HOW I GOT HERE................
My DH and I have been together for 1 yr-3mo and he is an absolute angel. We met at work 5 years ago and still work at the same company (different departments). After we were married we decided right away we wanted babies and babies are what we got...just not exactly how we expected.
We tried for about 2 months with no result so I quit smoking b/c my doctor said it would help me get preggo faster. The next month we also used an ovulation kit and I thought it was really weird that I ovulated for 4 days that month. But...whatever, I thought I was doing the test wrong.
In November '05 I took a pregnancy test and WE WERE PREGNANT !! On December 14th I had my first DR. appt as a pregnant woman. I was so excited and so nervous, especially when the DR. wanted to do an u/s at only 8 wks. My husband rushed over because he was worried, but my DR said it was just his standard practice to do an u/s right away. That was one of the most incredible days of my life. That was the day we found out we had twins !!!
The rest of my pregnancy went pretty much by the book. My DR. was super careful and liked to do tons of ultrasounds. My due date was 7/26/06, but my OBGYN said he would take them by C-section probably on 7/4/06 or 7/12/06. The only thing that was bothering me was the HORRIBLE all-day sickness and a pain I started to have after the first tri-mester after I ate. This pain ended up being my gall bladder, but we never had to deal with that.
On February 22nd 2006 we found out that we were carrying twin boys. I had been extremely busy and stressed at work the entire month so I was overjoyed, but exhausted after being poked and proded. DH called everyone he had ever met in his life to tell them the good news. I have never seen him so happy !! Everything looked great and both babies were developing right on track.
My next appt was on March 15th. The Doc said I looked great, but he wanted to schedule an u/s of my gallbladder b/c it was getting really painful. That night I starting spotting - a light peach color. So light I didn't really think anything of it. Friday morning at 3am I woke up and it was bright pink. The ON-CALL DR told me to rest and call him in the morning since I didn't have any cramping. The next morning I went in and my DR was off, but the nurse got me into an u/s. One baby's fluid was a lot lower than the other, but nothing to be alarmed about. But, my cervix had shortened so I was having contractions. I was put on bedrest over the weekend w/ an appt with my regular DR for Monday.
I went into labor Saturday night despite the bedrest and had the boys on Sunday, March 19th at 1:04 am and 1:22 am. They were 21.5 weeks, 14 oz. It absolutely breaks my heart, but I am thankful that we got to spend time with them and at least have those memories. They were a miracle from the very start and continue to be a miracle to me now.
Of course after that, the placentas were sent off for testing, I opted to do genetic testing and my OBGYN referred me to a Perinatolgist. The end result is that there is no reason, everything should have been fine. Both DR. said that unfortunately this thing just happens with some twin pregnancies.
During the course of my "maternity/grieving" leave from work I stumbled across this website. I was typing in "perinatologist" trying to research what kind of a DR. I was going to be meeting with before my appt. And I stumbled onto someone's journal from here. And I was hooked.
Well it's been 4 months now and although it hurts still, my DH and I want to try again. We want little brothers or sisters for our angels up in heaven. And I know it's going to be hard but I know we want it more than we fear doing it...if that makes any sense at all.
So here I am ....after reading and reading and reading I have finally joined. And I know I probably should have posted on the Grieving site too or first, I'm not sure. But I'm hoping for a positive pregnancy test on Tuesday, AUGUST 2nd so I started here instead.