Originally Posted June 4th 2002~
CD20 Well, seen as how our other TTC Journal isn't letting me post in to it, I guess I have to start a new one Bummer. I will leave all my links in this journal now too. Anyways, today I should have gotten (AF for those of you that don't remember that that is the symbol I will be using for her). That is going by the 20 day cycle that I have had the past 3 periods. Hummm. I am going to wait for the 28 day mark, as she used to be.
I don't want to get my hopes up just yet...I will wait the 8 more LONG days & keep all my fingers and toes crossed! On the down side, I have been a little crampy today. It just started later this afternoon.
Who knows. I also have a job interview tomorrow afternoon & a club that I went to last night wants me to go in and guest bartend next week. A possible job there if I like it. Possible!
Well, till tomorrow...
Here is my Fertility Friend link~ http://www.FertilityFriend.com/home/14d84/
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~Originally Posted June 5th 2002~
Well, I'm just adding in this fun post. It was correct in stating that my DS was in fact, my DS!! It was right for saying that my older brother is a Boy, but got my younger brother & I mixed up. I should have been a Boy & he, as a Girl. It was wrong is saying that my youngest nephew was going to be a Girl...
Who knows. Maybe it just isn't accurate in my family!! Here is the link if you would like to try...
Also, here is the link for the Journal that I started to write in. I still haven't been able to figure out why I can't post in it...
Here is a link that a friend gave to me a few days ago..we have both had m/c's and she found this & thought she will try it. I figure if I am not successful this month, then I will give this a shot. Hey, what would it hurt?
Well, here's hoping that doesn't show her nastiness within the next 10 days...
~Originally Posted June 7th 2002~
CD23~Yesterday I had to go in for a CT scan...for that story, click on this link http://www.pregnancy.org/phpBB/viewt...64&forum=335&6 .
Anyhow, like a numbskull, I didn't even think about the radiation and the fact that I am TTC, UNTIL I am already lying in the CT bed & the tech asks if there is a possiblity that I may be PG. DUH!! I am only trying to get pg!!
So anyhow, they didn't do the test. Instead, they had me go to a clinic to get tested~why they couldn't do it there is beyond me. They said that they don't do that...Hmmm... Anyhow, the test came back NEGATIVE. I knew it would~I'm not even supposed to get until the 13th... The doc that did the test, said to come back next week if I still haven't gotten her.
I did however, rebook another CT scan for next Thursday...Yup, the 13th. I want to remain optimistic about possibly being PG, but on the other hand, I really need to have this surgery done...
So, in the meantime, I will keep everything crossed & hope that I won't get my scan done next week too! A new baby is MUCH more important to us...
~Originally Posted June 8th 2002~
CD24~Nothing really to update on. Still not feeling any signs...I was grumpy a couple of days ago, but usually that lasts until is over with... I don't want to read into anything, but I am using this journal as a reference to look back on... I also have been real emotional for a couple of days now. I want to (and start) cry over silly things, or nothing at all. I was like that with my first pg...
Also, I miss DH. He has been staying at his grandparents house while they are away & because I am helping my Mom (after her hip replacement surgery), we haven't been able to spend hardly any time together. Only a couple more days till they come home
~Originally Posted June 11th 2002~
CD26 DPO8or6~ Well, I am becoming more nervous as each day comes closer . My Ovulation Calender http://dev.cogenttechnology.com/epl/...alcresult.html Says that my egg should have implanted on the 7th of June. 3 days ago. I don't have anything noted in Fertility Friend http://www.FertilityFriend.com/home/14d84/ That would say I was feeling "different". But today, I am crampy real bad & DO have spotting. Not like a period (this is light and DARK brown). I am wondering, could implantation cause spotting and cramping?
I don't know. Maybe I am just full of wishful thinking
I am also feeling really down & depressed tonight. DH hasn't spent the past 3 nights here. It doesn't look like tonight will be any different either. I have a feeling he has been behind my back before, but I listen to him. Why? I have no idea. Lack of self esteem maybe? He treats me like garbege. I know he loves DS, but what about me? He insults me, then gets mad when I get upset by it. Says he's "only joking" & that I need to "learn to take a joke". Well, I would, if it was funny.
He never does anything to make me feel special, like I am loved. I hate it. I feel so washed up.
Sorry to nag on this, but I need to vent my feelings.
Life sucks...Big time...
~Originally Posted November 26th 2002~
Just checking in here! I am so happy to see all the new ladies we have here! I hope that your stay with us is short!!
I am still not TTC. I don't know 100% what is going on with James & I yet, so I think it is best for all involved to stay away from that for now.
I had my sugery done last week (Tuesday the 19th) and things are going great! I took 2 weeks off of work & am already wishing I could go back! I love it there & get treated so well.
Anyhow, good night & baby dust to you all!! [/list][/code]
~Originally Posted December 31st 2002~
Well, it's official...I'm late!! I am always on time, if not early. I am so scared to test though. Since Saturday, I have been feeling like I am getting the flu. Yesterday(Monday), I actually got sick from smelling/looking at peaches.
I don't know if I should wait to test, or because I am planning on going out for New Year's Eve tonight, if I should just test today...
I'll keep you updated.
It has been an awful long time since I last wrote. James & I still aren't together & as a matter of fact, I have been seeing someone else since pretty much the beginning of January .
I am expecting to get AF ( ) this Saturday~April 19th, & I think after that, I will talk about going on some form of BC.
Well, AF didn't show up this morning I don't know what to do... I have been extremely stressed out lately & I'm sure that that could be playing games with me. I have done my usual bloat/weight gain thing, so I am not too excited to test yet. Plus, my back is killing me & that is another sign of AF.
I haven't told Jay yet, as I don't want to get him excited. He really wants to have a baby.
Well, still no AF... I don't know if I should just wait to test till I see my regular Dr. on the 24th...