Holey CRAMPS! They woke me out of a very deep sleep. That is just great…now tonight at work not only will I be crampy, but I’ll be sleep deprived and nauseous too.
I really need to go run today too. I just signed up to do my first 5k, The Race for the Cure, on Sunday. I’m not worried about not being able to run it all, since it is only 3 miles, but I’ve never done a race before so I wanted to run just to keep my jitters down!
What a great time for my heating pad to stop working.
Dh is out of town this week and since I have the next 2 days off I’m trying to keep myself busy. All my friend work during the week so I have to entertain myself, so later I’m gonna go to the gym to run on the treadmill. It has been a while since I have ran at the gym but I wanna see how quickly I can do a 5K so I can set a goal for the Race for the Cure….plus I really need to incorporate weights back into my workout. My muscle tone has gone to about nothing except for my legs, they are looking better then they ever have before from my running. I need to get serious about getting my weight back down. I have lost 4 lbs though! So I’m on the right track!
I just got home from walking all three of my dogs, alone! That was a feat! They actually did really well for the first time doing it by myself. My Yorkie was the biggest trouble maker. He had to stop and sniff and pee on everything. then he’d get in the bigger dogs way, or get tangled in his leash. He is not as good as he should be on a leash. He’s so small that he gets away with a lot more then I’d ever let the Boxer and Rottie get away with. I’ve never really noticed it until it was tripping up me and the other dogs. The big dogs did great! Even while walking through the field with rabbits darting all around us. I owe a lot of their success to the makers of the Gentle leader. That thing is awesome!!!
Today is 12 DPO so naturally I’m spotting. You could set a clock to my cycles they are so darn predictable. I expect AF should show later tonight or tomorrow so that is sucky, Expecially since I only have 1 tampon left. I should have got more when I was at the store, but that small part of my brain still remains hopefull that this is the month I won't need them anymore. The good news though is the Acupuncture really did help my cramps! I am so amazed! I don’t have any. The cramps that were hurting me yesterday stopped shortly after I got of the computer and in hindsight I think they might have been gas pain more then AF pain!
I think I’ll go back and do Acupuncture again since it has made me feel so darn great during AF! Maybe I’ll wait it out though and see how long the Acupuncture treatments will last for.
To buy tampons or not to buy. That is the question.
13 DPO today and no AF yet! No symptoms either. I don’t know if I should just relate that all to Acupuncture. I’m feeling a little nauseous too…I’m writing that off to taking my vitamins on an empty stomach. In the 28 cycles I have been TTC I have only made it to 13 DPO 3 times. I guess time will tell! I am intermittently spotting still so I shouldn’t get too hopeful.
I’m gonna go run today in a bit here. I never made it to the gym yesterday. Instead I sat down and made salsa and ate ¼ of a can of frosting! Oh well. At least the Salsa was good for me since it was homemade and only had tomatoes, jalapeños, onion and a little bit of garlic salt in it and I ate it with home made baked sweet potato chips (sweet potatoes are much healthier then regular ones). So wasn’t a complete pig. Except for the frosting…try as I might, I can’t justify that!
It is going to be a long day! Last night I ended up getting called into work. I had been up all day and didn’t have time to take a nap when they called so I only agreed to stay until 3am…that turned into me staying the whole freaking shift! My plan was to go right to bed, but as soon as I walked through the door I wasn’t tired anymore. So I laid in bed and watched Monster In-Law on HBO. After it was done I tossed and turned and really couldn’t sleep. It is now 12:30 and I have just given up on trying anymore. So that means in the last 36 hours I have had only 2 ½ hours of sleep….and I have to go back into work tonight for a 12 hour shift…..AND stupid AF started yesterday and it turns out Acupuncture did not take the cramps away this cycle cause they are here in full force! I’m really missing my heating pad.
I’m debating on if I should run today. Most runner magazines say that you are supposed to take it easy the week of a race and rest, but I’m only doing a 5k not a marathon and I’m not running it to place or get a certain time. I know I will not run tomorrow….maybe I’ll just run a mile or so and keep it nice and slow. I did end up going to the gym yesterday! (yay me!) It was so hard to run on the treadmill after running outside! I did run my 3 miles in about 30 minutes so I’m happy about that. I expect my race time to be below that. I hear from everyone that you get really caught up in all the cheering crowds and other activities that you have better times….As long as I run the whole thing I will be happy. I’m really hoping that my cramps stop by then.
I also need to talk to DH about going back to the RE this cycle and see what he thinks. He came back into town today but had to go from the airport straight to work. I’m not sure if he’ll be home before I have to go in tonight so I may not see him. I would like to do my u/s for Clomid tomorrow so I will have to make an appointment today. I guess I can just make it and cancel if he wants to wait.
I am going to cal and talk to the billing women about seeing if I qualify for their IVF plan. My Re has a really cool plan where *if* you qualify both medically and financially for this plan you pay the cost of one IVF (16,000) and you get to do 3. If none of those 3 IVF’s result in a live birth you get 70% of your money back. It is a great plan. But 1- We don’t have 16,000. and 2-There is a high chance I might not qualify medically. So I’m a bit worried about how the conversation is going to go. I guess there is only one way to find out.
So I called and talked to the billing office and they explained a little better how this program works. It is through a group called Integra Med. You have to submit an application with your fertility workup and labs. They let you know in 48 hours if you are approved. If you are you get to do 3 fresh and 3 frozen IVF’s, so a total of 6 and if none of those result in a take home baby then they return 70% of your money back. It cost more then I originally thought….it is 23,350 and all of that has to be paid upfront. If I were to do IVF with my RE then the cost is 14,000-20,000 for each IVF. So if I have to do more then 1 treatment then it is cheaper to go with Integra.
Right now the billing office girl is making sure my labs are current enough for them. They have to be within 6 months and it may have been longer then that since I’ve had 3 day labs drawn. I’m hoping she finds out today if they will accept my older labs since tomorrow is CD 3 and if they won’t I’d like to go in and get it done. If not then I have to wait an entire cycle to do the application.
I just briefly talked to DH about it and he said we will come up with a way to make it work. I don’t know if we have to put it on a credit card (I’m pretty sure that would max out all of them) or have to take out a loan. I really want to make it work. The cost is very scary but as one of my friends pointed out to me, people pay that much for a car all the time without blinking an eye. That helped put it into prospective. The hopes of a child are worth more to me then a new car would ever be.
So they called back….my last FSH was 13. The girl said that usually Integra does not even look at people that have results more then 10 but because of my age and everything else is in order and I have no history of miscarriage they might be able to get it approved. She sounded a bit unsure if I will be approved or not. She said ”I just want to warm you this could go either way.”
I’m going to have my FSH redrawn tomorrow she is talking to the Re now about writing an order for me to have it done at my hospital which would be great cause I can just pop in there in the morning before I head home and because I can look up my results over the weekend and see what they are.
I feel a little sick now….I’m getting stressed out that I won’t be approved. I wish I wasn’t so crampy so I could go run.
I had my blood drawn this morning. They did an Estrodail, FSH and LH. I don’t work tonight so I’ll have to call later and have one of the girls look up what my results were. I am so worried the FSH will be high. I wish I would have slept more today. I got home this morning around 8am. It is now 11:30 and I am already up. I’m gonna have to be sure to force myself to go to bed early tonight. Even if I have to take Tylenol PM to do it so I can run in the morning. I haven’t slept much these last few days. I’m blaming it on nerves. I don’t think we’ll do IVF if I don’t qualify for this program. That is so scary to me. That might be the end of my TTC journey.
No news about my labs yet. Yesterday they weren’t in the computer. I go back to work today, I’m sure they are in there now. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that my FSH is better. We have decided that if I don’t qualify for the Integra Med program we are not going to do IVF. Instead I am gong to switch Endocrinologist and go see someone who will take my Pituitary tumor seriously.
The first time I saw my Endo for my pituitary tumor they told me that I would have trouble TTC. But at the time I was 19 so I wasn’t worried about it. Since then I have had to switch Endos because of insurance, this new guy is not worried about any of my concerns. I feel like he is very casual about something that is consuming my life. So I am going to switch doctors. My current Endo is a good doctor, but he specializes in Diabetes and Metabolism problems…not pituitary. I did some research and found a Doc that specializes in Pituitary and the good news is they take my insurance! So we are going to go to them and see about treating or removing my tumor to see if that help my fertility. All of my labs that are of are hormones that are secreted through the pituitary gland. So in my mind that is the most likely source, even though my current Endo says different. I am just waiting for my PCP to fax over a referral and then I’ll make an appointment.
Race for the Cure went well. It was a lot of fun! There were so many people!! We tried to take the light rail down, but the lines were outrageous!! And all the trains were full. It was ½ hour until the race started and we were still waiting in line at light Rail so we decided to drive. Traffic was also a *****! I really did not think we were going to make it, but some how we did. We even managed to find parking 20 feet from the start line! Denver held the record for the largest Race for the Cure last year, but we go beat by someone else over the summer. This year we took back our record. We had over 65,000 participants running or walking! I felt like the course was pretty easy right up until the end. We ran down an off ramp, then back up and on ramp that was steep!! This was a freaking hill and it kicked my ***! I had to walk up the last 50 feet of it, but other then that we ran the whole thing and were able to make good time….. They didn’t have a timer at the finish like which was a bummer, but according to my watch we did it between 25-30 minutes.
I’m so proud of myself for finally doing a race! And I am proud of my SIL and my DH for running it with me! We are thinking about doing another 5 K on the 21st. we’ll have to see….
We’ll my friend is on her way over to go over wedding stuff for her wedding so I better at least get out of my pajamas!
Sorry I haven’t updated in a while. I have been working like crazy. We have had all sorts of interesting things happened at work this week that a lot of us who have worked mom/baby for a long time have never seen! Crazy week! I’m so glad it’s over!
My lab results came back better. My FSH was down to 11.4. Still higher then it should be but better. My Estrodial was 34 which is completely fine and my LH was 5.6….great for CD 3. So the business lady at my RE is now submitting our application for the Integra plan. I’m a little worried they won’t accept it since my FHS is still crummy but I am praying they do! Then we have to figure out how to come up with 24,000!