Steph's TTC Journey ~ After 2 miscarriages(Pg ment)
I'm going to go ahead and give this a shot.
I'm Steph and I'm 23 years old. I live in Ohio with my wonderful DH. We have been married since June of 2004. I wanted to start TTC right afer we got married, but DH wasn't ready. I had gotten off BCP's in December 2004 just so it could get out of my system- we just used protection until he told me he was ready. He finally felt ready in June of 2005. Although, I hadn't had AF since getting off BCPs, so I made an appointment in July of 2005 to figure out what was going on with that. The doc did all sorts of blood tests and everything came back fine. She said that I was just irregular. I'm not sure what she tested for, but she said that we would do provera to bring on AF and then do Clomid 50mg.
Started clomid on August 1st. I temped that month and found I didn't O. I had my progesterone checked and it was .51 - defiantly didn't O.
I had to be put on provera again to bring on AF. Started a new cycle on Sept 30 - this time on 100mg of clomid. I actually O'd this month on CD22! My prog on CD21 was 1.09, but that was the day before o'ing. My doc actually wanted to up the clomid dose to 150mg but I showed her my chart and agreed that I did O so we'd do the 100mg again. I was relieved. I started a new cycle on Nov 6. I O'd on CD15 this time!! Yay! My prog was 17.89 @ 6dpo!! On 13dpo(CD28 ), I tested and got a BFP!!!!! It was very faint, but hey, a line is a line!!! On CD35, I began to bleed I went to the ER because it was on a Saturday and the doc wasn't in. They diagnosed me with a "threatened miscarriage." That was the worst day ever! We were there for 4 hours and they just left you in a room not knowing what was going on. They took all sorts of blood - testing my beta and such. My beta was 12 when I was 5 wks 2 days The good thing was that we were leaving in 2 days to go on a cruise! That is defiantly what we needed!! You would think that going on vacation would get my mind off it...right??...WRONG! The day we stepped on the boat, my doc calls and said I needed a Rhogam shot....NOW. She said that she ordered my records from the hospital and saw that I'm RH negative, so I have to have this shot to prevent my body from rejecting another pregnancy. I started freaking out. I was supposed to have this within 72 hours of bleeding. That day was Monday and we wouldn't be on land until Wednesday(Key West, FL). That was too late, but my doc said go ahead and get the shot and it might work. She said that if I knew my DH was a negative blood type, then it wouldn't matter, but he had no idea what he was. When we got to Key West, it was a nightmare! We didn't know our way around and we went place to place seeing if they had this medicine. I was finally directed to the ER to get it. It was a very very long wait. We were worried that we'd miss our ship since we had to be back by a certain time. We finally met a nice nurse and she got us through and I got the shot. We barely made it back to the ship before it left! After that mess, it was a good trip. When I got back from vacation, I was very anxious to start TTC again - which was surprising. I guess I was just looking forward to getting pg again instead of dwelling on the miscarriage. AF never came for me so I called the doc and she prescribed me provera again. On Jan 22, 06, AF came and I took 100mg of clomid. I never o'd that month. Had to take provera again. Started a new cycle on Mar 1 with 100mg again. I O'd on CD16. My prog on CD21 was 14.13(5dpo). At least I was finally o'ing again!!! Af came though on March 31. Took 100mg again and O'd on CD18. My prog was 11.26 @ 3dpo. On CD34(16dpo) I got 4 BLAZING BFP's!!!! I was sooo excited. There were sooo dark and came up within 30 seconds! Last time they were so light. I felt so different this time-- I had nausea and I was so tired. I went to my first appt at 5 wks, 5 days and they took blood. They also ran a urine pg test - it came out negative!! I couldn't believe it. I wanted to cry, and I did when I went to the car. The doc said they'd call me when they got my beta back the next day and then they would do it again in 48 hours to see if it doubled. But I just knew that I was going to miscarry again. My bbs seemed to not hurt so much, didn't have as much nausea and I wasn't as tired. The next day, they called and said it was 41. I knew it should be higher than that for as far along I was. I took the day off work because i was so upset from the day before. I'm glad I did because I started bleeding that day. I called the doc and they had me come in. They took my beta again and it came back at 19. I expected that - but I was crushed. I thought in some way a miracle would happen and they would say it was like, 200 or something. She said that she wanted me to come back in about 2 wks and she'd do an ultrasound to make sure it was all out and to make sure the bleeding had stopped.
I went for the follow-up and everything looked fine on the u/s screen. She said it was completely clear in my uterus. It was kind of neat seeing the inside. Although, I thought the first time I had an u/s, there would be a baby in there I told her I wanted to do everything we could to rule stuff out on why this is happening. She said that we'd do some more blood work and check for clotting problems. And we'd do an HSG when AF shows again. So I'm just waiting on AF now...
Last edited by stephzac04; 12-24-2007 at 04:51 PM.
I'm kinda down today I talked to my sister last night and found out she is trying to get pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I am totally happy for her and hope she doesn't have problems. She already has a wonderful 2 yr old son and I love him to death. She is pushing 30 and I know she needs to get on it since she isn't getting any younger. But since she got pg so easily last time and had no problems, I fear that she will get pg again quick and have a baby before I'm even pg. She is 6 yrs older than me, so it would make more sense for her to have more children, but I have been through so much and it's hard to see someone close to you have another baby with no problems. Not that I want her to have problems!! This is just hard to explain. I guess I just wish I could get pg and have everything go well and then she would get pg. Then we could be pg together!
Another reason I feel so lost is because I'm in limbo right now. We can't even try this month and I'm not even going to O either. My body never O's without clomid. So that is annoying too. I have to wait so long, then get a script for Provera. It would be different if we were actually trying this month. Then I have been reading this book, "Preventing Miscarriage:The Good News," and it does make me feel better with all the success stories and such, but sometimes I just feel my doc isn't doing everything she can.
I'm feeling pretty good today. I'm still kinda hurt about my sister trying to get pg, but oh well. God will let happen what is supposed to happen. I'm getting excited to be near the end of this cycle. I will start taking provera in about 2 wks. Then once AF comes, I will get an HSG and do clomid again. I really hope the next one sticks!!
Feeling good today. Although, I'm getting all nervous about the HSG. I was reading all the things about it and I'm so worried they will say there is something wrong with my cervix. And you can get infections from doing it. I dunno, I know I'm reading into it to much.
And it's killing me not being able to try. I can't wait until this cycle is OVER!!! I got to the doc next Thursday so she can prescribe me Provera.
Well, I am totally pumped today! I'm going to an RE!!! My appt is July 10th!!!! I'm soooo excited! I'm tired of getting the run around with my OBGYN! She just brushes off the fact that I've had 2 m/c's and acts like it's no biggie!!! She thinks that just because "I'm young", that everything will be okay!!!!!! I was dying to ask her if SHE HAS EVER LOST A BABY!?!?!?!?!?!? It's like, HELLO, DO YOU THINK I'M JUST GONNA KEEP ON GETTING PREG AND THEN M/C'ING AND JUST HOPING ONE WILL STICK!!?!?!? NO! I want to find out what the heck is wrong. I mean, there is always a chance that nothing is wrong, but I think there is a good chance that something is out of wack!!! Anyway, I'm so excited about this. One of the girls on preg.org gave me her number so I like knowing this doc is good. Plus, when you do get pg, you get an u/s at 6.5 weeks so that would be reassuring to me to have one that early!!! My OBGYN waits until 9-11 wks! That is torture waiting that long...especially after having 2 losses.
HOLY COW!!! I can't believe it!! I actually O'd on my own!!!!!!!!!! I haven't o'd without clomid in like years!!!! I'm soooo excited about this. However, I get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow and now I have a chance of being pg. I just hope the procedure wouldn't mess anything up if I am. I know the pain killers and antibiotics say it's okay to take while pg, but I'm not sure about the gas that they are putting me out with. I really hope that it's okay, because I really need to get them out. I'm afraid that if I tell the Oral Surg. that I "might" be pg, they will freak out and cancel it. Well, I will be out for a few days since I'll probably be clunked out on the couch recovering!
I went to the RE yesterday and I'm totally pumped. I LOVE the new doc. He is so nice, knowledgable, and understanding. It's soooo nice to have someone actually listen to you!!! And I could ask anything and didn't feel rushed to get it over with.
First, we are hitting this a little more hardcore. When AF comes(if I'm not pg and I would be surprised if I was), I will do clomid 100mg again on CD3-7. Then do an HSG around CD7-10. He said he's not worried about my tubes being blocked, but wants to check my uterus shape. Then on CD13, I will have a follie scan. When my follies are ready, I will get a triggers shot to induce O. Then i will be on progesterone supps(vaginally ). I asked him why he "thought" I was m/c'ing, and he actually said it's probably a hormone problem and probably progesterone. He said that just b/c my CD21 prog level is okay, that it doesn't mean that a week or two later it just takes a nosedive. So he'll be watching that close. And when I do get pg, he will check my Hcg levels and make sure they double. Then I will get an u/s around 6.5-7 wks. I'm soooooo excited!!!!!!!!!! I feel so much better. He said he really doubts there is anything seriously wrong, especially since me and DH are young and there is no family background of problems. Plus, he said that since AF has always been messed up, there is a good chance of it just being a hormonal problem. Again, soooo excited!!! If AF is coming, then she should be here tomorrow!!
Hmmm......getting a bit nervous.....AF still isn't here and usually she shows up today in the AM. There is no sign of her either. I can't believe I'd be pregnant...that would just be craziness!!! I just hope that if I am, then all the wisdom teeth and drugs I took wouldn't hurt it. I'm just leaving it in God's hands. If she isn't here by the morning, I'm going POAS!!!
I can't NOT believe this. This is what I got Wednesday night!!!
Then on Thursday morning!!!!
I am just utterly surprised!!!!! Even if this doesn't end up good, I still got pregnant on my OWN! No clomid, not using OPKs, FM, or preseed!!!! I was just temping because I wanted to make sure I didn't O on my own before I started provera. And then I O'd on CD46!!!!!! I just am still shocked!!!
But now I'm scared!!! And worried.....and just nervous. I'm so afraid to have another m/c. That would make THREE. I had my blood drawn yesterday to see my beta and progesterone level. I still haven't heard back. I'm dying to know. Then I'll get it drawn tomorrow to see if it doubles.
I got my beta back from either 16dpo or 18dpo(not sure). It was 2,082!!! And my progesterone came back at 15.3. That is an okay number but my doc wanted me on progesterone supps just in case. So I'm on that, baby asprin, and my prenatal everyday. My first u/s is on July 27!!! I can't wait. I just hope and pray that everything goes well and this is a sticky baby!!!!