I started to spot today. My emotions are torn. I'm a little happy that this cycle is over so we can move on with the healing process and also ttc. But more so i'm sad. Its like the final chapter of my bfp and sprout is totally gone now since my body is "back to normal". I went back and forth the past few days wondering how far I should go in ttc this month and the next few cycles. It was tough going thru a loss, and bad with my Dh for a few weeks. Since then major changes have happened in our relationship, positive ones. I wasnt sure if I wanted to try now since it would be so nice to go on vacation and camping and party/have fun drinking with dh and friends but I dont want to do that obviously if pregnant. I realized that if I got a bfp i'd be extatic so I thought there's my answer, do I want to drink, or have a baby?
Tonight I filled my first prescription for clomid. I'll be starting it probably on sunday. I can't wait. I think we will do an IUI too. I asked DH and he just wants me to be happy and do what I want. He is not under the same time restraints and I realize there is no way I can wait a few months so why bother even waiting one month.
Let the hormone changes begin!
Oh and we are going to Seattle with the kids tomorrow for the weekend. We plan on going to the Pike street market and a Mariners baseball game on Sunday. Should be hot and sunny. One last pint and hotdog!! :)
We had a very nice time in Seattle. The weather was perfect, sunny and warm. Took the kids shopping, they spent their money on clothes etc. I didnt get any clothes, but I got some great ttc booty. I got digital hpt's, 7pack of brand name opk's too. I started the Clomid on Sunday. Its all done now the rest is up to my body. We are planning on doing IUI this month, but the timing is really tough with work. I hope it will happen but we shall see. Its so hard to plan IUI when your body has a mind of its own. I havn't used any opk's yet. I think I have one $tree one and i'll use that tomorrow. Then its on to the good stuff. Its very early but I'm worried the clomid will be changing my cycle to O early and I don't want to miss it.
Today was my third day of opk testing, all negative. Still, its exciting to see two lines on a stick even if they mean negative on opks. :lol:
I finally got DH to tell his boss about having to leave work sometime this week. Its hard to get people to understand without telling them the whole story. But he has it arranged, too bad he is working an hour away from our RE.
Things are good at home with DH and the kids too. Looking forward to summer.
YES! I got a pos opk this morning!!! :blob3: :blob5: :blob6:
It started at 4am when I got up to pee and decided to piac just in case. THen after laying in bed for awhile I realized that opk's are different and I dont need fmu. Its my day off so I dozed in bed till just after 9. I made myself get up because if today was the day, i had to get a move on. So I took my test and the line came up right away. I freaked out, found the directions stuffed in a drawer and stared. "ok which line is the control line and which is the test????"
I was freaking out, tried calling dh but his cell doesnt work well at his current job. I text him and then text his co-worker to call me asap. I told him im not sure, i'm scared i'm wrong and took another test. It was pos too.
Our first appt was for 1pm, then we walked around the mall till 2:30 for my part of the appt. All went well. The nurse tried three different speculums till she could get a good view of my cervix Once she had a good view she said it was easy.
Yippee. Can't wait for this 2ww to get a move on.
Pretty sure I o'd yesterday. My temp went up today. I'm so happy that we did all we did this month. I'm feeling really good and excited about this cycle. So is DH.
Last night DH took me out to see Knocked Up. It was hilarious. I laughed so hard I snorted. It was well written IMO, kept you laughing every second. I got a little misty when they were shopping for baby..... :( but I really enjoyed the movie. They could have cut the swearing in half though.
Busy weekend, it was nice.
Getting my hopes up with this cycle. Yesterday I felt "sensation" in my uterus. Like a pressure when I sit and my pants are too tight on it. Hope its baby and not fat :lol:
Yea, its my day off! I"m taking myfurbaby into the vet today for a hurt paw/leg :( Hope it doesnt cost me a fortune. I'm having some gf's over for a bbq tonight and its sunny!!! Can't wait to make them a great dinner.
Im getting so excited about this cycle. I can't wait to test. I wish I could test now. Only a few more days. Oh that reminds me. I have to go get a blood test today to make sure I o'd after my IUI. I"m a busy girl!
I still have that pressure sensation in my uterus. Yesterday I had some heartburn too. Nothing else to report. Except I had very strange dreams again..........
So tired today. I missed lunch and that screwed me up for the rest of the day. I didnt eat till 4 :( but now i've had a full dinner and i feel gross. I'm just relaxing at home gonna put a movie in or tv.
WAY TMI but I had tons of cm today. Highly unusual for me.
Im getting excited. Less than a week to go till the report is in!!!! I"ll test sat am with FMU too. I kinda know what that test will say, its too early but hell thats what the tests are there for, for me to pee on!! :lol:
I tested today. BFN. I knew it would be but I was hoping for a miracle. :( Oh well. Now i'm all mopey and its raining. GOtta get a move on though. I have some teenagers coming over to help my DSD cook a big dinner. SHould be exciting and energetic in my house soon. I feel so old it will be nice to have some young blood around.
I have one test left, not sure if I will take it, I might just wait till I see the RE on wednesday. sigh
How long is this going to take, seriously. I'm 33. I don't want to wait much longer to have a baby, I want to get preggos NOW.
Sure enough, I took my second test on monday BFN. All spelled out in pretty letters on the digital. Ho Hum.
I'm waiting for some workers to come and put new flooring in our kitchen :) , as soon as they get here i'm off to work for an hour and then going to my RE for my blood test results. I have hopes for this month still.
Oh right after my RE appt I"m planning on going to my company's sample sale. Either i'll be so excited and spend too much or i'll be too depressed to go since we sell baby and children's clothing.
Hope I get to shop.