THE PAIN HAS GONE!!! WOOOOOOT!!! I am so happy! I had a few twinges this morning after emptying my bladder, but it left and I can BREATHE again! Whew! So this kind of scares me, because I don't want every period to be like this from now on. Praying it was just an awful AF, one time shot. PLEASE! LOL!
Bleeding is still pretty heavy, but I figured on that. At least I can put a tampon in today THANK GOODNESS. Pads are so gross.
So I am hoping AF leaves by day 5, which would be about 2 days longer than normal, but again, expected due to the MC. If that works out, and O comes when she should (CD 16-1 then I am looking at an April 14th EDD if all goes well. I think that is actually my Aunts or my cousins birthday...lol.. can't remember which!
Anyway, April is a nice month, don't you think? If not April, I may skip May altogether. Mine is may 3rd, Ryan's in May 6th, Stepmoms is May 5th, Gmas is May 15th, and there are more i can't remember right now lol. May is an expensive month.
*sigh* so nice to have a goal, with dates associated! It feels real again!
Amazing how life can change in the blink of an eye, isn't it?
So, Friday, I was informed (lets say by a little birdy) that my landlord is behind on his mortagage and getting close to foreclosure. So for the last three months, he has been living off of our rent money. Nice, right? I won't go into all the mumbo jumbo about it, but basically we have been given this gift of foresight, and we had to make a big decision. Obviously we are not going to stay here, paying this douchbag only for him to get is kicked out anyway.
So HD's parents graciously offered to let us stay with them for a while so we can get some money saved up and buy a home for ourselves. Super cool of them! I am not going to say living with them will be easy or fun, but it is an opportunity we cannot pass up if we ever want to climb out of our financial hole we have dug.
God is good. He has given us so many blessings, and I consider this yet another. so I called the Landlord today to tell him we were leaving. It was hard to play devils advocate, knowing full well that not only was he lying to us for three months, but lying through the whole conversation (oh gee, how will I EVER come up with next months payment? blah blah) But I held strong and steady. He took the news much better than I hoped. I just pray he stays in that frame of mind. While he has no legal recourse against whatsoever, I would not put anything past him either. He can be a real sue-happy guy.
So all of that being said, this journal is now on an indefinete hold. DH and will not be TTC. I am bummed, WAY more bummed than DH will ever know. I can't let him see how heartbroken I really am over this. He does not need that extra stress by any means. We both talked about it, and it sure wouldn't be fair for us, the kids, the parents, or a new baby. Now I am not going to say that an accident might not happen. Me and DH only use pull-out as BC. Surely, we have had no accidents in 4 years, but hey ya never know. Again, this is in God's hands. We know that now is not the time.
So, this will be my last entry. If we do TTC again, I will revive this one lol. Or, God willing, my next journal will be a pregnant one.