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    Well... Jamie made me realize I haven't updated this thing in awhile!!

    On Friday, 10/6 I went in for a HSG and it came out all clear. Thank goodness! I was really worried about it. I also had a follie check and I had a 17 mm follie on my right ovary. So, I was instructed to come back the next morning. On Saturday morning it measured 20 mm, so I was instructed to trigger on Sunday morning.
    On Monday I went in for my first IUI. It was 10.4 million, which isn't that great. I'm really not hopeful... but then again I kinda am. I just hate getting burnt.
    So once again I am in the 2WW.
    Dee

    IVF #1- 22 ret./12 mat./8 fert./5 (frag.) trans. BFN
    IVF #2- Early fall 08

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    I hate the 2WW!

    This is so nerve racking!

    Its not me really... I don't think I am pregnant because at this point I can't even imagine seeing a BFP outside of a HCG trigger. Everyone keeps saying not to think so negatively, but its really hard not to. There are so many people praying for us... from the west to the east coast. The girls are so excited... and today the eldest misunderstood something I said (I was explaining I started XMAS shopping) and all she heard was, "I started" and she looked at me with the most shocking look ever. It looked like she was going to cry. She's so emotional. I'm worried about others more than me. I'm worried about DH , cause he's so excited and anxious. I'm worried about the girls, cause they have been waiting as long as we have. I'm worried about those who see me and wonder why God is witholding such a blessing from us when there are so many people out there, like the woman who threw her baby in a garbage bag, who should not have children.
    Dee

    IVF #1- 22 ret./12 mat./8 fert./5 (frag.) trans. BFN
    IVF #2- Early fall 08

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    So, obviously the first IUI didn't work. This sent me into a worldwind of emotions, I broke down several times last Sunday and cried in what seemed like all day. I've never reacted this way before. I guess months of infertility and frustration will do that to me... just came to a reality that even with intervention I wasn't getting pregnant. It was a very hard day.

    Ever since then I have made decisions to change my lifestyle. Some I should have quit a long time ago, but after tomorrow I will quit. I've been gearing myself up all week... I'm ready to go into this next IUI knowing I could do NOTHING more or better than I have been.

    In the strangest way... I still find myself blaming myself for a failed cycle. This is a lot of burden to carry on ones shoulders.
    Dee

    IVF #1- 22 ret./12 mat./8 fert./5 (frag.) trans. BFN
    IVF #2- Early fall 08

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