something and then the next minute I'd be searching the internet.. Gah.. Hopefully today is better.
They have been trying to crack down on the internet use at work, so I hope I don't get in trouble.
I am taking care of my friends' Shih Tzu while she is in Kauai on her honeymoon. It's been interesting. I'm a big dog person and have 2 boxers. So its very strange to me to have a lap dog in the house. They are getting along pretty well, but he was such an annoying twit last night cause he kept wanting to get on my lap while I was watching the Biggest Loser. I can't just let him up when I don't even let my own dogs up. Sorry. But I am going to give him to another friend while we go to Broken Bow this weekend. I have to take mine to the g-parents. They like it up there. They get to run around 10 acres.
Ugh.. Christmas is coming so fast! DOn't get me wrong. I LOVE Christmas, but the thought of gift buying is daunting! I'm trying to decide if I am going to Black Friday shopping.. we'll see. Last year I went w/ my MIL.. Being w/ her is exhausting enough!! Let alone shopping amongst OTHER crazy women!
I had my b/w this am and like I thought I won't get the results until next week. Probably Monday.
I kind of felt bad b/c I may have insulted the lab tech.. not sure. Okay- I'm a blood giver and stopped giving as much the past year b/c I have had such a run of bad phlebotomists. It was taking them at least 2 sticks to get a vein and that was getting very annoying and painful. One time the lady that came to take my blood for our life insurance had to stick me 3 times, I had to sign a waiver and she had to do it in my hand! Also, when I gave blood before my lap the nurse told me I have "phantom veins". Apparently they are there one second and gone the next.. So you have to be a quick stick! Anyway, so I'm slightly sensitive w/ the blood draws b/c I just have to assume that the person doing it might not be the best. So I told her that she was probably going to need a butterfly needle (the smaller needles are easier for tough veins) she pressed on my arm and said "No, you don't need one." And BAM she got my vein on the first try!! I told her that she was really good and she gave me a look like.. "of course I am, what did you think.." Oh well..
Symptoms so far are still slightly sore nips, not as bad and sore ovaries. I'm wondering if both of my ovaries are sore because I O'ed from both....... I know there is a slight chance and I'm probably delusional.. but it's hard not to wonder..
I think if this one doesn't work, I might just start looking into as specialist anyway.. I just feel like w/ my weird pains and from what I've read about on here, that I should be getting a little more attention (like scans and follie counts). It would make me feel better if I knew I wasn't getting cysts and overstimulation. I really don't think that is a lot to ask.
Here's to hoping this one worked..
I'll check in when I get my results. Hoping for high progesterone levels!!
We are back from our trip to Broken Bow, OK. It was fun. We had a great time. It was a long drive, about 7 hours, but it really felt like we were getting away. We went with another couple that we have known for a long time. I've known Chris since the 7th grade! Crazy. Anyway, I'm having some slight guilt twinges because I basically did everything I was not supposed to do. All those things they warn you about.. I did.. So I'm going to have a little confession session.. Please forgive me for I have sinned.. I drank alcohol and used the hot tub. Not supposed to do those things when possibly prego.. But I didn't smoke.. So I guess it's not all that bad. One great thing about our city is that there is a smoking ban in all public places. So there are no smoking sections at restaurants, even the bars downtown in Austin are all smoke free. There were alot of people upset about it, but the rest of us non-smokers shouldn't have to deal w/ it. So when we go to other places that don't have the ban, we get reminded how lucky we are to not go out to eat and come back smelling like an ash tray. Anyway, sorry for that detour..
I did take my prenatals and we did some hiking for exercise. It was really beautiful.
I got the call from my nurse about my blood work and my PL was 15.4!!!!!!!!!! YAY!! She said we will stay on this dosage if not prego and then to call her if I get a BFP or if I start. So the next 2 days are going to be very hard. Thursday is CD27 and 10 DPO.
I had lots of cramping yesterday and still have pointy nips. I cannot walk around w/o a bra on cause they just point out of my shirt! TMI, but it is annoying. Also I was so sick yesterday. I'm still getting over it today. My head was a balloon, my throat hurt, my neck hurt, and lower back was really achey.. It felt like I was getting Strep or the flu. I was so worried I would get a fever.. another thing you aren't supposed to get when prego. I'm telling you if I get a BFP.. it will seriously be a miracle. This cycle has been so crazy. I was going to be really mad if it was the flu because I didn't get my flu shot. I opted out because I have never gotten one, but also haven't gotten the flu. Most peole I talked to said they got sick afterword anyway..
So I'm really worried about my best friend. She had a m/c 2 months ago and was told to wait 3 cycles before trying again. Well last time I talked to her she hadn't started her 3 rd cycle yet and her cycles weren't normal anymore. She said she has been really hormonal and crying at the TV. I tried to call her today b/c we were going to get together and she didn't answer. I wasn't going to go up there anyway because I didn't want to get her sick, but I at least wanted to talk to her. It's so emotional TTC as it is but then to get through the rollercoaster of being exited from a BFP to then losing it 10 weeks later.. So terrible. I can't even imagine. I just want to let her know that I understand feeling like you are completely out of any control and that time will heal. I just hope that she can relax and try again when then time comes. I keep telling her the saving grace is that it took her no time at all the get prego the first time, so at least she is not like me that takes almost a year. I was so happy for her when she called to tell me she was prego. I really think they are going to be good parents. She is a teacher and he is a cop. They are very laid back and this is the next step for them in their lives.
Just like this is the next step in ours. DH and I have always been doing things about the same time as them. We got married, they got married, we got a house, the got a house.. so the next logical step would be for us to get prego and then they get prego, right?
Okay, so I'm not so much over my sickness yet. Last night I was up about every hour coughing. Ugh.. So I called in to work today. My boss was very understanding. There is no way I was going to get anything done. Even w/ the short week.
How many times have I gone onto pregnancy.org pregancy calendar to check to see where my possible pregnancy is? .... mm.... at least once a day.. so sad..
I have to go and buy some medicine and prego tests. I always hate buying them because the person behind the counter always has to a comment or reaction. Like, "is this a good or bad thing..?" None of your d@#$ business.
10 DPO is probably going to be too early, but show me a person that can hold on past then.. especially when you did everything you were supposed to this cycle.. and trying to deduct every little twinge and pain inside your body as if it were a "symptom." Not many out there..
Plus how cool would it be if I could take a pee test on Thanksgiving morning, go to my parents house and give them the good news. WHat a great day that would be. Definitely a fantasy.. but it's so hard not to think about.
I'm about to talk about my possible side effects and my nips again. So if you don't want to read, stop now. But I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror and my nips were orange..... orange?? I've read of people's getting darker but orange? :/ Weird. I'm also still having dull pains in my abdomen.. so who knows. I just want the waiting over.
Still sick, but my cough is more productive and I seem to be getting better. Right now I just feel exhausted.
Symptoms today are one sore bb and still sensitive nips. I'm getting some AF like cramps in my uterus.. which I think is way too early. I wasn't expecting a start until Monday. No spotting yet.
I really feel like these are good signs. Yesterday I kept going back and forth.. prego.. not prego.. prego.. not prego.. ugh.
DH got a little pissy w/ me yeserday and I just went off on him. I'm thinking that is hormone related, but also because of the stress of the upcoming holiday. I am just so exhausted, there is no way that I am going to be able to clean the whole and cook a meal for his family that are supposed to come over on Friday. He got pissy when I told him this and said that it puts a lot of pressure on him when his family always gets the "shaft."
I'm sorry, come again??
FIRST of all, the reason we are doing T-giving w/ his family on Fri and not Thurs is because his brother is a fire fighter and has to work that day. SO ? And as I recall (could be wrong) but pretty sure we did Xmas w/ them on Xmas day last year.. So again I ask ?
I wrote my SIL and email saying that I apologize for the short notice and change of plans (us being sick is kind of out of my hands...) and that is she didn't want to cook we could just go out to eat. No biggy. We'll see what they decide. Today I really don't care. For some reason, I'm very aloof today..
I just don't want them to come over. My house is a mess and I would feel like a lazy @$$ if someone walked through my door right now.
I can't wait until tomorrow morning.. I really hope that all this waiting has paid off..
WIsh me luck ladies!!! I'll update you on Friday after we get back from my parents.
I'll take a picture and post it of the test. The first one I took for my FMU was a dud. I was so pissed. I had it all planned out. We were going to tell his mom at breakfast and then my parents at lunch. Well we couldn't tell his mom until today.
BUt it was so sweet when we told my parents because my dad cried! Awww.. he never cries! The only time I see him cry are at funerals and me and my sis' weddings. Everyone so far has been very happy for us.
We also found out that DH's worthless brother got a 19 yo prego that he met on my space a couple of months ago.. awesome. I can't tell you how happy I am that we were prego when we heard that news. I would have been so pissed just like everyone else on here would have. You hear about that crap all the time. People who are being stupid are getting prego way faster than the rest of us who are actually trying. Ridiculous.
Anyway, its been a great Thanksgiving. Very weird, hasn't really sunken in yet. I can't go in for an ultrasound until the week before Xmas.. ugh.. so long away.. My OB's office won't see you until 8 weeks. AT least I might be able to have a picture to take to my grandma's to show her.
I'm not really sure of the EDD. I've looked at a couple of websites and calculators and they all give me something different. But it looks to be somewhere around the beginning of August. Seems forever away from now. Its crazy. The whole thing is. Just so hard to believe and weird. I really hope this thing lasts the whole way through..
Symptoms so far are some major cramping. No blood. I'm assuming that is implantation. Every morning I wake up and want to be sure I still am prego.. just give me a sign. So far the cramps are a good sign, I guess.
I haven't been too moody. DH is happy about that. I need to get a good prego book. I have "what to expect.." which is okay, but its kind of dated.. 2002. I'm going to look for a more recent one and just read that in the meantime.
I'm not sure when I am going to give up this journal and go to the prego pages.. Maybe when this sinks in more..