I had a wonderful time visiting my parents. We rented a cabin on a lake and a boat to go fishing. IT was very cold but we were having fun. I caught a few fish (i didnt touch them gross lol) and we had a family sing song lol. My sis and niece went with us for the two nights. I spent a week there and everyone said at work today that i look 'well rested and relaxed'. hope that translates into a healthy eggy this cycle.
TOday dh and i went to see the RE. We went over the next options including IVF. WE decided to try clomid IUI for a few more cycles and then maybe onto injectables. YIKES!
Being away from DH sure makes the heart grow fonder. We missed each other like crazy, another honeymoon when i got back last night. MAYbe we won't have to go in for an IUI after all.
I poas today in my mall washroom. LOL if only people knew what went on in the stalls. :lol:
I think I got a pos opk. I havn't looked at the box to know which line is which but I"m pretty sure it was a pos. My back is still in alot of pain, but thats not going to hold me back from ttc :) we will have to just take our time.
Tonight i'm going all out. If i get the guts i'm gonna try egg whites. I bought the INstead cup and if dh will go for it i'll get him to help me with that too.
WHy not, better than moving on to injections right? Or i'll get in the mood for an omlette.
yea, it was a pos opk!!! :) Last night we dtd and used an instead cup right after. I had dh ready to put it in for me but it was amazingly easy for me to do. I left it in all night. I"M still not convinced its the best thing for us but hey, its worth a try and its not like anything else has worked. Today my temp went down a point so i'm sure I have already o'd. Tonight we will try one more time with the instead cup and if I get the guts we will use egg whites too.
Tomorrow I have a review at work with my outgoing district manager, and meet with my new boss. I'll be fine but my role as manager is difficult trying to get my staff to stay calm and not freak out with changing bosses. THey are always scared and don't trust new bosses. I've been with the company so long that it doesn't scare me too much. ITs just a pain and stressfull keeping my staff from making it so negative. Oh the joys of retail....
HOpe it doesn't stress me out too much that it ruins my chances this month.
(((((breathe)))) (((((just keep swimming)))))
What did I say about stress????? Yesterday I went to work, met by my boss first thing and she started barking about how my store looked before we even opened the gate. SHe flipped out on me. THe night before I had staff in to put a new line of clothing out and redo displays etc. They left it a mess knowing that the boss was coming along with a new district manager. Did I say she flipped? Well I ended up having to haul boxes of clothes to our storage unit outside the mall with a bad back, at least that gave me some privacy to cry. She told the new boss not to bother coming. SHe kept on raging about how I dont care about the store,,,, that even though I had put my back out I should have been working that night with the girls "laying on the floor directing them" if I couldn't stand. She said "i'm glad i'm not your dm anymore, I'm sick....." THat was how my day started. I never got my review....lol
Just got a call from my store, the new boss has already started sending emails hounding us on stuff. This will be a lovely day. Glad i'm off tomorrow.
NO wonder I never get pregnant, too much stress in my life.
I had a nice day off yesterday. DSD stayed home from school. Someone keeps threatening to kill everyone in her school so she/we decided to skip the day. Not sure how serious the threats are but if something did happen and we let her go.......
So she went on a few errands with me and she suggested we go for lunch. First thing I think is $$$$. But she was in such a good mood (shes 15....) that I thought I should take advantage and have some "bonding" time with her. We went to the beach and had sushi. It was awesome. Then we did some thrift store browsing. IT was an awesome afternoon. Then Dh took me out to our local pub for appys.
I have to work today. My new district manager came to see me and the store on Tuesday. SHe was SO NICE. And my full time lady liked her too so thats really good and took alot of pressure off me.
I had a nice day off. I made several apple crisp to share and freeze, hashbrown casserole (first time can't wait), honey garlic ginger chicken with chinese noodles, green beans..... OMG i just typed this and holy crap that sounds like a pregnancy dinner :lol:
casserole and chinese don't mix but they sounded so good I didnt care. It sure smells good, can't wait to dig in. DH and DSS Are watching a football game on tv. They went out for the aft together and when they got home dh says "this is what a house should smell like on sunday" with a big smile. GLad he thought so.
Tomorrow is part of the anniversary gift I Gave him this year. We are going on a party bus down to Seattle to watch monday night football. DH"s fav team is playing Seattle so he was really excited to go. Hope so it was alot of money. At least I get a trip out of it too :)
THe men are all going into the grocery store to buy beer after we cross the border, i'm going to load up on cheese :lol: (half the price than Canadian cheese)
WE are having a huge wind storm tonght, the power keeps bumping. Hope dinner is cooked before the power goes out :)
Football was good. I wouldn't spend the money on that again, DH maybe but not me. I got carsick on the way down :( Not fun.
The game was good. DH's team lost :lol: he was bumed.
I took a test today, bfn. I was going to wait till tomorrow but.....ya know.
I"M killing my back at work lately, slugging boxes around is really hard and last night I paid for it. bad night sleeping and it hurts to even roll over in bed.
DH told me that the kids think i'm pregnant. They were talking I guess and said because i'm tired and my back hurts :lol: has my obsessing subconciously entered their brains?????? But they thought this before I even o'd I think so....i'm not reading into it.
I really wish I Had a day off, i'm going to try to get tomorrow or friday off. My back is killing me.
Today I slept in late for work, so after i peed I realized it was too late to test. :lol:
I was glad, less to obsess over today, and waiting a day can only help the chances of a bfp if i'm actually pregnant. I"ll be testing tomorrow if I remember in time :lol:
Work is NUTS. Seriously, its nuts. DH keeps saying he has to knock me up so I can have a break from my job. Maybe I should focus on saving money and budgeting so that I can leave work in a year regardless of being pregnant. That would NO DOUBT help my chances of conceiving. Maybe next summer I could take off???? HMmm i like the sound of that.
Symptoms?? Big swollen bb's, wierd dreams, a little bit of heartburn. I"ve had all of those during non preg cycles though ....
looks like i'm moving onto another cycle again. I'm feeling depressed about it. After testing neg the other day I knew in my heart that it wasnt the time for us. When I told dh how I was feeling he sounded like me a year ago saying "why can't our bodies get it together, why why why why????? WHAT WILL IT TAKE..."
He sounded just like I used to when I was more vocal. I guess i've kindof accepted the fact that I keep getting bfn's. :(
I really dont know what to do about this cycle and the next few to come. We planned on clomid+IUI but i'm not sure. I guess i'm scared to get my hopes up. I thought the egg whites would work, how could something so wierd NOT WORK?????
I guess whats coming into my heart right now is I can't afford to wait. I wish I could have the next few months off ttc but I don't have time on my side. I'm going to see if I can talk dh into going for a walk with me, maybe some fresh air will help me/us decide. If we go for it, I need to fill the prescription soon and call the RE tomorrow.
After the first two days of mourning the last cycle, i'm ready to commit to clomid + IUI. I have a good chance of O'g on a weekend and that has always made me nervous because the Re is closed however you call the emergency number and still go in for your IUI no matter what day. BUt now I Think it would be perfect since dH wouldn't have to leave work and those days of the week its easier for me to get someone to cover my shift.... so today will be my first pill! I BEtter get back on the prenat regimine, i've not been good the past week.
Today my furbaby is getting fixed :( I can't believe how sad I am that she's going to be sore I can't imagine what its like to take a child in for any treatment i'll be a basketcase. I"m really attached to this kitty, after our loss she stayed in my bed that whole week and snuggled me. SHe totally knew something was wrong, she was a big comfort to me. Now it will be my turn to comfort her.