I'm addicted to POAS again. lol I started four days ago. I should probably buy some stock in HPT companies so all the purchases I make can make me some money. lol
AF showed this morning. UGH.
I thought she was showing yesterday. I had cramps in the morning and just knew she was coming. When she didn't, I got a little excited. Guess I counted my chickens before they hatched so to speak because this morning first thing there she was.
So this is now cycle #22. I'm calling my doc on Tuesday for an appointment to set up testing. I'm tired of waiting.
Urgh. After my nice long (for me at least) cycle last month, I get a wonderful little 22 day cycle. I'm so sick of this crap.
Well today is CD25. I'm 11DPO. I haven't made it this far in a luteal phase in quite some time.
I'm taking more vitamins and supplements now while we go through the process with DH and his doctors. His testing should finish up this month (*fingers crossed*) so if by chance we aren't pg now (which I totally hope we are and a lot of signs are pointing that way) then we should have lots of answers as to what is going on really soon.
Well I made it to CD26 last cycle. That is good I suppose. I think the vitamins/supplements are working. My LP was 12 days which is a really long one for me.
So although I'm sad that I'm not pregnant, I'm happy that my cycles seem to be getting longer.
So I'm taking a few cycles off! I'm so tired of setting an alarm clock even on the weekends so that I take my temperature at the same time every damn day.
I'm tired of spending $$$$ for sticks to pee on so I can see when I'm O'ing so that my DH and I can schedule sex.
I'm sick of rushing to put that data into a chart so a computer can tell me when I'm O'ing.
So as of today, I'm boycotting all that stuff (except my vitamins since I have to take meds everyday for my allergies the vitamins aren't anything major) for a couple of cycles. I want to return to when DH and I had sex without me thinking "wonder if I'm O'ing".
Maybe it is because I have almost hit the 2 year mark. Maybe it is because I have been doing this junk for 26 cycles now. Whatever it is, I've hit my breaking point.
Today is CD 21. I'm 8 DPO (okay I couldn't resist POAS and took a couple of OPKs lol).
I'm so out of the loop as to where I am in my cycle, I had to look today at Fertility Friend. I didn't even realize it I was at CD 21.
DH wants me to get a HPT tomorrow. I probably will and then test on Friday morning when I'm 10 DPO.
The old hag that is.
I don't even need to temp to know that she is coming. I've been at this so long that I recognize the signs from my body.
On a positive note, I think the vitamins, etc were the reason for my extended LP last cycle. I started this cycle with them and then with all the hustle and bustle with two birthday parties, feuding in-laws (who are thankfully now divorced) and Christmas plans, I didn't take them as regularly as I should have and now it looks like I'll have a 9 or 10 day LP to show for it. I'm going back on them in the morning. Plus I've ordered FertilAid and prog. creme. So we will see how things go now.
Well I was right, the hag showed today. LP was 11 days this cycle. I'm making progress. I will take tomorrow and Tuesday off from my vitamins and then it is back to temping, supplements, POAS and charting.
I've decided to get back on the charting band wagon. lol
I feel so out of control when I don't do it. So it is back to POAS, taking my temp, and more vitamins than you could choke a horse on. lol
Let's see I take:
Multi-Vitamin - Women's Formula
Later today or tomorrow (after I go to the store lol) I will be adding:
You go woman! I'm starting my vitamins up again too!
Oh, and watch it on the Valerian root. It has muscle relaxing properties and is used as a sleep aide. So, maybe take it before bed. I drink it in a tea before bedtime every night.
Is your Valerian in a powder form or do you break open the capsule?
GL to you too!
I buy it in tea bags:
I also love this Yogi tea. It's sweetened with Stevia and contains Valerian root.
Bobbie, thanks so much for the advice about the teas. There aren't any stores near me that sell them, but I can order direct from the makers and I'm going to do that.
Okay for my records and so I have it all in place (rather than dragging out my big bag everytime I need to know) here is a master list of everything I'm taking:
Fish Oil - 1200mg
Valerian Root - 400mg (at night)
B-6 - 50mg
Super B Complex & C
[INDENT]Vitamin C - 150mg
Thiamin (B-1) - 100mg
Riboflavin (B-2) - 20mg
B-6 - 2mg
Niacin - 25mg
Folic Acid - 400mcg
B-12 - 15mcg
Biotin - 5mcg
d-Calcium pantothenate - 5.5mcg[/INDENT]
Vitamin C - 500mg
Guaifenesin (Mucinex) - 600mg
FertilAid (3 capsules/day which total)
[INDENT]Vitamin A (as beta carotene) 4000iu
Vitamin C - 85mg
Vitamin D3.- 400iu
Vitamin E - 100iu
Riboflavin - 1.7mcg
Niacin - 20mg
Vitamin B6 - 2mg
Folic Acid - 600mcg
Vitamin B12 - 6mcg
d-Calcium pantothenate - 10mg
Iron - 18mg
Magnesium - 320mg
Zinc - 15mg
Selenium - 70mcg
Copper - 2mg
Herbal Blend 770mg[/INDENT]
[INDENT][INDENT]Red Clover Blossom Extract
Vitex (chaste tea berry)
Ginkgo biioba[/INDENT][/INDENT]Folic Acid - 400mcg
Flaxseed Oil - 1000mg
Black Cohosh - 540mg
Vitamin E - 400iu (2/day)
L-Carnitine - 250mg (2/day)
Co Q-10 - 200mg
Royal Jelly - 500mg
One A Day Women's
[INDENT]Vitamin A - 2500iu
Vitamin C - 60mg
Vitamin D - 400iu
Vitamin E - 30iu
Thiamin - 1.5mg
Riboflavin - 1.7mg
Niacin - 10mg
Vitamin B6 - 2mg
Folic Acid - 400mcg
Vitamin B12 - 6mcg
Pantothenic Acid - 5mg
Calcium - 450mg
Iron - 18mg
Zinc - 15mg[/INDENT]
You know after reading that list, I think I may cut back on some things since it seems like I am repeating a lot of things.
I had a friend tell me yesterday that her son was going to be an only child because they had tried for 6 months and not gotten pregnant. I found this strange and a little sad.
I found it strange because with her son, they had to use clomid and so she knew going into this TTC attempt that she was probably going to need the drug again. In fact her doctor had written her a prescription for it. So I found it strange that she would give up without ever taking the clomid and act like it just wasn't meant to be.
I found it sad because I have seen her son with other kids and like my DD, I think he would make a good older sibling. I remember how much fun it was to have a sibling and I want my DD to have that.
Yes, 6 months is a long time, but even now, after almost 2 YEARS, I can't imagine giving up. I want this too badly. My DH wants this too badly. Yes, there are some things that we won't do to get a baby, but right now, we haven't exhausted our options, and I'm not quiting until we have at least done that.
This past Wednesday, FF finally gave me crosshairs. On Thursday morning, it took them away. On Friday it gave them back with the same O date. This has definitely been a weird cycle.
Last night I woke up after having my first every c-section dream. lol
In my dream, I was pregnant with my third child and I went back to the hospital where I had my c/s with my DD. While at the hospital, I told them I wanted to attempt a VBAc and they told me I couldn't because my c/s with my second child, unbeknownst to me, had been botched by the local hospital here in town.
This dream is weird on many levels:
1. I was pregnant with our third full-term pregnancy and I've been struggling for almost 2 years to get pregnant with #2.
2. I evidently gave birth by scheduled c/s to my second child at our local hospital which quite frankly would never happen. I might unfortunately have to go there for an emergency, but I definitely wouldn't schedule any procedure on the level of childbirth for that place.
Hopefully me just being pregnant in my dream for a 3rd time is a sign that our struggle is almost over to have our second baby.
WOW, CD 25 and no sign of AF. I like this. Whether I'm pg or not, I gotta say I like this feeling. I think the herbs/vitamins are working pretty good.
My temps have been all over the place this cycle. I think part of the problem lies with my schedule this cycle and all the traveling I've been doing. The other part of the problem lies with the crazy weather we have had lately. One day it was 60 degrees. The next day it was below freezin and has stayed there for the past week. The final part lies with my poor DD's sleep problems. Lately she is up at all hours with bad dreams or because of her cold. Hopefully things even out soon.
I'm cutting back on some of the duplication of my supplements.
I'm now only going to take the following:
Super B Complex
Fertil Aid (but only until I O)
Women's Formula MultiVitamin
Cramps came this morning and then AF showed around 8am. The cramps were so bad they woke me up. Haven't had that problem in awhile.
I feel like something is working. My LP now averages 12 days with the last three being 12, 11 and 12. Plus my cycles are starting to even out. The last four have been 25, 24, 26 and 24. So I'm definitely happy about that.
My vitamins and herbs are starting to make me queasy. I hope this is a just a passing thing. I ate an apple this morning after it started and it seemed to help. Hopefully it won't last forever.
Also, I think either the Valerian Root or the Black Cohosh is making me not sleep well and giving me weird dreams. I'm going to skip the Valerian Root tonight and take the Black Cohosh and then reverse it tomorrow night to see if I notice any difference.
Stacey, sorry you are feeling yucky hun! B vitamins tend to make me feel like I'm going to :puke: too. Try taking them with food...something starchy, like a bowl of cereal. Also the B's give you energy, so don't take them right before bed. If I take them past noon, I can't sleep at night.
Any news on clomid?
Thanks for the suggestion Bobbie. I will definitely keep it in mind.
AF showed on Sunday the 17th. I'm okay with that though. We were both sick on and off this last cycle so if I had conceived, it would have been a miracle baby since we last had sex about 6 days before I O'd. lol
Anyway, on a positive note, my cycle was 24 days. My LP was 11 days. I like those numbers. I got pg with Dani with numbers like that. Plus, according to fertility friend, my average cycle length is now 24 days and my average LP is 12 days. So things are doing better.
I've rearranged my vitamins and while I'm taking less pills, I'm taking about the same amounts as before. I have switched to taking Fertil-Aid because it contains everything I was taking before in one pill that I take 3 times a day. I like that much better than 20+ pills once a day. I'm also continuing to take a multi vitamin, B-Complex, B-6, Vit E, Vit C and my Allegra D because I can't get away with not breathing. lmao
I took my ticker out of my siggy because it was just making me sad. I can only take so much of seeing it say Cycle X of X Cycles.
Well I don't know what is going on with my body. lol
I took a HPT last night because well, I'm addicted to POAS. There was a distinct faint pink second line. So, I took another one - same brand - and got the same result within two minutes.
I tested again this morning with FMU and did two tests (I used test strips so I technically peed into a cup. lol). Anyway, one had the same result as last night. The other was a BFN.
ARGH!!!! I'm going out at lunch and buying two digital tests. This back and forth is killing me.
Well it turns out that the old saying "a line, is a line, is a line" is true:
First appointment was today. I'm measuring around 5 weeks.
Had first u/s today too. We saw the sac and the yolk. Too early for a heartbeat.
I go back on April the 8th for a follow-up u/s and on April 22nd for my next appt.
I guess I need to move this journal since my journey is over. I am ever so thankful for my friends who encouraged me to start this journal and for their support over these last long and trying month. :bighug:
Just for my records and to make a post to keep this from getting pruned, my pregnancy journal is found here: http://www.pregnancy.org/bulletinboards/showthread.php?t=376430