I can whine if I want to!
Warning....TMI and whiney post ahead!!
So I was arguing with hubby and grocery shopping alone....go home and the cramping began. I lay down and cry. DH has been a great support, we finished watch It's Complicated as I sucked down water to stop the cramps. I started dinner, tearing up throughout, then I wiped.....brown spotting, just a little, but enough to make me think this is the beginning of the end. I cried off and on as DH keeps telling me not to worry. Cramping stops and my pad shows barely brown spotting.
This morning I wake up to the same kind of spotting but no cramps, I feel like I've lost my soreness in my boobs...the one sign I use for pregnancy. So I guess I wait. I was pregnant nine years ago....could it be my age? Heck, I'm only 33. Ok, ok...I'm whining. I need to think positive. School starts tomorrow, that oughta keep me busy; I work all weekend....fun, fun, on my feet all day in the ER registering sick people. Wait, it's positive talk....DH and I are planning a vacation during the kids' spring break...without the kids. Maybe a cruise to Brazil...tour Europe....hit the beaches of the Turks. It will be fun to plan it, whatever we do!!
No matter the outcome, I'm still young, have the best husband, the greatest son and two wonderful stepchildren. Now I'll click my heels and say that three times ;-)
WARNING....vent ahead that might make a few unhappy
You've been warned. I am about to vent about a certain thing that some might be sensitive to. My disclaimer is that it is not directed to anyone...its just a feeling I am having right now....so......
Why, oh why....do those with more than one child (ie at least three or more) start complaining after a few months of TTCing that it's "frustrating" to conceive to the point that they are ready to see an RE.........HELLO, I am on cycle 7, trying for baby two and I know it's not time to see a specialist.......oh and throw in there two miscarriages!!!! So many women are impatient these days......I get that it's easy to obsess about TTCing, but geez, there has to be a line!!! It just irritates me when people just need to relax........YES, easier said than done, I know, but you aren't the only person in this world who has tried to get pregnant.
Stop testing every five minutes, numbers double within 48 hrs, you aren't going to see much overnight!!!
For those that are going through a long journey of TTC....I admire you! Strength, patience, the ability to not give up, etc.......I cheer you on every chance I get!!
And to those that only take a few cycles to get pregnant......I envy you......You will make a wonderful mother and I love hearing about it......just PLEASE consider others.....we cheer your BFP always and you do the same for us......but it stings just a little each time someone makes it look "easy".
For the most part, we each will get our "turn", no matter how long, how hard, or even how we try!!!! I am not bashing anyone, just tough sometimes and I needed to vent!!