I'm just finishing my two days off in a row. I usually get SUNdays and WEd off. THIs week I Took an extra day in lieu of last weeks stat. I took SUn, tues and wed. AT the end of my two days i'm stressed. I had my stepson home with me both days, monday he was home too and I Had to leave work to check on him. I posted a request for ideas/help on a few boards, i'll just paste it here..... DH is taking me out to our pub to watch the hockey game. It will be nice to have some time with him.
Hey all. I'm not sure where to post this but i'll throw it out to my bb hoppin buddies. ONe of my stepkids is 11. HE doesnt really like school, two years ago he'd often be sick on fridays with a sore stomach and by 4pm he magically was better, able to play outside with friends etc. HE didnt like school, wasn't doing homework so got into trouble causing him to "Feel sick etc" LASt year he got a new teacher that he loved, made a world of difference. THis year a new teacher again, seems ok but he keeps getting sick. This time he woke up sick on sunday and i know he wasn't faking.(not eating except for crackers, toast and chicken noodle soup since sunday)
MY question is how do you figure out if he's faking, making himself sick with anxiety..... I KNow this time he started out a bit sick, but i'm worried he's going to get used to sitting at home watching movies and playing games all day and never go back.
BTW, the dr is doing bloodwork this week, ultrasound etc, he wanted me to find out if there was any family history of celiac, allergies, infllamatory bowel etc and when i asked his mom's mom she told me he probably just hates school like his mother did. THAt ticked me off and also worrys me because his mom never finished school.
Sigh, I know being a mom is hard, but being a stepmom is like doing the job with one hand tied behind your back.
ANy ideas for getting him back on track??? (dh and i Left a message for his teacher to get homework and call us to see if everything is ok with him in class)
First snow of the year! SO pretty, already saw a fender bender on my way home from work today.
MY throat is killing me, I feel like I Have the flu, just crappy. I think the clomid is making it worse too. Anyways lots of crap but i'm to tired to talk about it :lol:
DH got a package in the mail today, his new extended health insurance, first think I LOoked for was fertility... I CAn't find anythign on treatments however we are covered for $2500 per 24 months for meds!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it, this is awesome! So if we go to injectables we are covered. I'm hoping this is a good sign that some treatments will be partially covered too :)
I will start using opks soon, the nurse told me to start tomorrow, but i'll wait till wed probably, after I CHeck my charts for my earliest O with clomid. I think i'll be o'g on the weekend.....
Today was our IUI! It's always a surprise which day it will be as i'm not monitored but i'm in charge of testing myself with opks and going in the morning I get a pos. It was stressful getting out of work but it ended up ok. I Hate stress, doesn't help with ttc. I'm so happy we got the IUI done though. Now to trying to relax, let dh's sperm swim and find my eggie. I have to work tomorrow and then sunday off to rest.
I"m so sick with this stupid cold that won't go away. I Stayed in bed half the day and then started to feel a bit more mobile. I Even put on my snowsuit and went in the backyard to play with my kitty in the fresh snow. It snowed at least 6 inches. After watching dh shovel most of the driveway i took over and did a few scoops until he said NO, not if you have something growing in you. After he was done I went across the street to do a little path for the little old lady and he came over and stopped me and then he took over. That made me feel good, taken care of, protected and also that he is a little excited at our prospects.
Hope i'm feeling better, back to work tomorrow. Hahaha i'm so tired i was just about to write "love you" like i'm writing a letter to someone. Well ladies, LOVE YOU :lol:
I feel like there's not much for me to say anymore. My ttc journey just keeps going and going and going. Like a broken record. Like all of my grad buddies will be walking their kids to kindergarten while i'm in labor. I'm not down in the dumps, I just want to reorganize my life. I'm sick of work, I want to focus more on my home and family. I don't have the energy to do both and I don't have the finances to quit. I come home from work, I cook dinner and then I'm 'done'. Can't clean at all and the house shows it. The kids leave stuff laying around everywhere too so that gets me mad. What can I do about it? I'm 'only' a stepmom. DH is really good about laundry and stuff, but it ticks me off to see him pick up their wrappers etc. But what can I do about it.
I'm feeling a little burnt out hence the above feelings. I wish I could do more but just can't.
Like I said, i'm working on changing my focus in daily life, lowering my stress level etc.
Ok, NOW i'm feeling a little down. I just can't shake the thought that this IUI won't work, that no matter what we do I won't get pregnant until my body decides to get pregnant. I just read an article that Melanie shared regarding diet/weight and fertility. I know that i'm hindering my chances because i'm overweight. I don't know why I havn't gone on a diet yet, maybe because i'm scared of failing, and also that it is an admission that i'm "fat". WOW, i'm messed up :lol:
I have been thinking that if this month doesnt work, we should take the next month off ttc (not prevent) and I should go on a diet and get some exercise. Focus on getting healthy. That can only help both fertility and my self esteme. Now if I can get past the 'thinking about' stage and actually do it.
I"M getting excited that i'm over half way thru this 2ww. I tested on sunday bfn as i expected. I"ll test tomorrow too. I"M thinking I have a chance this month. I"m feeling twinges and a fullness in my uterus. I've been wrong before, but i'm very hopeful this month as the days go on. Todays temp just adds to that.
I'm trying to watch myself at work so that i'm not working too hard. I don't want to risk anything.
Can't wait to test :)
I tested yesterday and today, snow white bfn. Now i'm upset because I can't find this mornings test that I wanted to at least see if there was an evap line. i'm going nuts.
It feels like the more tests I buy and take it will help me get pregnant, like the test will say 'ok, you've bought so many of these, i'll reward you today with a bfp'
Seriously, thats why I always test early and keep on testing till af arrives. I'm having lots of pressure/twinges in my uterus for a few days now and my bb's are huge and sore. Like I said, my bb's always get more sensitive this time of the cycle but i'm really getting my hopes up.
I'm out of my $tree tests so i'll have to shell out $17 for some good tests in Canada. :( maybe they will give me what I want!!!
I used my frer and got a snow white window,,, not even an evap. i guess that means i'm out. I'm going to be very depressed when af arrives. MY temp went up today, my boobs got LESS sensitive and the pressure in my uterus is still there.
I got a blood pregnancy test today, get the results tomorrow.
WHat is it going to take for me to get pregnant and then have a sticky bean????? I wish someone would tell me. I really don't see myself going to IVF. Both me and dh are tested as "normal". SIGH
I think DH know's im' not pregnant too, today he brought flowers home saying he knows i'm feeling sad about baby. THAts just it. ITs like i'm mourning a real baby, but its just a "cycle". Not to us hey ladies? Every month is like a chance at a real baby, we love it already etc.....
If af arrives, im going to have a nice two weeks with dsd visiting from eastern CAnada, eat lots of good stuff, spoil the kids, then i'm going to do something for me. Join WeightWAtchers. I have 35 LBS to loose, I could do a little more but 35 would make me really happy. I Have to do something. I just need a break from Clomid and to loose some weight. I"M scared. I don't know if I can do it, well I know if I tried I could do it but i'm scared of failing......
Great, now i'm crying. I wish for so much...... i'm just so sad
I got one answer at least. BFN for this cycle. I told the nurse maybe I Shouldn't bother coming to my appt on tuesday but she said I should because the dr will probably want to change your treatment plan......
After reading the injectable ladies protocols and thoughts, I think i'm becoming more open to that option.
The next two weeks will be a good mental break, my oldest dsd is coming for a visit. Then next cycle we might start something new.... unless we get a natural miracle this cycle:)
Oh and af hasn't shown up yet and i'm 15dpo! LOvely how the witch plays with you eh?