I forgot to add hurting bbs to yesterday's (4 dpo) symptoms, started in the evening. See, told you I was ignoring them.
Today's symptoms that I'm ignoring but taking note of:
~Increased smell: Early this morning while waking up, I could have sworn I caught a whiff of the cat litter box (which I keep very clean), and it's all the way on the other end of the house. I'm sure it was just my imagination, though, along with all the other funny smells today.
~Coffee tasted funny this morning.
~Nausea. Off and on, but a bit more frequent today.
~Mild cramps off and on
~BBs hurt, more frequent and more intense today.
~Needed a long nap this afternoon despite sleeping until almost 9am this morning.
~DH said I looked flush and felt warm late this afternoon (after my nap).
Another symptom I left off from yesterday: gassyness.
~Nausea and hunger upon waking; nausea subsided after breakfast, came back after lunch.
~BBs still hurting.
~Still gassy off and on; was really bad early this morning, lol.
In other news, on Saturday I talked to my brother about something I had been thinking about, and it looks like I'll be working with him in his computer business now. I've been looking for something I could do from home that would make decent money. Thank you, Lord! The majority of it can be done from home via the internet and remote access, though there will be times to visit businesses in person, and when that happens I have my MIL to watch Hannah for me when she's able. Sometime down the road, once I learn the ropes, I plan to open my own computer business to serve a neighborhing county that DH and I live closer to. I'm so excited that I'll finally be able to pursue a passion of mine without having to attend and pay for school (though I might buy a few books here and there). Thursday I'll be attending a fancy business dinner with my brother. Did I mention I was excited? This might finally give us the income we need to allow my DH to pursue a dream of his: buy our own piece of property, preferably with a modest house already on it, and set up some mobile homes to rent out and start a rental business that will give us residual income which will allow us to build up a nice retirement savings.
The cat we adopted is setting in nicely now. She is staying under the bed less and in the living room/other rooms more, and is learning how to tolerate a very energetic and playful 4-year old. We want to change her name to "Café" since Hannah likes that name and since her face looks kind of like a Café Latté - it's half dark and half light, so we're starting to call her by both names so she can get used to hearing Café, then eventually we'll drop her previous name (Kimba).
Oh yeah, I've been leaving off something else: intense cervical cramps. Been having those since yesterday. I'm not sure if that would even count as a symptom, though, as I have them right before o'ing, and then again a couple of days before AF, and I also had them with my last pregnancy (the one that ended in mc), but there was a difference with the pregnancy in that it started in the 2ww (about the middle, I think?) and remained continuous all the way up until the mc.
So AF supposedly showed yesterday, EARLY, complete with cramps. Only problem is, the cramps were only on one side, near my ovary, and it even hurt to walk. I had to take 3 ibuprofen for the pain. Then today, no cramps except for the occasional twinge, and the super light flow from yesterday has stopped and I've only had a small amount of spotting. And I do mean SMALL amount.
Also, my temp went UP this morning. But when I tested, still BFN. I suppose AF is just getting off to a rocky start? I guess all I can do is wait to see what happens at this point.
Yesterday was our 5th wedding anniversary. DH got me a nice card, and took me to dinner at a great seafood restaurant. I ordered the deviled crab and it was VERY yummy. I had not had deviled crab in ages. Somehow I managed to FORGET to get DH a card, though, for the very first time! I had planned to get him one while out running errands with Hannah the day before yesterday, but somehow it slipped my mind. I couldn't believe it. He said he didn't care, and that it was no big deal, but I'm still going to get him one, it will just be a little late.
So apparently that wasn't AF showing up the other day. Still just spotting today.
When I woke up this morning and temped, it had gone up some more. So I got my hopes up, naturally, and figured I'd test again.
Went in the guest bathroom and closed the door, took out the new package of Answer brand tests I had just bought, and as I was starting to open it, our cat pushed the door open, and the door squeaked. Ack, dang cat, I'm trying to do this quietly here so I don't wake up DH! So much for giving the cat her breakfast before going in the bathroom and hoping it would keep her occupied. LOL. I closed the door again, but since the door frame is messed up, it doesn't close tight. I managed to get the box of tests open, though, before little miss "I-don't-think-the-door-should-be-closed" opens it again with her paw. This time the door REALLY squeaked, and then BANGED against the wall. GRRR. I gave up and left the door open, then proceeded to pee and dip. The next 3 minutes seemed like an eternity, and I pretended not to be staring at the test window while I waited. After about a minute or so, I knew it would be negative, so I finished up and got up to wash my hands. Just then DH walked down the hallway, but there wasn't time to hide the test, so I just moved it over, hoping he wouldn't see. He asked if I was okay and I said, a little more cheerfully than usual, I'm sure: "Yes, I'm fine." I was hoping he'd just poke his head around the corner to talk to me, but noooo, he had to walk by and go check on Hannah in her bedroom. Uh-huh. Like he was really checking on Hannah. Then he walked back by, walking kind of slow as he did, and went on back to our bedroom. I stared at the white space on the test one more time before putting it in the cabinet, then went back to bed myself. DH turned over and got all snuggly with me and all smiles and asked, "So how did the testing and all of that go?" So I told him. I thought he'd say something like, "But why don't you just wait to see if your period starts?" (He thinks I shouldn't test until I'm like 3 weeks late, lol), but instead, he was actually very understanding and didn't seem to mind at all that I was testing early. Phew.
So anyway, guess I should expect AF to be here when she's actually due, which is either tomorrow or Tuesday, based on my average cycle length, and depending on which day I o'd. This next month I am definitely going to chart the entire month, because it's been too confusing to try and figure out which day I really o'd.
Last edited by FLSunshineMom; 03-27-2011 at 03:26 PM.
So tonight my gums started to hurt, I mean REALLY hurt, mainly on the right side, and then when I brushed my teeth, they bled a little. That can be a pg symptom, but I don't get why I'd have that because I really thought I was out? The spotting today definitely began to take on the appearance of my typical pre-AF spotting.
So now I have to wonder if that dream I had a couple of months back might come true. I dreamt that I was pregnant with #2, and that my due date was Jan 1. It seemed so real, too. Guess we shall see. If I ovulagate (<--not a typo ) on the right day, I could very well have an EDD of Jan 1. Or maybe it means that's when the baby will actually be born?
Can I just say, though.. I have been SO irritable with this round of AF. Yesterday I felt like I could bite someone's head off, chew it up, and spit it out. Wow. Hannah was really getting on my nerves. A sassy 4-yr old + wicked PMS = disaster. Well almost. I didn't actually throw anything at her or yell at the top of my lungs or anything like that. LOL. But I did get annoyed. Oh boy did I ever. At one point when DH was getting on to her and she had to sit on the couch in "time out," she looked at both of us and said, "Here are two buttons, one for you (me) and one for you (DH). I'm going to push them both and make you go away." Can you believe the NERVE of that little girl? All because she wanted to torture the cat, and we wouldn't let her. LOL.
Anywhooo. So today I've had wicked AF cramps, and I've been pretty lazy where housework is concerned. I've taken care of Hannah, did her Preschool time, made up the bed, put on two loads of laundry, and done a little work for my new business and that's about it. Oh and washed a few dishes and cleaned the new sink that was just put in, or at least part of it. But I really need to vacuum Hannah's bedroom and sweep the hallway and clean the guest bathroom. That is supposed to be my chores for Mondays. I also need to find time this week to clean out my two refrigerators. They really need it!
I'm also sulking a little, because I just found out about a friend who got pregnant and they weren't even trying. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for her, she totally deserves it, but I can't help but feel hurt that we have tried so hard for so long and have nothing to show for our efforts. But I am being selfish, and I need to stop. Yes, it hurts, and yes, it seems unfair, but God is still on His throne and still in control and... you know what? I haven't even been praying that hard about it anyway. I've mentioned it briefly in prayer here or there, kind of hit and miss over the past 'almost' three years now, but haven't gotten real serious about it yet. Not sure why? When we were trying to concieve Hannah, DH and I prayed I think every single day until we conceived, and it only took two months that way. Maybe it's time I got more serious about praying. After all, what does Scripture say? "The fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much."
Better get off here now and try to get my chores for today done because then it will be time to start dinner. Hannah will be waking from her nap soon (she fell asleep on the couch while playing, lol).
I got a nice package in the mail yesterday. It was like Christmas! In it was:
~Two big bundles of IC hpts and IC opks (IC meaning "Internet Cheapie")
~ One FRER
~ A fertility monitor!
I was so excited and can't believe the generosity of my friend. It's a little sad, too, though... the reason she sent them to me is because she recently had a miscarriage, and at the time she sent them she decided she was done with ttc Thankfully she changed her mind and has decided to continue ttc after all, just not using opks or anything. I pray she will be blessed abundantly for her generosity! She could have sold those items and made decent money from them. I offered to pay her but she refused. So sweet of her!
And of course I tested with an opk not long after getting the package. It had been awhile since I had fluids, after all. It was negative, of course.. it's a little early for me to be O'ing, but I couldn't resist.
I decided to do the full charting thing this month, as it drove me bonkers last month not knowing exactly which day to expect AF, since she was toying with me again, making me think she had started, when she was only teasing, just like the month before. *Grumble grumble* If I can pinpoint my O day, then I'll know if I'm getting just heavy spotting or REAL AF.
I have to say, though, I have not really felt like temping the past few days. Not sure why I'm so blah about it, you'd think it would just be more of a habit now, like brushing my teeth, but instead my arm has felt like lead trying to reach over and pick that thermometer up, and have almost not bothered. Maybe I'll take a day off here or there until it gets closer to my normal range of O time, though my temp has already taken that downward shift, so it makes me suspicious that I might O on the earlier side. Hmmm, CD 14 maybe? Which would make my EDD Jan 1?
In other news, I've put some weight back on, so yesterday I decided it was time to get back on the bandwagon. I did the calorie-counting thing yesterday, but was sooo hungry that I wound up going over my calorie limit, so after giving it some thought, I've decided to try the low carb route again. Any time I've ever done that, hunger was not generally a problem, and even on days when it was, I could always eat a little more protein and still lose weight. The issue with that type of diet for me has always been sticking to it. It's not easy to do when the typical American diet is so high-carb, plus the fact that I grew up on a high-carb diet, so it's what I'm used to. We'll see how it goes this time. I feel like calling myself the Great Vacillater. I have vacillated so much between types of diets I've wanted to use or try, it's just nuts. I really hope this one sticks. And just for clarification, the type of low carb diet I"m talking about doing is mostly just cutting waaay back on breads and pastas and rice (and refined carbs) and sticking more to fruits and veggies (and milk, in moderation) as my main carb source, and eating more lean protein, sticking mostly with poultry and fish, with some red meat thrown in there once in awhile. Wish me luck, I really want to get this weight off once and for all and get healthy.
Last edited by FLSunshineMom; 04-05-2011 at 02:36 PM.