Friday morning DH & I arrived at the hospital nice and early after a sleepless night. Upon arrival, the staff were nothing but compassionate and nice. We were quickly guided down to the pre op room to complete the check in process. B/c this went so fast, I was told that I could hang out for 45 minutes before changing. Fortunately DH brought his laptop so we played a game to keep our minds distracted.
After 45 minutes, I quickly changed and the next thing I know the anesthesiologist came by to see me. Just after the doc stopped by and said they were running ahead of schedule and they'd be getting me in really soon. The next thing I remember, the nurse came over and walked me into the OR. I was so scared. It was hard to part ways with my DH.
I sensed that the nurse knew I was scared. When I laid on the table, the anesthesiologist was there waiting and gave me something to relax. That is the last thing I remember.
I then woke up in recovery and I couldn't stop trembling! It was weird!! I looked down at my feet and they were shaking, my hands, arms, legs, everything was shaking! I called the nurse to help and she said I was having a reaction to the anesthetic. I heard her on the phone explaining to someone that she had a patient who has been trembling for 20 minutes and she needed some meds. Finally another dr approved the meds I needed to stop shaking.
The nurse then mentioned what the doc found. She said there was some endometriosis on my right ovary and he was not able to open my left tube.
I was then put in a wheelchair and waited for my DH. A little while later they released me to go home.
On the way home, DH said the dr was really glad we went forward with the laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, and D & C. Good news is they did not find any masses, no fibroids, no polyps. They did find some endometriosis growing (not a lot) and were able to remove it. Now for the weird news. He said that I have a "fluffy" uterus!?! He tried to describe to my DH that some women have wrinkly skin and some do not, well, I have a "fluffy" uterus. He said this may be why he couldn't get the dye through my left tube. Weird.
At this point, it is assumed that the "wrinkly" uterus may be a result of the adenomyosis as this condition is typically associated with a "boggy" uterus.
We go back for the post op visit on April 2nd. At this point, we will get the official results and the dr told DH that we could start talking about fertility.
When I got home on Friday, I was feeling like CRAP :bluesad: I was pale, weak, and nauseated. I had a lot of help from my family, which was awesome. Yesterday, I was feeling a lot better. I had color back in my face and was no longer dizzy and light headed. I think I felt better b/c all the anesthetic was out of my system.
My abdomen is still aching. It is hard to lay down to sleep (b/c it stretches my muscles) and it is hard to move around quickly. The dr said I should avoid heavy movement for 2 weeks and he said I should start to feel better after 5 days. Good news is my throat is feeling better from the breathing tube, but b/c of the breathing tube, I have a fat lip!! Yuck!
We'll see how I feel tomorrow, I may go into work for a few hours.
I tried to go in to work today. I woke up, feeling ok, so I got ready and left for work. The drive was difficult. I had been laying in the most comfortable position all weekend and now I had to drive a car... I must be crazy...when I showed up to work, one of my supervisors said she was very surprised to see me. She suggested I take my work home...I wasn't sure that was an option!! So around lunch time, my abdominal pain wasn't going away, in fact, it was getting worse. I decided it was time to head home. It feels so good sitting here with my legs stretched out. I brought some reports home to work on.. I may do this in the morning as well. I don't want to make things worse by rushing back to work.
This morning I did call the rheumatology department. They scheduled me for an appointment tomorrow at 1:40. Although I don't want to drive there, I am anxious about getting to go so soon as well as getting info from this specialist to take back with me to the RE on April 2nd. I hope he has good news to tell me!!
GOOD news!! I saw a rheumatologist today and he said that I DO NOT have a blood clotting disorder!! Woo Hoo!! He said that all my panels were normal. He further investigated the high number noticed by my RE and he said that this number was a "subtype" and for the "subtype" anything under 25.0 is normal .. my number was 12.0. He said this number can vary day by day, but my score was within the normal range. For women who do have the high number, he said that it does increase the chance of blood clotting and miscarriages in the second and third trimester. But for me, he said this is not the case at this time.
Whew!! Finally some good news!!
So, I am still feeling some discomfort in my abdominal region. I felt great this morning with my medicine but driving and sitting at the dr's office for 1 1/2 hours (I couldn't believe how long I had to wait for a 10 minute appt!) irritated my abdomen... oh well, at least I am getting better every day.
I've been feeling drained all week. Physically and emotionally... I'm looking forward to this weekend, I will be laying around the house!! Then there is only one more week until the kids are on spring break! I need this time away from work -- I think I'll be fine physically by then but I think I need an emotional break...
I've been away from pg.org for a few days. Well, I've signed on to see if there was anything major going on, but haven't really posted. I've been swamped at work, trying to rest and take it easy, and trying to avoid what has been going on.
Last weekend, we found out a good friend is expecting number 2, later this week we found out that another good friend is ready to work on number 3. Ugh. I am truly happy for them and they do not know what DH and I are going through, but it is hard to listen to their joy and baby talk... I'm not ready for that.
I go back to the dr on Monday for the official results/ post op visit. I'm anxious to hear what the doc has to say and to find out what his proposed plan is for us, if he has a plan that is. We'll see.
I've been trying really really really hard to be positive. Sometimes I feel the way I talk to others at home, work, with friends, or typing posts on pg. org that I am pessimistic... I feel it's a sign of the depression that I've fallen in the past 2 months. Thankfully I have my dear DH...he continues to be my rock.
After hearing the news about friend #1 he just comforted me, and after hearing the news about friend #2, he started to say, Um..., Well..., Uh...., trying to find the right thing to say to me. I told him that I appreciate him trying to find words to help me but he didn't have to. He gave me a hug and that's when I realized he felt the same way I did after hearing this news.
Good news: the kids at work are on spring break! Woo Hoo!!
I got back from the RE a little bit ago. After TTC for three months (since Oct, but were told to hold off during these tests), after multiple tests, and after my recent surgery here's what he had to say:
"Official" post operation results/ diagnosis:
1. Mild Endometriosis
3. Closed Left Tube
4. High FSH level
I had another u/s today and he said all is healing well.
Reason why I experience abnormal bleeding (almost daily -- except since the surgery):
The doc indicated it may be a combination of the above listed conditions (except the closed tube) but he's not convinced that we've identified the overall issue.
The RE said he is really interested in seeing the pattern of bleeding after this past surgery. Time will tell. He said sometimes the endo grows back w/i a month, w/i a year, and sometimes it doesn't grow back at all. Unfortunately, the adenomyosis will never go away, my tube can't be opened, and my FSH level may always be high or it may rise over time.
RE's recommended next step:
1. Take 100 mg of Clomid days 5-9 of my next cycle
2. Day 10 FSH test
3. IUI when I get a positive OPK
DH & I are thrilled that he didn't tell us that our only option is surrogacy or adoption; however, he is still not convinced that I can get pg. He said we may be able to get pg naturally, but he is concerned that I have too many factors running against me right now and he would like to proceed with treatment now.
He said after 3 cycles of IUI if I'm not pg, he would recommend IVF.
DH & I scheduled the baseline u/s and got the prescription for Clomid, but are still nervous about this process (and cost since I'm not sure what insurance covers). The RE said he would be upset if we didn't proceed with his recommended plan (he was kidding) and said if I were his daughter, this is what he would definitely recommend. The RE has never given us a reason to doubt him. He is fast (my first RE appt was 2-12-07), thorough, honest, and he has been accurate.
Whew!!! What a week. And to think, I'm on spring break and should be relaxing...yeah right!
After the post op appt I've been pretty stressed ... I'm thankful that I have nothing "life threatening" going on, but I feel so uneasy about knowing whether or not I can become pg.
I had a few days this week where I was the most irritable person!!!!!!! I've never been that irritable before. DH, family, friends, strangers... if anyone did something, looked at me, didn't do something, I was just livid... fortunately that is over (I hope).
Today I picked up my prescription of Clomid - fortunately, insurance covered the generic brand (the nurse swears it is the same thing) .. so I was only out $10... not bad!!
I go in for my baseline u/s next week and a few days later will start the Clomid -- I'd love for everything to work out this cycle. I honestly don't know how we would handle ourselves both financially and emotionally if we have to do this multiple times.....
Yesterday was great ~ I slept in, did some shopping, well, lots of shopping, did some cleaning, hung around the house, went out to dinner....and then I found out that yet another person is pg. This time it's a close family member. I don't know why I did but I burst into tears. DH did great trying to console me since he knows how sensitive I am to this right now and he tried to cheer me up by stating that our kid will have lots of cousins to play with....yeah, yeah, I know... but I told him that this is more of a reminder to me as to how screwed up my body really is... ugh! He's trying reallly hard to keep my positive... it's not working so well. Before when friends have shared they're pg, I can put my feelings aside b/c I know I may not see them but now w/ family, I know "baby" will be the talk of the town during holidays/ family gatherings, etc...