Thread: PCOS+CLOMID=BABY??? I hope!

Ok so I have decided that I need a way to vent without bothering Jeff with every little detail. And what way to better do it than make a journal. And because it looks as though AF will be her tomarrow or the next day I decided to start now. We want so badly to be parents that it hurts. I just finished up a 7 day cycle of Provera on Monday. So maybe in three or four days I will be going on Clomid at a higher dose than I have been on before 150 mg. I am so scared that it's not going to work. Jeff has already decided that he is assuming that I will never have children, that way it dosen't hurt him as bad when we don't have any.
Jeff started a new shift at work on Monday as well. That will be better for playing "lets make a baby" because he gets to spend the mornings with me, which happens to be his "preffered time". He dosen't have to be to work until 5pm and comes home at 2am. I like it a lot better. I have my husband back. He actually wants to do things instead of just sit and watch tv till he is too tired to BD at all.
I made him start taking a vitamin B Complex for energy, because he is always tired. I have switched from a multi-vitamin to a prenatal, and added a B Complex as well. I decided to take the B Complex because it is supposed to aid in metabolisim, and balance hormones like estrogen, progesterone, and testostorone, as well as provide extra energy.
All except today and yesterday I have felt better, I have some sort of virus now though.
I could just kick myself, I took three pregnancy tests this last cycle. It was an anno cycle from all that I could see, and it lasted 36 days so far. From now on I am not testing until I talk to the Dr. I just can't handle the dissapointment any more.
There are two girls that are on the PCOS board that just got BFP's and though I am happy for them I am so jelous I could spit!! I have been trying for going on four years and still nothing. When is it going to be my turn?
The cycle before I began Provera, then Clomid I believe I misscarried (in October some). It had been six weeks since AF (early Sept.) and then all of a sudden I got a pain in my abdomen and then when I went to the bathroom my panties were soaked with blood. It was thick and very dark. I know I was pregnant when we got married but I misscarried then as well. The two resembeled each other quite a bit. I hope that it dosent take too much longer. Jeff is already 32. I want to have my baby by the time I turn 30. That leaves another 5 years, but I don't want to wait that long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well today was pretty good. I went to pick up the Clomid ($37.00), and spent some time with Jeff before he went to work. This morning I took my meds like a good girl.

1 prenatal vitamin
1 Slow Release Iron
1 4mg Avandia
1 B Complex
2 Midol

This afternoon I took
2 Extra Strength Tylenol

Then this evening I took
1 Slow Release Iron
1 B Complex
2 Midol Menstrual

Other than that not much more to write.

2-28-04
Meds I took::
1 Slow Release Iron
1 B Complex
1 Prenatal Vitamin
1 4mg Avandia
2 Midol Menstrual

2 Extra Strength Tylenol

1 Slow Release Iron
1 B Complex
2 Midol Menstrual

I was too pooped to write anything yesterday. Jeff and I begang our spring cleaning yesterday too. I love to work together with him and do a deep cleaning of our entire house. We make a great team, if only he satys around to be the second party in the team. Which brings us to today. He has been having some pains in his stomach for some time now and they have been real bad the last week so he finally allowed me to drive him to the hospital and we were there for four and a half hours. They did a cat scan of his appendix and sent us home for eight hours and we are to return if the pain dosen't go away. SOOOOOOOOOOOO....... you know what that means??? In about two and a half more hours we have to go for a ride so that we are there before midnight because the insurance runs out then, but if we are there today the insurance co will cover it. So I am now off to take my first dose of the 150mg Clomid and sleep for a couple of hours first.

Meds I took today:
1 Slow Release Iron
1 B Complex
1 Prenatal Vitamin
1 4mg Avandia

2 Extra Strength Tylenol

1 Slow Release Iron
1 B Complex
3 50mg Clomid

Okay okay I know I haven't been able to post like I want to but I have been so busy with helping my mom and dad with fixing their van and stuff. I promise I am going to pay more attention to what else is going on in life. Jeff and I slept late today, and then we got into it because I let him sleep later than he wanted to. I was not sure what time he came to bed lastnight so I thought that I would be a nice wife and let him sleep. Well the van finally got fixed today so I wont have to drive Ellen to work any more. I felt so depressed today like nobody even knew that I was there almost. I made BBQ ribs and potato salad for dinner tonight. I have been being good girl and taking all my meds on time and as directed. I stll have dishes to do and garbage to get out so I will have to write more later.

Wow!! Can we say BAD CANDIE!! I have not been able to do anything on here. To top it all off our internet connection has been on the blitz so the repair guy will be here tommarrow between 12 and 4. I ahve been spending A LOT of time with Jeff if you know what I mean??? I so hope that this month is it for us because I don't want to take anymore Clomid. Jeff hasbeen keeping on me to take my daily meds so I haven't missed any.

We went today to get our pictures done so they should be back in by April 1st. The package is going to cost $85.00. I really like the one pose but the other we ordered I don't care for but Jeff really liked it soooooooooooooo we had to get that one, and of course the ones of us by ourselves. Well I gotta get going seem as how I am not on our computer. Will rite more later when I get my computer back.

Well, it is good to be back! The cable guy who was supposed to be here between 12 and 4 showed at like 3:45 inserted the disk and left. So now that the net is back up I am getting caught up on things like reading posts and email.

We have been busy still trying to get the spring cleaning done. It is taking so long because I live in an upper apartment from my parents (they own the whole house but we rent the upstairs) and I am helping her get some of her cleaning done at the same time.

I also cook daily for them so that my mom has enough energy to clean the dishes after. She has fibromyalgia, as well as many other conditions that use all her energy. Not to mention that my dad has diabetes and is on the insulin pump and needs to be monitored, and my handicapped brother who can not take care of his own personal hygine. So this is a very busy household.

I have been feeling what I believe is O pain the last three days. I feel confiedent this cycle we are definately bd'ing enough, and I believe that I am Oing from both ovaries this month so that is a good thing. Twins would be nice but i would be absolutely extatic for just one.

Well this is turning into a weekly journal instead of a daily one. Jeff and I went to the mall and walked around for about an hour and a half or so, and stopped into this place that smelled oh so good. It was called Aurther Treachers. The food was so so, I guess I just wasn't in the mood for fish. We came back home and took a nap before he had to go to work. Jeff is happy that he is off his pnishment for a while. I told him we'd only BD if he wanted to until after AF starts again or we find out that I am PG. That is all the news for today.

Well I believe that this month was not our month again. So should AF actually show up here I think we are going to take a break this month and give it another go next month. I believe that AF will be showing soon I had some spotting yesterday and today and light cramping for the last three days. At least I O'd this month which is a good thing. I have been extremely moody the last week or so which I do not like at all!! Jeff is looking for a different job because where he is working is through a temp agency and the company is not doing any hiring in until after the first of the year and then it would be another 90 days till we got insurance, we need insurance before the next year especially TTC. He also dosen't like where he is working because the people there are just inconsiderate and drink and smoke weed on lunch and don't follow saftey regulations on the hi/lo's. He fears for his life that he may get ran over by someone who got drunk and didn't sound his horn when he should and OOPS! there goes an innocent mans life for some assholes mistake. OK that is all for now got to get dinner on the stove.