T got up here yesterday! It was SOOOOOOOOOO great to see him!! We met at a bar to hang out with some of my friends for a bit and then went to dinner afterwards. We looked like two grinning teenagers in love, haha. It's so true that absense (sp?) makes the heart grow fonder. Then, we came home, talked for a little bit and got to packing! We packed for a couple of hours and our walk in closet is *almost* done. I was really proud of us!! We could have been lazy and not done it, but we really got down to work. We got a lot more done last night than I had anticipated. I hope we do the same today!
Last night, we both were so happy to finally be in the same bed together again that we both cried, haha. I told Tommy how brave I think he is and how I fell even more in love with him (if that was possible) when he said he would move closer to my family so we could start TTC sooner. He's never lived away from his family or me, and just to make my pregnancy more comfortable for me (to be with my family), he moved away from everything he knows to provide a better life for me and our family. It just amazes me. I don't know if I could move away from him to go live with his family and try to find a new job. I love him so much....
Today we're going to do some more packing and tonight we're going to dinner with our friends who just got engaged and then back to their house to see what stuff she has done and to hang out. I'm so excited to see her wedding plans!
Yesterday was spent mostly packing. We got a lot packed!! Then, we went and got dinner with some of our newly engaged friends and went back to their house to hang out for awhile. It was a nice day, all in all.
Today is our big marriage retreat. Hopefully it'll be really informative, which I hope for.
The retreat was actually pretty good. They gave a big NFP talk by this really cute couple who have been married for ten years. They planned their kids each 3 years apart exactly using NFP. We'll be doing FAM instead of NFP, but it was a cool talk.
Tommy had a minor breakdown because he didn't get to see his family this weekend while he was up here visiting. Part of me feels bad for him because he's never lived away from his family and I understand how hard that can be. But the other part of me feels like, "Hello, you just spent the whole weekend with me, your future wife! Why are you upset?" It also irks me because we are our own family now. When you get married and even before marriage, family ties are loosened because you start your own family and your needs and desires belong to your new family. Because I've read The Conscience Bride, however, I do understand how this can be a grieving process right before the wedding.
The thing that really got me was that Tommy suggested that he didn't think he was going back home until Tuesday so that he could see his family tomorrow. At this point of the game, finding a job and providing an income and support takes over staying an extra day to see family, IMO. So, when he suggested this (which he's pulled this before), I went off. He seemed to understand and will be leaving today, but part of me feels like such a b*tch for not being more understanding. The other part of me thinks, "Hey, he's going to be your husband. He has to learn sometime or else this is how the rest of our life will be."
So, needless to say, I slept like crap last night. I would have called in sick today, but I woke up too late.
Oh god, I am so nauseous. I've had waves of it all day long. Not sure exactly why. WISH it was a pregnancy symptom, but that's not needed right now nor really possible in my mind. I feel super bloated, too. Yuck.
Less than 2 months now!!! I'll admit, I minorally freak out when I think about how soon it will be.
Slept a lot better last night, but still tired today. I'm also still nauseous. I'm thinking maybe it has something to do with the prenatal vitamins. I'm going to start taking them at night with food instead of the morning. I haven't had a problem until now, but hopefully that'll fix it.
My mom called me last night and sounded really excited about the wedding. It's really the first time in the last year she's been excited about the wedding and really meant it. We're going make up shopping this weekend and she's getting everything laid out and ready to go for the wedding. So, that was nice.
Gosh, I can't stop yawning. Blah. I've been feeling kinda not me lately, too. I think it's all of this wedding stuff. It's getting to be so soon and with moving, I don't really feel like I'm in one place anymore. I don't feel grounded. Once everything gets moved, I can get all of our bills paid (ie. new rent, old rent, moving expenses, etc), I'll feel more grounded. But, right now, I feel off in a cloud.
I got a lot of stuff done yesterday. I went by CVS and bought some things I needed. I had to *seriously* resist the urge to buy something "babyish." I can't wait to start TTC.
Then, I came home, started packing some stuff up and took about four loads of trash out to the dumpster. That was my goal for this week and I got it accomplished! Then, I straightened the apartment up and watched my tv. I love Whose Wedding Is It Anyway? I kept calling DF and saying, "Do you realize we get married in just shy of two months?"
On another note, FMIL left a note on our guest book saying all of this nice stuff about how she loves me and such and then ends it with, "You are the next best thing to me, his mom." Just took me back a little bit. Tommy and I decided to delete it since we pretty much are assuming she meant it seriously and I don't want my family to judge her because of her comment. I'm sure it's hard for her to let go, but really, she let go a long time ago. He's 25 and has lived away from her for the past couple of years. Oh well.
Today is a half day! YAY! But, that means meetings after work. Blah!
Gosh, I am sitting here dying of excitement for the wedding day to get here!! I just can't wait. It's amazing how soon it will be here! I also can't wait for it to get here (and be over with) so that T and I can go back to our normal lives. I can't wait for that, either.
School wasn't too bad today. 31 more days! W00T! Ok, truth be told, I'm bored out of my mind, right now. I think I'm going to go check out and see what's on TV.