CD17 today. My temp went up this morning, so we'll see if it stays up tomorrow (fingers crossed). I'm excited to move on to the 2WW. Hopefully we had good timing... we'll have to wait and see!
I am still in a funk emotionally. It's kind of freaking me out. I'm usually a pretty logical person, and I don't have a lot of ups and downs emotionally- I tend to have a pretty steady personality. If I do feel down/hormonal it's usually right before my period, and once I realize that that's probably the reason, I can snap out of it. But that obviously isn't the reason right now, and I don't know what's going on. Trying to focus on positive things and not let it get to me.
I'm excited- my temp went even higher today! Even if we don't get pregnant this cycle, I'm relieved to know that my body is doing what it should be doing.
In other news, trying to get some holiday stuff done. I just finished wrapping all the stocking stuffers. Going to make some homemade bread today if I can find the motivation... it's a long process. I also need to make and freeze a batch of biscotti. Then I'll be just about done with the Christmas cookies!
Highest temp yet today! By my estimation I'm 3dpo. I know people probably think I'm nuts for making as many journal entries here as I have, but I can't help it. We're not telling anyone that we're TTC, so this is my only outlet. I almost started talking about it to one of my best friends today, without thinking. I shut my mouth just in time. So if I don't post here I know I'm going to blurt it out to someone!
I'm trying not to get too excited... I don't want to convince myself that I'm pregnant only to get a BFN. But right now I do feel like something is going on. I know that 3dpo is waaaaaaay too early for symptoms, and it's really not symptoms, just something that's not quite the same as usual... I can't explain it. It's probably all in my head and I'm going to feel really stupid in about a week and a half when I find out that I'm not pregnant. But for right now, I'm enjoying the idea that I could be pregnant. And whenever I do get pregnant, here's hoping I have an easier time than I did with my daughter. Not looking forward to a repeat of all the nausea and food aversions. It was rough, and it didn't get better until about 18 weeks. I know that some people have it even worse than that, but for me that was bad enough! So for now I'm going to enjoy my little secret, before I either get a BFN or the nausea hits. Right now it's fun and exciting .
So of course today I'm feeling like I'm definitely NOT pregnant. Gotta love the 2WW. It messes with your mind! I'm trying to stay distracted so I don't think about it as much, but it's hard!!!
Today will be a very busy day, so that should help. I have stuff to do around the house, then we're looking at houses with our real estate agent, then we're going out to dinner with friends to celebrate my birthday and one of my friend's birthday. We're getting a babysitter and going to a nice restaurant... I'm excited!
Just trying to pray that God's will be done, and that we will get pregnant in His perfect timing. And really, I'm okay with it if it takes a few months. I would like to be pregnant this month, but it's okay if I'm not.
I'm 5 or 6 dpo today. Let's say 5 to be on the safe side. My temps are looking good, so that's encouraging. I'm getting impatient to test. It feels like time is simultaneously moving really slowly and really quickly. As far as TTC goes, it's moving at a snail's pace, but when I think about the fact that it's December 13th already, it feels like this month is flying by! My birthday is one week from today, then my parents come into town two days after that, then we have Christmas, then my in-laws come into town, then it's DH's birthday, then my mom's birthday. Not to mention assorted Christmas parties mixed in there. There's definitely a lot going on, so that helps.
It has been so cold here lately- way below our average for this time of year. We actually have snow on the ground right now, which is pretty crazy for Tennessee in early/mid December. It reminds me where I grew up . Except that we didn't cancel school, clean out the grocery stores and generally freak out every time we saw a flake of snow... or even a forecast for snow. DH had the day off from work (another example of this city's total overreaction to a small amount of snow) so that was nice. Last night after the little one went to bed we sat by the Christmas tree and each opened one present, since we figured it would be the closest thing to a white Christmas we'd get around here!
I just had to pull up my chart to see what cycle day I'm on. The last few days have been so busy I completely lost track. Today is CD27, and I'm 10dpo. Yesterday I had a (very) slight temp dip, but I wasn't too worried about it since it was still in the range of my highest temps, and I had slept poorly, so I wasn't even sure how accurate it was. Today my temp shot back up- highest one yet. Yesterday I felt like I definitely wasn't pregnant, today with the temp rise and some belly tenderness I feel like I might be. The 2WW is starting to get to me, I think. If my temps stay up I will probably test on my birthday (Monday). I'll be 12dpo. If they take another dip I'll probably wait longer and see if AF shows up.
I am really dragging this morning- I think I over did it yesterday. I did not sit down/stop moving all day until we got to DH's company Christmas party last night. I could barely keep my eyes open during their whole secret santa exchange. Of course yesterday I had to wake DD up at 8:10(!) because we had places to go and I needed to be able to put her down for an early nap. Today, when I would have loved to sleep until 8 (or later) she was up around 7:15. Not terrible, but I was not ready to get up! Today DH is helping friends of ours move. Hopefully he'll be back in time for me to get out to the barn and ride my horse. I couldn't go earlier in the week due to bad weather. Tomorrow a friend of mine is coming over for our annual Christmas Baking Day. Yes, that's right... on top of the massive amounts of baking I've already done, we are having a baking day tomorrow. I've gotten almost all the cookies done, so we're going to dedicate tomorrow to candy. Peanut brittle, buckeyes, fudge, salted caramels, and toffee (which I've already made two batches of... I need to do one more). Then I can assemble the gifts for DH's bosses (there are five!).
Yawn... I'm going to try to wake up and get some stuff done now. DD is finishing up her breakfast and watching Angelina Ballerina. I should take this opportunity to unload the dishwasher without her "help."
I have completely forgotten to post here the last few days. The last time I posted was the morning of Dec. 18th. Even though I was not planning on testing until my birthday at the earliest (the 20th) I ended up testing the afternoon of the 18th. I figured it was too early (not to mention not even close to FMU), so I'd either get a BFN or a REALLY faint BFP. Much to my surprise, a pretty dark line came up immediately. DH was just like, "I knew it." which was kind of funny.
So we are very excited! I haven't tested again, but I've been having symptoms. I want to go by the store and get another test, but DD is napping at the moment, so it will have to wait. We are planning on telling our parents over Christmas because it will be our only chance to tell them in person (none of them live close by), but other than that we will wait to tell people until we hear a heartbeat. It's kind of fun to keep it secret, and really hard all at the same time! I ordered a shirt for DD that says, "I'm going to be a big sister, but I'd still rather have a pony!" which should arrive today. I figure I'll put it on her Christmas morning and see how long it takes my parents to notice!
So I guess I will be moving over to the pregnancy journal board. I'll post a link here once I do. I'm so thankful that we were able to get pregnant easily (cycle 1!!!) and I'm hoping for a healthy, sticky bean! Trying not to worry too much about it, but just enjoy each day of this pregnancy, no matter how it ends. Nothing is guaranteed, so I want to enjoy every moment that I have with this child.