*Sore bbs, comes and goes - thinking now it's just PMS
*Increased hunger starting this afternoon (again, PMS)
My temp this morning went down slightly. Overall my temps are running so much lower than they normally do post-O. Not sure what to think about that, except that I"m pretty sure this is not "the" cycle. Guess that dream I had was just that: a dream. My DD did say something interesting recently, too, told my DH (I wasn't there) that we would have a baby next year. Was probably just a random thing, though, since last week she told me that "she" wants a baby and has been oooing and awwwing over every baby she sees (and just "has" to go and see them :)).
BFN on ICs today, too (hey I had bunches of them that were donated to me, so why not, right? ;)).
Did Week 3, Workout 3-b today of the C25K. lol. I hope after doing "3-c" I'll be able to move on to Week 4. Today was slightly easier, but I didn't push myself quite as hard. It's like they tell you with the program, don't worry about speed in the beginning, just focus on jogging the distance/time. I don't want to be one of those slow runners, though, haha, so I am trying to push myself, just didn't push quite as hard today. It's starting to get hot here in FL, though! Once I was done with the run at the park today and had to use the bathroom, I had to throw cold water on myself because I was feeling so hot and a bit woozy. So I'm thinking I gotta change my schedule and start running in the mornings when it's cooler! Plus we will start getting those "afternoon thunderstorms" soon that FL is so notorious for in the summer.
Speaking of "summer," Hannah was begging and pleading with me to take her to the beach today. All it did was irritate me, because 1) I would have LOVED to go, but knew I wouldn't have time, because A) I had insomnia last night and kept waking up/not being able to go back to sleep, and B) on top of that, Hannah woke up at 3:00, then again at 6:00 and wanted to get up for the day, and so 2) I slept late as a result and didn't start my day until 10-freaking-a-clock which put me way behind schedule, so there was no WAY I'd have time to go to the beach, so how "dare" she "beg" me to go and not take no for an answer? :lol:
Well my temps went up and have stayed up the past 3 days, got my hopes up a little, too, but...as of late this afternoon still getting a negative hpt, and... spotting yesterday and today, more spotting.:(
On to next month. Such a waste of a pretty chart.
The good news is, my pre-AF spotting is so much lighter this month.
Moving on to more exciting news. I did Week 3, Workout 3-c on Friday. It was a little easier this time. Not EASY by any means, but easier. I think one more workout on Week 3 and I'll be ready to move on to Week 4. I just need to make sure I remember to do it first thing in the morning, doing it in the heat wears me out. I did the Jillian workout on Thu and Sat this past week. I'm debating whether or not to add a 3rd Jillian workout on Tue so that the workouts aren't so spaced out, but I'll be doing cleaning/moving boxes/organizing for two hours for my MIL on Tuesday mornings now, so I don't know if I want to add the J workout on top of that.
Speaking of cleaning and organizing, there is so much around my OWN house that I need to get done it isn't even funny. My vehicle is also due for another cleaning. Somehow, some way, I've got to figure out how to get it done.
Yesterday evening hpt was still negative. Spotting began to get heavier. So... WHY did my temp go up HIGHER this morning???? And naturally I didn't have any more hpts on hand, didn't see a reason to buy more when I ran out yesterday. But I did take an IC opk, and it was negative (opks can pick up hcg, too), so maybe it's good I didn't waste an hpt.
I guess my temp won't drop til tomorrow, when AF is due to arrive.
Different subject: I am beyond frustrated about something right now and I am determined to do something about it.
I want a clean, organized, clutter-free house. And mini-van.
I want to go through all the STUFF I have in the storage trailer and PURGE.
I have yet to accomplish the above, I've tried, but haven't gotten very far.
Something has to change.
My house is a mess. It's disorganized and cluttered. There is so much purging to be done, it's not even funny. And as far as cleaning, I don't expect it to be spotless, but having the whole house clean at one time would be nice.
So here is my plan of action so far:
1. By June 30, 2011 (my birthday), I will have a clean and organized house and maybe even storage trailer, and my mini-van will be clean and clutter-free on a REGULAR basis (will set a certain day each week to do it).
2. I will create a weekly schedule that I think I can stick to for accomplishing the above, and STICK TO IT. Even if I only spend one hour a day on it, consistency is the key.
3. I will spend LESS time on the computer. My main time-consumer is this Site, PG.org. I've said this before and not stuck to it, because I have a hard time keeping my replies/posts short, plus I try to post on ALL the boards I frequent every single day, more than once a day. THIS HAS TO STOP. I must pick and choose which boards to visit on which days, and stick to ONCE a day for most of them.
Wish me luck.
13 dpo (PM)
I had such a nice run this afternoon. My DD was BEGGING me to go to the beach and wouldn't take no for an answer. I told her I wasn't sure we'd have time and that "we'll see," but then a few minutes later she went looking for her bathing suit and when she couldn't find it she asked me where it was. I told her, not thinking she would actually go get it because 1) it was in MY dresser, and 2) it was in the TOP drawer, which I didn't think she could reach (I have a taller-type dresser). Next thing I know, she shows up holding her bathing suit, getting all excited and telling me to put it on her! Lil' stinker. That's the very reason I had it in MY dresser, so that she wouldn't be getting it out constantly and bugging me about going! LOL. Now I'll have to find a new hiding place. Anyway, she was so excited about going that I went ahead and put it on her and decided I'd put off doing a few things so we could go.
I'm glad I did. I went to my dad & step mom's place, which is only about a block from the beach, and parked there. After we went to the beach, I put on my tennis shoes, put Hannah in the stroller, and went for my run. I decided to go ahead and do Week 4 of the C25K and was a little nervous that I'd be ready for it, because it involves 4 intervals of 3 minutes straight of running. I was worried for nothing, I did just fine. After the 2nd interval, I could actually feel myself getting stronger, and I had so much more energy tonight!
I got more done around the house than usual today, too, and actually had the energy to clean ALL the dishes after dinner (pots included). This was after making black bean & rice tacos from scratch, which I hardly ever used to do (didn't make the tortillas, but everything else was from scratch--the beans started out as dry beans, the cheese was grated from a block, and I did the taco seasoning myself using minced garlic, chili powder, cumin, oregano, onion, olive oil, chives, salt & pepper, and diced tomatoes. It was very tasty :)
Oh yeah. How could I forget. Wanted to share what my DD did tonight.
She was in the bathroom a little too long, so I went to check on her, and found her putting makeup on with one of my makeup brushes --but guess what she was using for makeup? Blistex (the white, creamy kind). It was priceless. :ROFL:
*Ding ding ding!* Round #2,048! ... And... she's down for the count! Will she get up before the count gets to ten! Ahh yes, she got up, just in the nick of time! But she won't be finishing the fight just now, she's going to take a little break and come back later.
AF showed up, just as expected.
I'm taking a VACATION this month! From charting, that is. And I do mean a VAY-CA-TION. No opks, no temping, no checking CM. NOTHING. I shall be in ignorant bliss, waking up every morning when I feel like it, RELAXING, having NO WORRIES about ttc.
My focus will be on continuing to lose weight and getting in shape, and on getting my house in order. I have yet to make that schedule for making it happen, need to do that soon. Maybe I need schedule a session to schedule my week. LOL.
My brother told me today he'd be giving me at least 5 hours more per week of work to do, so I was happy to hear that. And what I will be doing will actually help lead to more work for him, and therefore even MORE work for me :)
I recently joined SparkPeople when a friend recommended it and I decided to check it out. I LOVE it so far, it is really helping me stay on track with my food and has lots of other great tools on the Site to keep me motivated. It gives me a meal plan and I can either just check off the foods or add my own food in and it tracks the calories for me (also the fat, carbs, protein, etc.). I can't wait to weigh in on Monday, it feels like I've lost some more weight this week, clothes are getting a little looser.
As for the Couch to 5K program, I need to make a correction to my previous post. I thought I was entering Week 4, when in fact I was only entering Week 3, and I also goofed on the running schedule for Week 3. I ran 3 min and walked 2 min for 4 intervals, when I was supposed to only be doing 2 intervals of 90 sec running/90 sec walking, then 1 interval of 3 min running and 3 min walking. Oops. I decided just to stay at that level to finish out the week, rather than downgrade.
So Day 2 of Week 3, which was Wed, went well, except it was so hot that it wore me out. The first running interval was a breeze, I wasn't even out of breath. But the 2nd and 3rd intervals were harder, and on the 4th one I REALLY had to push and finally gave out, but thankfully it was right at the end of that interval, so I made it! Phew. I MUST find a way to run in the EARLY MORNINGS, though!
Today was Jillian workout day, and it was also "Challenge my Patience" day because my dear, sweet, 4-yr old daughter was driving me up the WALL, bless her little heart. I am SO BEAT right now and too tired to even get into it. Told DH I need a break from mommyhood, so he's going to give me some time off sometime over the weekend. Can't be tomorrow because we have a Missions dinner to attend at DH's sister's church, though we will be leaving Hannah at her grandma's, so that will be a nice break (I do love her :)).
JLIH this month was so relaxing... and then... right around the avg time for me to O, we got a nice surprise. BD was "successful"... naturally, no extra effort required (not that we would have put in the extra effort anyway)! :)
So knowing it was around O time for me, naturally I tested with an ovulation test that same morning, and... it was a +! Then the next morning I got another + :shock: That almost never happens for me. Usually it's just one positive opk and that's it. So maybe I had a stronger LH surge? Not sure if that would mean anything good, necessarily.
The question is... was this just a random coincidence, or... meant to be?? Only time will tell I guess.
I decided to pick temping back up for the 2ww... couldn't help myself after the successful BD... was too curious :) Seems O was confirmed for the day after we BD, so I couldn't help but be a little hopeful.
Today at 6 dpo my temp dropped pretty low, though... below my "average" coverline, actually, though i don't really know what this month's coverline would have been since I didn't temp at all until the day after the +opk (O day). Hopefully it's an implantation dip and my temp will go back up nicely tomorrow. Or it may mean nothing at all (trying to remain on an even keel there :)).
Sore bbs off and on since 3 dpo.
That's about it! At least that's the only 'possible' symptom I'm "noticing." Oh, and yesterday I was lightheaded and shaky after lunch, but I think that was because I didn't eat lunch until about 2:15pm. Though it's odd that it happened after lunch.
As for the Couch to 5K, this past Friday I had a proud moment. Ran 20 minutes straight for the first time in my entire life! :yahoo: Could.not.believe.it. It was a great feeling. Of course, then I think I got ahead of myself and thought I was suddenly this great athlete, because Saturday night I did the Jillian workout (on Level 2 now) and pushed myself really hard. :lol: So then on Monday when I did my run (the schedule had me back down to intervals again), I was barely able to run half the distance and had to walk the rest of the way :( Then afterward, my back went out of commission and has been ever since. So I've been making the best of it and walking, though even walking has been tough. The good news is, yesterday my back finally started to take a turn for the better, and I was able to walk at a brisk pace again, so I'm hoping by Monday I'll be back in business with the running! Unless I get a BFP by then of course. Then I'll have to decide whether or not to keep running for the first trimester before backing off to just brisk walking. Would have to discuss it with my doctor. At least if I don't get a BFP, I'll have something to look forward to. Running my first 5K sometime this summer!
Wow, I can't believe it's been 3 weeks since I posted here!
Update on ttc: This month I thought for sure I was out, even before I o'd. DH began to have some new medical issues that made ttc literally impossible. I continued to chart anyway, and even did OPKs starting at CD 11 (I think it was?). Good thing I did! My temps and CM did weird things, so if I had not done the opks, I would not have known which day I really O'd (unless I went by the all-day o pain and tenderness alone). AND...we just happened to have a date night the day that I o'd, too. We decided to eat at home and stay in, maybe watch a movie or just talk. So after dropping off our DD at her grandma's, we went home. It went PERFECTLY! Not only was the dinner I made SCRUMPTIOUS, we had a lot of "fun," if you catch my drift ;) It was such a nice surprise :) So another month of things suddenly working right at my O time! I wonder what the chances of that are? I thought last time might not be just a coincidence, but this time I really have to wonder if it's 'just coincidence,' since this is the 2nd month it has happened, AND....we only BD one other time before that this month, which was right after AF ended. Again, what are the chances?
Update on losing weight: I'm down 13.5 lbs now. Only 22.5 more lbs to go to get to my goal weight. When I weighed in the 160s for the first time last week, I could not believe the number on the scale. I seriously thought something was wrong with it! LOL. This week I maintained, but it's okay. There will be weeks like that. I'm trying something a little different this upcoming week, so we'll see how it goes.
Update on Couch to 5K: I am now in Week 7! Well, sort of. Wk 6, Day 3 was 25 min, or 2.25 miles of running without stopping, which I accomplished last Wed. But then on Sat morning (it was supposed to be Fri, but things happened and I wasn't able to run that day), I really struggled! My legs felt like lead right from the start, and it was pure torture even to run for 12 min straight. All total, I only ran about 2 miles, if that. I thought I might have to go back and repeat Week 6 from the beginning, but then this morning I did much better and was able to run 2 miles straight without stopping, and... I ran it in 21 min, which was my best pace yet! :) So I really think I was just having an off day on Sat. Interestingly enough, that was the day that I o'd! Maybe our bodies use up more energy than we realize when we ovulate. AT any rate, I'm hoping that on Wed this week I'll be able to run 25 min again and keep up the good pace I had today.
Update on getting the house in order: It hasn't happened :confused: I had an excuse the week my back was hurting so badly, but after that... no'p, no excuse, just plain old laziness :rolleyes: I can't be too hard on myself, though... I have been exercising 6 days a week, and working on increasing my running time, which I'm sure takes it's toll. I do hope to start on getting organized soon, though.
I will be doing "some" organizing this week, as I need to sort through and pack up any newborn to 3 mo sizes, as well as 2T-4T to give to some ladies in need of them. Finally, a good excuse to finally let go. I have been holding on to those clothes, not really consciously, I don't think, but unconsciously I've been keeping them as a sign of hope that we might get pg with #2, and that it might be a girl. But it's time to let them go now. I can always buy more if we did get pg again (and it stuck). Besides, maybe it will be a boy?
I have more to post, but there's another storm brewing and I want to get this posted. More later...
Well my chart WUZ looking pretty good so far this 2WW, probably the best one yet as far as how my temps just kept going up and up, until this morning when I had a big drop. At first I thought AF might be getting ready to show up early, as I had some red spotting on the TP and cramps. The spotting didn't last long, though, and then went away. So I tested with a FRER this evening, but it was a BFN. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
This past Wed, I attempted to run 25 min again, but it was yet another difficult run. Come to find out later, it was because I was getting sick. The diarrhea had started that morning before my run, but at the time just thought it was something I ate the night before. It turned out to be a nasty stomach virus and lasted five days. I never puked, but the diarrhea was pretty severe and very frequent. Sat morning I was so weak and lethargic that we thought I might be getting dehydrated, so DH took me to the E.R. They started an IV on me and after a full bag of fluid, I felt much better. Bloodwork came back good, and I tested negative for a bacterial type infection, so the diagnosis was gastro-enteritis, which is viral. The next day (Sun), the diarrhea slowed down considerably, then yesterday I had none and felt much better except for nausea. Today I was even better, with only off and on nausea.
I tell you, you don't appreciate normal food very much until you do without it for a few days, lol. Everything tasted so much better to me once I was able to eat normally again.
Last week I wound up losing 3.5 lbs total, only 1 lb of that was lost before I got sick, so the rest was due to the diarrhea and lack of food. I probably would have lost more if I had not been drinking so much Gatorade to keep myself hydrated.
I fully expect to gain some back this week, though, with eating normal again and the fact that AF will probably be here soon. It's okay, though, I'll lose it again.
I was doing really well with my diet today up until this afternoon while at the mall. Normally the ice cream place there doesn't bother me. It's right next to the play area in plain view, and I take Hannah there to the play area quite often, and I very rarely get ice cream there, knowing how high in calories and fat their ice cream is. But today, I don't know if it's PMS cravings or what, but I just HAD to have some ice cream. I decided to try a new flavor, called Pretzel Combination, which was a mixture of pretzel ice cream, chocolate-covered pretzels, chocolate syrup (I had them go easy on the syrup), and pecans. YUM. It was awesome. I ordered the kids' size cup, but the server accidentally scooped out the size small, but then only charged me for the kids' size. Hannah wanted chocolate ice cream with teddy grahams (kids' size).
I had planned to do the Jillian workout tonight to burn it off, but it just didn't happen. By the time I got done with cooking dinner, cleaning up afterward, and finishing up some laundry I started earlier today, it was too late and I was too tired. My eyes are drooping as I type this. So... I'm guessing I ate too much today. I'll have to try and make up for it tomorrow.
I must say, though, I am very pleased with the changes I've made overall to my eating lifestyle and activity level. Even when I have a treat, I stick to the smallest size. I make healthier food choices overall now. And I am sticking to a regular, consistent exercise program when I am physically able. I've come a long way, and I thank the Dear Lord for giving me the strength to do it.
Day 4 of spotting, and I'm still waiting on AF to show up full force. I was going to just wait until she started for real to change my chart, but decided to go ahead and change it today. Of course, by the time someone reads this, AF will probably have started for real anyway and they won't know what I'm talking about, LOL.
Once again this month, my body made me think AF was starting when it really wasn't. I really need to wait it out from now on to make sure it really is AF. What made me think it was in fact AF this time is that my temp had dropped so low. Next time I will wait longer, though.
It is strange that I had the big temp drop so early, at only 10 dpo, and it even went below the coverline, but then it went back up above the coverline again, and has been inching up ever since. Only slightly above the coverline, though, so I'm not getting excited, that's for sure. This is just a different cycle, that's all, and AF should start for real by tomorrow. I'm debating whether or not to buy a 2-pack of FRERs today and test again "just in case." I know if I buy them, I'll use at least one, and it would probably be a waste of a good test.
My stomach has been bothering me, but I think it was something I ate yesterday. BBs are sore, too, but it's probably just PMS. With the cramps I've been having (none too bad yet, but still...), surely AF is just around the corner.
I plan to join a gym today so that I can have a place to run on a treadmill on bad weather days or days when I don't feel like getting up so early. Hoping I can find one that isn't too far away that isn't too expensive and that has child care. I'm going to go ahead and work out at a gym today, too (run on a treadmill). Hoping I haven't lost too much ground, but it's okay if I have, I'll just work my way back up again.