Well I think after 20 months I really need to start this journal. I am 24 and my dh is 25. We have been ttc for 20 months. I have a short lp and low progesterone. Dh has had a SA and all is well there!! :woohoo:
This has been a long and very tiring journey. The only thing that keeps me going from day to day is imaging the day that I can hold my baby in my arms for the first time. I have waited so long and so patiently for my turn. I believe though God has a will and a time for everything.
Sometimes it gets really hard for me bc my dh has 5 brothers and all have children. I have a sil who is only 22 and is pg with her 5th child and it really irrates me!! :evil: She told me about a week ago and I came home and just cried to dh!! I think sometimes he just doesnt understand but that day he did. He just held me and that is what I truly need.
Today is cd24 or 25 and I think I am 7dpo. My temp dropped and I am so hoping it is implantation and not AF about to rear her ugly head!! :evil: I think if everyone I know around me would quit getting pregnant I would be ok. It just really pees me off when I see so many of dh's brothers girlfriends or wife's getting pg and don't even want anymore.
I know we are not suppose to ask God why but there are days where I just can't understand. Right now though I am believing Isaiah 40:31. Tonight on the way home I justed wanted to tell dh to be extremely nice to me bc this week would either bring joy or sadness for me!! It hurts so much bc my sil's don't understand!! Ok I need to quit rambling!!