We have a date for the reversal!!!!!!!!!!!!! January 30th! I'm so excited and scared at the same time. I'm scared that the surgery won't go as planned and that they won't be able to restore fertility. We have agreed not to pursue any majorly invasive methods of TTC. We both decided that we would do the reversal and leave it to the powers that be. If this doesn't work it's going to be very sad. It's our only hope for conceiving.
My cycles are stabalized now at 25 days. I've been tracking and I seem to ovulate regularly on CD11 then AF visits 14DPO. That is a relief to have my body acting regularly again. It feels like half of our battle is won.
Well I should get busy. We have our pre-op appointment on the 26th so I'll post more after that!
I might get to become a mommy in 2006 or 2007!!!!!
I forgot to add yesterday that I have also started losing weight while i wait to be able to get pregnant. I started in November 2005 and have lost 11.5 pounds as of this morning! I've put my progress in my signature! It really feels like things are coming together for us.
I'm pretty bummed out right now. The doc's office called and rescheduled the vasectomy reversal from Jan 30th to Feb 15th. I think maybe it's because AF is supposed to be here in a few days, but this schedule change has really got me down for some reason. It feels like we're never going to reach the point where we can begin to TTC. I keep trying to give myself pep talks and to remember that everything happens for a reason, but it's hard to not feel a little funky with the just around the corner. I know that it's only 2 weeks further than the original date, but as you all know, 2 weeks can feel like a lifetime.
I guess maybe I should just view it as practice for TTC. I get to experience my first 2ww before it's even possible to get pregnant. How ironic is that? I suppose I should get used to all of this hurry up and wait stuff. Well, i feel better now that I put it all into perspective here in my journal. This is meant to get me ready for TTC. I can deal with that
Well, i'll update after the pre-op appointment which is now Feb 6th, if i have any new info at that point.
Well i don't really have anything new to report. The pre-op is Monday at 11:30am PST. I'm getting excited about that. I can't believe that in about 2 months time I can begin this journey whole-heartedly. I'm excited, scared, nervous, worried, happy, and a bunch of other emotions all at the same time. It's crazy.
I should get back to work, I'm just too distracted by thoughts of TTC to be able to really work.
Well we got the pre-op done. The doctor tried really hard to prepare us to be realistic in our expectaions. He spoke to us at length about our mental states going into this and tried to make sure we understood the statistics. I think that we both have a good outlook on this. Since we've both had children in previous relationships we don't really have our hopes and dreams pinned on conceiving a child. We really both feel that we should just make it possible and then let it happen if it will. Though I will do what i can to help make it happen!
We go in on the morning of Feb 15th at 6am. I'm so glad it's after Valentine's Day, so we can have a night of romance before the surgery, since the doc suggests no until a month after the surgery. They will take a sample of the fluid at the time of surgery, then they will do the next SA at 90 days post op. So only 1 week until the surgery!
I also got into a minor car accident on Friday night. I've never been in an accident before and it's really scary. It wasn't my fault, thank goodness, but the other driver didn't have insurance. It totally sucks because my car isn't horribly damaged, but it's messed up enough that I can't drive it. Hopefully we'll get it fixed up soon. The accident happened because the other driver was following too closely and not paying attention, so when i slowed down and signaled i was turning, they didn't realize and nearly rear-ended me, but decided at the last minute to pass me on my left side while I was trying to turn left. Nobody was hurt badly. I had my oldest son with me and he was scared but unhurt. And I could say the same for myself, scared but unhurt. All in all, it was scary, but the outcome was better than it could have been.
Well, the surgery is done! The doctor said that it went well and that things looked pretty good. We'll get results of how the fluid samples taken at surgery looked on monday 2/20/06 at our post op appointment. SO is doing really good so far, but the pain meds haven't begun to wear off yet. The surgery ended up being quite a bit less money than we expected because the center where we had it done quoted us for anesthesia, but the doctor just did local anesthetic, so we didn't have to pay the anesthesiologists fee! Guess we can put that money toward HPT's!
I'll update again after the post op, then will probably be fairly quiet for a while until we're able to start to BD.
1 day post-op. The pain has remained managable with the medication that the doc prescribed. SO is doing really good about staying down and not trying to do too much. I rather think that he is enjoying having me wait on him hand and foot. Which is ok because I'm enjoying the opportunity to take care of him. I feel bad, but I had to come to work today as I don't have enough time off accrued right now to take more days off.
I'm thinking about introducing myself on the TTC 0-12month board. I'm a little nervous about it because I'm not quite at the point of actually trying. Heck, I'm not even BD'ing for the next 4 weeks. But I did look at the calendar and noticed that I should be ovulating on or around March 18th, so there is a chance that it could happen right after our 4 weeks of waiting for it to heal. I know that the chance is very slim so soon after surgery and that it could take a while before he's got a good quality of sperm and that there's a chance he won't ever get good quality or quantity of spermeven after surgery. I'm trying to be realistic, but sometimes it's hard not to get dreamy and excited.
2 days post-op...the recovery is going well. The pain is nearly gone and is manageable with ibuprofen. We got him up and showered yesterday and got our first look at the wounds. I was a little by the swelling, even without gauze wrapped around his stuff, he was still walking like a cowboy after a long ride ! All in all, it looks pretty good though. I have to say that even if we never conceive a child I'm glad that we were able to get the reversal done. Having the vasectomy was something that SO never wanted done in the first place, but his ex convinced him to do it. So if nothing else, he feels whole again and I'm happy about that.
I did change the title of my journal today. I figured that we're not really in preparation mode for TTC anymore, we've actually, officially started the journey.
6 DPO (days post operation) We went to the see the doc yesterday and he said that all looks well. He was pleased with the ease with which he was able to perform the surgery and he stated that fluid samples he took look promising. He said that the fluid on one side was very clear, almost like water and that the fluid on the other side was murky. I guess the clear fluid indicates a good outcome. He stated that the side that murky also indicated that we should have positive results, I guess the only thing they don't like to see is when the fluid isn't liquidy at all, but more like cottage cheese. He said that all the fluid was very liquidy. We're pleased with that. We'll do an official SA around mid-May. That waiting is going to suck, but not nearly as bad as the waiting we have to do right now. It's been a week since we've had and we have 3 more weeks to go. It's torture.
Well it's been 2 weeks and 4 days since the surgery. The swelling and bruising are all gone and there are only moments of discomfort if he sneezes or sits wrong. It's getting harder and harder not to BD since he feels so good. We've never gone this long before so it's been difficult for us. We'll make it though! We're really interested in finding out the results of the surgery, so much so that we bought our own microscope and semen analysis kit. We won't be having an official SA until May, so this will give us a chance to hopefully be able to have a clue.
In other news, he took me to buy a ring last weekend! It's absolutely beautiful. I picked out a round .5 carat solitaire on a platinum band. I also picked out a really pretty band to go with it that has about 6 channel set diamonds in it. They weren't sold together as a set, but they look gorgeous together. We also picked out a really nice band for him. We don't really have a date set, we're kinda just planning on eloping some weekend soon. Since we've both been previously married we don't really see the point of having a full wedding, especially when we could use the money elsewhere.
I'm on CD1 right now. I know it's highly unlikely that I'd get pregnant on our first cycle, but I'll be ovulating right about the time that we're free to start BD'ing. It would be cool, but i'm not going to get my hopes up.