T and I have been talking about having children pretty much since soon after we started dating. We both come from strong family backgrounds and feel that family is an important part of our lives. Since we soon realized after meeting (I when I first set eyes on him) that we would be together forever, we have had many discussions about how we would raise our children, what they will look like, what their names will be, etc.
Fast forward to now, we're soon approaching our June 16 wedding date. Around December, T and I were laying in bed one night talking about our future and the wedding. We always had decided that we'd wait until we moved to be closer to my family to TTC and that wasn't going to be until a few years away. Anyways, we were laying there and talking and T blurted out that he would move before the wedding so that we can start trying to build a family soon after we got married. I was shocked and stunned. This move is big for him because he has never lived away from his family (whom we currently live by), but because he loves me so much, he was willing to move closer to my mom and family to make the pregnancy phase a little easier. So, then we got into the full swing of things, and called my parents to tell them we would be moving back to my hometown (three and a half hours away) soon before the wedding. They were ecstatic! My mom's dream is to have her grandkids near her. T moved down to live with my parents about a month ago so that he can get a good start on his job hunting.
It's hard being apart, but since we both know it's in the best interest of us and "our" family, it's been making the transition easier. So, that's the story for now. The goal is for T to have a great job and me to possibly have a great teaching job before the wedding and therefore, be able to start concieving soon after the wedding. Keep your fingers crossed!!
I just woke up, so bear with me. I have to start getting ready for work here soon.
T and I have already decided on names for our future babies. For a girl, we're going to name her Rose Marie P. and for a boy, Elijah Thomas P. Since deciding to move earlier and TTC soon, T has been buying me things that are named Rose. For example, when I asked him to buy me some shampoo while he was at the store, he bought me Rose smelling shampoo and he's so cute when he brings it to me. He waits for me to read the bottle and to see my reaction. ::sigh:: I love him....
Today went pretty well... Did absolutely nothing wedding related, really, which is nice. I've been getting more and more excited about TTC since I signed up for the pregnancy.org board. T is getting really excited, too. We're going to keep it between us that we're TTC, though. It'll be a nice surprise for family and friends.
I went and bought pre-natal vitamins from Target last weekend. My cold completely cleared up once I started taking them. I haven't taken vitamins in FOREVER. It's nice to get in that habit again.
For the last week or so, it's all been starting to hit me....... I will be Mrs. Pugh in less than three months!!! So, whenever I get these waves of reality, I completely get super giddy and nostalgic and really sappy. So, I'm in one of those moods.
I'm also super bloated because I ate way too much today. BLAH! I've still kept off the weight I lost for the wedding, but if I keep up my eating habits, it will be back on soon enough. I need to get myself in the habit, anyways, of eating healthy for the baby....
I just said "for the baby" as in this time next year, I could be a mom by now. WOW. But, I seriously need to keep myself in check and realize that it probably won't happen as I've planned it or as quickly as I want it to, so I don't need to get myself to worked up over it.
I've just been dreaming of being a mom since I can remember, seriously. I.love.kids. I'm currently a second grade teacher, and I love it. I don't love the job so much, but I love my class. As in, love them like my own. I was thinking the other day that if I have this much love and compassion for these kids who aren't even mine, I can't even imagine how much joy and happiness my own child will bring me. It just amazes me this precious gift that God has allowed us to be able to have and enjoy, even if the child isn't biologically mine. At the end of the day, you have to remember that that's what makes this world such a great place, despite what the media wants to tell us.
I'm home in Evansville for Spring Break. It's so nice to be home! I'll be a resident in exactly two months.
I have a friend whom I grew up with and lived with in college. We've been very close most of our lives. However, she's always tried to either follow whatever I'm doing, or try to one-up me. When I had sex for the first time, she immediately chose to have sex 10 days later to a complete stranger for no obvious reason. When I met my FH, she started dating a guy who had been engaged just a month prior to dating her. At this point, she completely dropped off the face of the earth until six months later. Six months after she met her now husband, she got engaged. This is one of the first times she ever returned a phone call to me. Then, she began planning her wedding and would call the day before something to let me know what was going on. Right before her wedding, she calls me again to tell me she's bought a new car, soon after I purchased a new car. Once again, hadn't really heard from her much before that. We also hung out the weekend of one of our friend's showers. Her and her DH were supposed to meet us at 7... they didn't show up until 9, only to stay about a half hour and decide they're tired, so they left. Just a few months ago, she contacted me to tell me that they had purchased a new home after not talking to me for awhile.
So, last week I emailed her to let her know I'd be in town this week and would drop her bridesmaid dress off at her mom's house. She emails me back (wow!) and says that she's going to be in town, too, and she would love to hang out. This usually only means one thing -- she's got some big news. I've been sensing that she would be pregnant soon despite her comments that they were going to wait awhile to TTC, because I had told her we planned to TTC soon after our wedding (this was in December).
We made plans for her to come over to my parent's house at 7 30. 7 30 comes and goes, and she and her DH are not here. I call, no answer. I finally sent her a text message around 8 15 saying to forget about tonight and how about I drop it off tomorrow at eleven. She responded saying that dinner had gone over late and that that was fine. She then said, "I think we're going to go to the mall tonight." First off, why do I need to know you're going to the mall? And secondly, why would you say that since you had plans with us tonight? So, then I responded back, "I thought the mall closed at nine." She responded, "It does, but I need clothes bad!!" I then responded, "haha, why?"
She never responded. My initial thoughts are that she's pregnant and showing, therefore she needs new clothing. Why else would she text me to tell me that after pretty much blowing me off? If she is truly pregnant, then I'll be happy for her because that's a huge blessing. It just irks me that she only contacts me when something important happens and that she constantly tries to one up wherever I am in life. She had been telling me that they were going to wait when I told her that we were going to try soon after the wedding. I would hardly be surprised that her pregnancy was an "accident."
But, in reality, she's probably not pregnant what-so-ever and I'm overanalyzing and jumping to conclusions. I will find out soon because I'm going over there at eleven.... I will post an update!
She's not pregnant. Turns out she never does laundry and needed to go to the mall to buy more clothes. She really didn't talk much -- her husband and mom talked the most, mainly asking about wedding plans and such. I stayed about an hour and a half and then left. At least that's over!
We had a romantic evening. First, we went and looked at the apartments we want to move into here soon. Then, we went down to the river where we're having our reception and walked around on the walkway. It was gorgeous! Then, we walked over to Jillian's and had dinner. After that, we walked back to our car and drove back here to my parent's house. Tomorrow, we're going to apply for the apartment. I'm nervous, but hopeful they'll accept our application. Once that's done, I'll be ecstatic!! Say a prayer for us that it all works out since that's the first step in having our little angel!
Also tomorrow, T and I are going to apply his resume to a lot of different jobs and get that out of the way. He needs a job!! I'm also going to finish up my applications and get them sent off.
Time to watch Little Miss Sunshine with my fiance!
I really liked Little Miss Sunshine. The little girl in the movie was sooooooooooo adorable!! Even T liked it, so that must mean something.
Today, we go to apply for the apartment. I *hope* we get it. I was be devastated if we don't. We don't have any real reasons to be denied since we've never been evicted and have never been late on any payments to other apartment complexes we've lived in. I just hope it works out.
If we do qualify, I'm going to go stop by all the local stores asking for boxes so I can start packing once I go back home. YAY!!! I already have colors picked out for all of the rooms and design ideas running through my head. I hope it works out!! ::fingers crossed::
I had a pretty cool day yesterday! After doing the apartment thing, T and I went to my grandparent's house for dinner. I *love* my grandparents, and if we move into this new apartment, we'll be living only 5 minutes away from them.
My grandma was telling me about this dream she had. Apparently, she's only dreamt about her parents (whom are deceased and I've never met, but my mom LOVES) a few times since they've died, and she had a dream that they came to Tommy and I's wedding. My grandma saw them hugging my mom and dad and she went up to them and my great-grandma said, "Carolyn?" And my grandma said, "It's me, mother." Haha, apparently, she told me grandma, "You're an old lady now?! I hardly even recognized you." So, then she told my grandma that they had come back for my wedding since I was the oldest great-grandchild. She made a big deal about her dress, too, which she had gotten just for my wedding. I had magnolia flowers on it which were my great-grandmother's favorite flower. So, then grandma took her over to meet my other grandma and then they saw Tommy and I and came over to hug us apparently. She said to us, I guess, that she and my great-grandpa had come for our wedding. Soon after, she told my great-grandpa that it was time for them to go, and then the vanished.
My grandma is an extremely spiritual person. She believes strongly in God and the afterlife, so she was excited to have a dream about her parents. Consering the nerves I've gone through with this wedding, it made me feel comforted to know that my great-grandparents were going to be there. It made me feel really emotional and calm at the same time. It was like I knew that everything was going to be alright.
So, we had dinner over there and talked to my grandparents forever (my grandma is my personal therapist, I sware). My grandma is the only person who truly gets me, besides Tommy. I could tell her ANYTHING and she would be able to rationalize it to me and not freak out at all, unlike my mom. That's why I love talking to her.