Thread: Our TTC journey!

Well, we're not heading east afterall. The passes are having a winter storm watch and I don't feel like taking my little car out in that. So we're going crabbing instead, that will be fun as well. We haven't been crabbing in so long, I hope we catch alot.

I think I've worn Alex out because we didn't BD last night, he said that the big guy is tired. I think I might have O'ed today or possibly soon so the big guy better be ready tonight

Crabbing was fun. We caught 2 dungeness on Friday and 1 rock crab. Then Saturday we caught 10 dungeness and a few rock crab and Sunday we caught 11 dungeness and 5 rock. Overall it was good. I mean, what can I say about eating crab 2 nights in a row, pretty darn good if you ask me!

So I'm 3DPO today. This time around I'm not going to analyze everything and put down all my symptoms (yeah, easier said than done right?). I'm feeling pretty calm this month which is very nice so hopefully this 2ww doesn't drive me crazy.

Yesterday was so nice. It got all the way up to like 70 degrees. That's amazing considering it's only March 9th! Alex got out in the yard after work and weeded the garden and turned the soil so it's ready for this year's veggies. I think we need to downsize a tad because last year so many tomatoes went bad. But he seems to think that if we make them into salsa and can them it will be fine. If you say so!

Wow, it's been awhile since I've written anything here! Haven't done alot since I last wrote in here. I've just been working; pretty much the usual stuff. We played Holdem last Saturday and I was up the whole night, kind of nice for a change. I ended up only winning $5, but I'll take that over losing any day! Between Alex and I, we ended up winning $25. I finally worked up the nerve to let Charlie outside without supervision and he did very well. Kind of skittish, but he did fine. He's only allowed outside if Simon is with him, but he should be able to go out alone in a little bit more time. We finally got out Pet Fountain in the mail and it was so much fun to put together. The kids weren't sure about it at first, but Charlie (my water baby) jumped right in and started using it. Simon on the other hand wasn't too sure about it, but I think he's been using it so he just needed some time. It's pretty quite and keeps the water from getting icky. I let it get too low so it was making this sucking noise, but once I added water, it was fine. Here's a picture or 2 of it:



I found this Clearplan Easy Fertility Monitor on E-bay today for pretty cheap. Pretty excited about that. The bidding ends next Monday so I'll know by then. Hopefully I get it. I've been wanting to buy OPK's, but if I get the monitor, even better. I told Alex about it and he's like "You already bid on it huh?" Told him I can cancel and he didn't say anything after that. The one thing I want most right now is to get preggo and if this thing improves out chances then why not? If he's not willing to get a SA, then I'm going to do everything I can to help our chances.

Looks like we're going to try and head east again this weekend. Hope we make it. Really looking forward to going fishing; it's been so long!!

Well, I had the highest temp this morning that I've ever had, 98.5! Pretty excited about that. I think I may test on Friday. Kind of want to surprise the new grandparents this weekend. We shall see. If my temps are as good then as they are today then I will most definitely be testing. HOPE HOPE HOPE!!!!!

I had heartburn again today. This is so new for me. I don't usually get it and have only had it a time or 2. Very interesting!

**Edited to add the really great dream I had**
I had just found out I was preggo, but turns out I was ready to pop. And you could see the baby thru my belly, but it wasn't creepy or gross, but kinda neat. Like those new u/s. Anyways, I had thought that I was having a boy and after it was born, it looked like my nephew (with strawberry blond hair) so I thought it was a boy. Even when it was wearing a pink onesie, still thought it was a boy. So my parents were there and I asked my dad to check the sex and my mom announced that I was having a girl and I started crying. Still makes me smile even this morning. What a great dream!

Well, no temp this morning because the cats would not stop running around the house making noise right after Alex left for work. Then Charlie kept coming up to me and putting his face in mine and meowing non stop. I appreciate the attention, but not at 5 am! Then I get up when my alarm goes off and as usual, Simon is glued to my leg and won't stop cutting me off until I fill his food dish. Usually it's fine and I just ignore him, but today I had a short fuse and I got mad at him. He must think that I'll forget to fill his dish when I know his dish is empty and I will fill it up as soon as I get up. Sheesh it gets annoying! I think I'm going to go to the store tonight and buy a FRER to test in the morning if my temp is still good. Anna says I should test. I just don't want to be disappointed like I was the last time. I don't really feel much of anything, no symptoms really of preggo or AF. I've had heartburn, lower back pain for a couple of days now, my bbs have hurt for pretty much the entire month (so no difference there) and I've been peeing alot. One weird this this morning though, (TMI) I had cloudy pee when I went to the bathroom. Not sure what that is, all I know is that it's just weird.

So mom came by right as I was going to take lunch with her new glasses and they look fantastic!! So we went out to lunch and I needed to stop by the store so I could get cranberry juice and yogurt. And I picked up 3 FRER's. Not sure if I'll use them, but hey I have them if I need them. Hoping for high temps tomorrow!!! Wish me luck!!

BFN today, totally sucks! I've decided that I'm not testing anymore unless AF is late. It's too hard and it just makes me upset and mad at myself because I can't even accomplish a simple thing like getting pregnant. This is rediculous! I've decided to talk to Alex about a SA again but this time I have a good idea. I'm going to see if he'll let me take it down so he won't have to do it himself. I'll go see him on his lunch, we can eat and then just before his lunch is over, he'll make his "deposit" and then I'll haul *** to St. Joe's or St. Francis' and hopefully make it in time. They say it has to be there within 30 minutes, but do they understand that is nearly impossible. Oh well, I'm going to try anyways. Hope it works. Hope everyone is having a way better day than me.

Well, we went to eastern WA this last weekend and had a pretty good time. It wasn't long enough in my opinion, but we enjoyed the time we had. I caught I rainbow trout on Saturday and 1 on Sunday. Poor Alex, he didn't catch anything on Saturday, but caught 2 on Sunday so it made up for catching nothing on Saturday.

Looks like we won't be moving over just yet because Alex got his raise!! So happy about that! He's pretty happy too, not as big of a raise as he had hoped, but enough to keep him at his job.

So while I was on vaca, the decided to pay me a visit. Pretty disappointed, but I dealt with it. Oh well, on to another month. I don't think I'm getting that CBE monitor because I've been outbid and it's more than I can bid. So I decided that I'm going to get some OPK's and try those out for a bit. Hope they work for me.

Well, the whole SA idea of me running it got shot down, not by Alex but by me. Am I crazy? I can't get his swimmers and have it to the lab in 30 minutes. The nearest place is like 40 minutes away. Oh well, it was a good thought. I might have to try asking Alex if he would mind going with me to the place, making his "deposit" in the car, then I would run it in. At least then we wouldn't have to worry about not making it in time. Hmm, will have to mention it to Alex and see what he says.

So I finally found a fertility monitor that's within my price range and OPK's to go with it. I didn't get them all in one, but separtely. I believe the monitor was shipped on Thursday. Not sure when the OPK's got sent as I haven't heard from the lady yet. It's showing a shipment label that was printed on the 25th, but it's not showing up as actually being sent so I don't know. Oh well. Sent her an email so hopefully she'll respond. We may not get to use them this month, but there's always the next! We've decided to give the Sperm Meets Egg Plan a try even if we don't get our monitor and OPK's in time. Watch the Plan works and we don't even need to monitor/OPK's. Isn't that Murphy's Law? That's ok, we can always use it on #'s 2, 3 and maybe 4 if we need to.

Not much new since I last wrote. Alex started the much atticipated but very long softball season today. He's doing the superdraft today. Wish I could be there, but a thing called work has to be done so what can I do. I can't believe it's only Saturday, feels like Sunday.

**Edited to add: Started Alex and I on Royal Jelly yesterday. We have a 1 month supply so we'll see how that goes.**

So, what is up with my weirdo temps?!? They started out at 97.9 for like 5 days, then went down to 97.4 and then back up to 97.9 and then back down and up and down again. So weird! Wonder why they're doing this. I usually get the sort of high temps during then once she's gone, my temp slowly goes down and then once I O it jumps way up and stays that way. Wonder if it has to do with the herbs I'm taking. The only difference this cycle is that I'm off EPO, doubled up on Don Quai and we started taking Royal Jelly. Hmm, maybe my thermometer is on the fritz

My monitor arrived sometime either on Friday or Monday then my test sticks arrived on Monday as well. So excited to use them. The lady I got the monitor from has been super nice, I've gotten several emails from her saying she hopes I like my purchase and that it works for me like it worked for her. So that's nice I'm a little bummed that I have to wait until this cycle ends, but I think I can manage

So far the Sperm Meets Egg Plan hasn't been working for us do to feeling randy 2 days in a row, but today is CD12 so we will be able to get back on track. I was going to use my temps instead of the OPK's, but so far that's going not all too well. Think I'll be heading to the store for a new battery to see if that's the problem.

I have a feeling I might be O'ing sometime soon because I was running around the house trying to get ready for work and I kept having these weird feelings on my left side, just to the right of my hip bone. Kind of a throbbing feeling, haven't felt it much since this morning, so I don't know. I've also had (TMI) brown tinged CM, sort of spotting yesterday and then today I had some rubbery CM with a slight blood tinge. Sorry, didn't mean to be gross

Well, I've officially had a meltdown! I went out to T & J's to play some Holdem since Alex was at an all boys tournament. Things were going fine and then a couple more people showed up. Todd started talking about R & B and how they are now expecting. I couldn't believe it. It felt like I had been hit in the stomach. I knew that they were trying and R and I would talk baby stuff when ever we got together, but for what ever reason, hearing that they are having a baby really hit me hard. For the rest of the night I played horrible and just wanted to go home. Alex showed up shortly after and when I lost all my money, I gathered up my things and told him I was leaving. He kept bugging me to stay, but I told him Mom was picking me up early, that I needed to leave now. We kind of got into a tif and I stormed out to start my car. I came back in and asked M if he would give Alex a ride home. Once in my car, I proceeded to cry the entire way home, and then once I was home I cried myself to sleep. I was so frustrated that I put away my thermometer and chart. Saturday was awful because Alex was still way hammered and was being his usual belligerent self when drunk. Needless to say I spent a good majority of Saturday in tears as well. Finally things got cleared up between us and things were fine for the rest of the weekend. We also went to a tournament on Saturday (my first) and we were the first 2 people out. I was a little scared at first, but once I got rolling, things were fine. The hand I went out on was that I had Ace/Queen suited (spades) and the guy after me went all in with a pair of ladies (queens) so I wasn't about to fold my hand, so I went all in with $51. We both flip our cards over and the whole table was in Ooh's! So the flop comes and it's like 7, 2 and another low card, then the turn which was like a 10, and the river was none other than a Queen. It was a good hand to go out on because we both had great hands. On Sunday, I went to church with mom, Mikey and the Bobster. There, I don't think a more truer statement was made. Pastor Rod asked everyone if they were feeling tired; tired of struggling with things, etc. Oh my! Could it be anymore directed at me?!? Right then, I felt a lot better about my struggle and told myself that I need to put this in God's hands. I try to tell myself to do just that a million times, but it's so hard to just no want to be in control. Church was great and then Mom and I went to pick up the Bobster. Then we went to McDonalds for lunch were mom and I talked about alot of stuff; mostly about what happened to dad growing up (he was physically and sexually abused by his stepfather). Told mom that if it weren't for Dave Pelzer's books, I would have never been able to understand what he went thru and form a better relationship with him. After we dropped of the kids, we stopped in at this craft store where I got the crafting itch. I've got a couple of ideas that I'm going to give a whirl and I'm pretty excited about that! Mom and I are headed back on Thursday when I have a day off to pick up some stuff. Alex and I went to Blockbuster later that day and signed up for the unlimited movie rental thing and rented some movies.