My son is eight. He is the only person who defines me!! Now I am ready to let that happen again!
On my second marriage.....sad, but true. Life is a book full of chapters....this is my newest chapter, after an 11 year marriage. I do look back and think, WTF, but love was an idea then...no regrets, we have a wonderful son and I've moved on.
I've moved on to my current life with the man of my dreams. Funny thing is, this man wasn't what I was "looking" for. We all think we have a "type" right? Well he's far from it....and so glad for that. We met and married within three months, and yes, it's been a roller coaster ride, but I'd ride it again as long as he was by my side.
We became step parents....a role I took for granted. My stepmom made it look so easy...... it's not......but I wanna be like her. My mom left this earth in 2000....two years before my son was born....way too early in life.....I needed a role model. My stepmom was one from afar. I love you Dawn.
Moving on, we have 3 kids now....ages 8, 5, and 2 1/2. As you can assume, the last two are his. Beautiful children......handful all together but I seek out the days we have them all together.
So my pregnancy journey....IUD removed the end of last August, was going in for back surgery and lo and behold, I find out I'm pregnant. Put the surgery on hold and look forward to a DD of 6/6/11. 7 weeks into I start to bleed....doctor takes a peek and what do I see through my tears, a heartbeat!! He puts me on bed rest and progesterone.....only to lose the heartbeat a week later :angel11: I had a D&C the next day.
Now it's 1/12/11 and I find myself pregnant again....planned, mostly.....and scared. My first appointment is tomorrow, I do not expect much except my blood drawn and maybe a feel inside. My DD is 9/19/11, 13 days after my son turn 9!!
I'm trying not to worry....I've never gone through a lose before the one in October...I would love an explanation, but I'll settle for another chance.
Thanks for reading,