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    CD19 ~ Gyno. today.
    So I guess i'm caving in and starting a TTC journal. This month a year ago is when DH and I agreed we would start TTC. A whole year has gone by. I think I've cried every month when AF has showed her nasty self. Stupid hag. Anyway, we've TTC for a year. I went to the OB/GYN today and finally got my check up. Everything seemed A-OK to her. She still wants to check my Progesterone test which is always on CD21 (which is in 2 days) so I'm going on Monday to test for that as well as PCOS stuff, thyroid stuff, etc. I saw her mouth moving but I could only hear Charlie Brown's teacher voice coming out. Anyway, she said that since I've had 2 children and have the "ideal 28-day cycle" that she's thinking I'm fine. She wants DH to get a SA and check him out. So, he's going Wednesday. Finally, we're getting the ball rolling. She also said that our little mess up this month (I got a +OPK and forgot to BD that day and the next) was OK b/c we had BD the night before which was a great time to do it apparently. I'm NOT getting my hopes up though. I'm over that crap. A bunch of awesome ladies have agreed to test on the 15th which will be CD27 for me. I got a free HPT in the OPK kit, so I'll test then I guess but I'm already about 99% sure it's false after her little talk about the SA. This waiting BS is killing me. It seems to me like a put a lot on "hold" b/c we are TTC. I hate this! Anyway, Christmas is 19 days away -very cool - and so I hope the ladies testing this month all get +'s b/c that would be the best Christmas ever!
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    CD 22 ~Blood work today
    I did my progesterone, glucose, thyroid, etc blood work today. Piece of cake. So, 6 more days until we all test. I KNOW it's going to be BFN. I'm so bummed about this SA that Jeff has to do. I have felt so in control all this time and I have tried EVERYTHING to make myself better b/c I just normally blame myself for anything. So now that it may be DH, it's out of my hands and I hate that feeling. He goes on Wed. for his first urology visit which I'm sure he'll hate. I call on Thurs. to get my results from today. I hate waiting!! I hate getting my hopes up, too. It was so sad today b/c a TTC graduate had a miscarriage. I can not even attempt to understand how she feels DH is totally sick of me being on here. He calls preg.org my sorority and the people I talk to my sorority sisters. what ever. He says if I'm on here this much I need to get paid. Anyway...at least we're going in the right direction and trying to figure out what's wrong. It's either that or just rip each other's lips off b/c we're smothering each other!! Only 16 more days until Christmas -yippee!!!
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    CD 25 -no symptoms at all
    Jeff had his first urology visit yesterday and they gave him a cup. He has to bring his boys back on Monday and we can't BD after Friday. I have had a nagging cough for 5-6 days now and have not slept well since I got it. Other than that, I feel just fine and have no symptoms just like I knew I wouldn't. I try to stay positive, but I'm so scared that maybe we've been shooting blanks or something all this time So, I'm not optimistic at all this month. I would love for this to be everyone's present for Christmas!! But, instead they'll get my PMS I called to get my bloodwork results twice yesterday and no one called me back assholes. I'll just bug the crap out of them today! 13 more days 'til Christmas!!
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    CD 26 ~ BFN ~AF due in 3 days
    Why did I test early? What am I thinking? Why even test before AF is late? Why am I so impatient? And after knowing that something is up with the whole SA, why did I even have my hopes up? I hate this TTC and I'm sick of not getting preggers and the stress that comes with it. I do not want to deal with this anymore. There's too many other things to think about right now so maybe we need to take some time off for a while.
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    CD 6 ~Thurs. AF still here.
    Well, Jeff had his SA and it was awesome! So, now we're back to me again. I have the HSG scheduled for Monday at 2:30. The girls have no school so I think they're going to Jeff's Mom's house. They said no BD from now until then so Jeff's just going to have to deal with it. The cool part is that our fertile time will be around Christmas. I'm really hoping that there is something in those tubes that is blocking the "boys". And then the dye will just push whatever it is out and clear the way for those swimmers this month. I'm sick of wondering what our stupid problem is. I don't want to do Clomid or anything else. Kate and Abby leave on Christmas day and come home on the 3rd. I hate this! I don't want them to go and I'm dreading it all. School let's out for the holidays tomorrow so maybe we'll just get totally sick of each other and they'll be happy to get a break for a week! Ok, this is going to be our cycle damn it!
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    CD -who the hell knows? I think 9.
    Tomorrow is the hsg and DH is driving me fricking crazy and i've decided i don't want him to go. I want him to sleep on the couch tonight and get really bad constipation all night. I'm so sick of his fricking whining and complaining and nagging that i could puke.
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    CD 13 -Christmas was yesterday
    Well, I had the HSG done 3 days ago. We BD the next day and I'm sure today, too but it's only 8:30a.m. and Jeff's still sleeping. We leave tomorrow for Chateau Elan -a gift I gave Jeff. I hope he likes it! As for the HSG, that a.m. I did the grody ol CM test and sure enought it was egg white. damn it all. So, there's been no EW since then either so I think we missed our day. But, the tubes are cleaned out and we'll see next month since they told me there it's usually 0-3 months to get preggers. What ever. I"m pretty laid back now just cause I want to start working out again. Kate and Abby left yesterday and I cried so hard! I hate that they had to leave ON Christmas. Jeff's like"we have time alone" -what ever! My babies are gone on fricking Christmas dude! Then, sweet Kate called from her dumb dad's and said "we're leaving tonight for Texas" - a 12 hour drive!!!!!!!!! What if he falls asleep!!?!?!? So, i didn't sleep too well last night. Hopefully today will be better for me. Christmas was fun and we played Trivial Pursuit last night -my WORST game. But fun. I did not buy any OPK this month. I'm just not as into it as once before. I'm going to just BD when ever and see what happens b/c the obsessing is going to just kill me. I hate it. It'll be cool not being preggers on New Year's!
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    CD 17 and I'm bored....
    Kate and Abby are out of town and I miss them sooooooo much! DH and I like the alone time but only for a few days. I'm in kid withdrawl! Well, as for TTC, the CM is sticky, grody. So, I have a bad feeling and I don't really care this cycle too much for some reason! My gyno called and told me to start Clomid the next cycle -Jan. 13th I'll start -so I'll get all psyched up then. Apparently, we are making embryo's but my uterine lining is killing it/them off. Super. So, the Clomid's supposed to help make the lining more nutritious. Let's hope! New Year's is in a few days and we have nothing planned. Someone's at the door -bye!
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    HAPPY NEW YEAR! CD 19.
    Ok, only ten days to wait. New Year's Eve got OUT OF CONTROL in the Hood here. So, I have a little headache and DH has puked and not gotten out of bed yet and it's 2:00! ha ha ha. The good thing is we BD BEFORE we went out 'cause I knew Jeff can NOT handle alcohol at all so I was quite the planner. I picked up my Clomid and I'm all ready to go. This month I have not been excited. I guess I'm too tired of all the let-downs we've had for a year -12 times to be exact. it's only 6 (i'm guessing) DPO and no signs as usual. No spotting or anything. No sore BB's or anything. Just blah and my friendly headache. I think I'll be VERY excited next month b/c Clomid gives me a lot more hope! Ok, I'm going to go lay down.....Happy 2003! OH! We toasted to all my gals on the TTC 7+ board and to us, too!
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    HAPPY NEW YEAR! CD 19.
    Ok, only ten days to wait. New Year's Eve got OUT OF CONTROL in the Hood here. So, I have a little headache and DH has puked and not gotten out of bed yet and it's 2:00! ha ha ha. The good thing is we BD BEFORE we went out 'cause I knew Jeff can NOT handle alcohol at all so I was quite the planner. I picked up my Clomid and I'm all ready to go. This month I have not been excited. I guess I'm too tired of all the let-downs we've had for a year -12 times to be exact. it's only 6 (i'm guessing) DPO and no signs as usual. No spotting or anything. No sore BB's or anything. Just blah and my friendly headache. I think I'll be VERY excited next month b/c Clomid gives me a lot more hope! Ok, I'm going to go lay down.....Happy 2003! OH! We toasted to all my gals on the TTC 7+ board and to us, too!
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    CD25 -12 or 13 DPO
    Well, it's official. I flushed the Clomid down the toilet and told Jeff I want to do some "me" stuff and let's wait at least 6 months. I can't take the arguing about this anymore along with the fact that at times I feel like I already have 3 children. I need a break! 13 fricking months of this **** has worn thin and I'm gonna regain ME. Wish me luck! Oh, BTW, I had the HSG this cycle. Nothing is different, no symptoms, nothing. So, apparently HSG's aren't all they're cracked up to be.
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    CD 26.
    I tested today and it was BFN. I'm not sad and i'm not happy. I'm just in the "whatever happens happens" mode. This is the first time i've tested and not cried though! So, now onto bigger and better things and I need to get off my *** and away from this computer and get outside and have fun!
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    CD27 ~AF is RIGHT around the corner...
    Today Jeff was upset about us "waiting" and he said he's waited for this his whole life but there is nothing he can do b/c "it's your body" and he's mad I flushed the Clomid. That same second I was thinking "I'm glad I'm not pregnant" b/c I went running with the dogs on the 'beach' and I ran with my eyes closed towards the sun. Goofy I know-but it felt good to be out in the sun running again. I never did that before since that was too strenuous when TTC. The problem I have is that I had that damn HSG done this cycle which everyone thought would do the trick. I did NOT want to do it, did it, and it failed. That part bothers me. The rest...not so much. I don't know. I want a break from the stress and drama of TTC! I have ZERO symptoms except today I fell asleep in the doctor's waiting room with kate -ONLY b/c I went running earlier. Hurry up AF!
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    AF came 10pm on friday night -the 10th. So I think i'm on cd3 or 4
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    CD#26. No symptoms. No nothing.
    And, to top it all off, I took some damn Clomid. I have the worst PMS of my life! I am so stupid!! Took it CD 5-9. I have damn hot flashes at night too. BUT, I have worked out for a month straight and I can start to tell now. My clothes fit again! YIPPEE!
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    CD28 -still no symptoms.
    First off, I miss Jeff. I'm such a total woman! I don't want to be around him and when he leaves I'm the biggest baby and I want my baby back!! wah! I'm sad now that he's not here....but I'm painting the dining room while he's gone and I'm glad he'll be surprised.
    Ok, anyway, I've been doing these OPK little experiments the last few cycles. I'm writing this so I can remember for next month. About 12 DPO there is a medium colored line and the next day it's a little less dark and by the time it's 14 DPO it's almost not there. So don't forget next time! Stupid CM is just wet or sticky I guess but not a lot at all. C is low and I guess hard.....UGH! I hate TTC! Just hurry up baby and come on!! This trying is too tedious. Why do people who don't want to be preggers get PG w/o even trying?? Idiots. Meanwhile we try and try and drive each other insane and still nothing. I hope my gyno. just ups the Clomid and this next cycle -OUR 15TH CYCLE -will be it! I'm getting really fricking tired of trying! Can you tell i'm tired? Ok, I'll go relax now. Jeff's on the phone! Yippee -he's landed! Thank God!
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    CD 1 -Feb. 8th
    Ok, Clomid did not work this round but I am actually going to get all excited and think that this is going to be THE month to get preggers. I don't have cramps today but I had a few slight ones off and on in the car yesterday. I've heard that everyone gets preggers their 2nd round of Clomy, so this is going to be it! The girls are having friends spend the night tonight and Jeff's still in Chicago, so i'm going to stay busy. Hope AF is gone by Valentine's!
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    CD # 6 -on my 4th pill of Clomid -2nd Cy.
    CYCLE #15
    I've taken my clomid and the doctor won't up the dosage b/c my progesterone was so high (32) so we just have to BD like crazy I guess. There's nothing left to try. I've been working out like a crazy woman. I can tell I've lost a lot but the #s on the scale are the same. We can totally tell in my gut and my arms/shoulders. Nothing new right now -nice and quiet and tomorrow is Valentine's Day. I hope we're not exchanging gifts!!!!
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    CD #7 -took last Clomid today. It's Valentine's DAY. I got 2 dozen roses from Jeff. That was very sweet. I just can't stand today and can't wait for it to be over! Kate has a game tonight which is fun and Abby has strep throat today and no school. I'm bored beyond belief mentally/emotionally/physically -who knew we'd end up like this? If we get in ONE more argument I think I will finally BLOW!!!!!!!
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    CD10 -Monday -no more Clomid
    We actually had a good weekend together! It was good getting out with no kids and being stupid together. We went to Buckhead, a Thrashers game, Little 5 Points, and other CRAZY places! We BD Friday, Saturday and Sunday and it's not even time -GO FIGURE!!!!!! Now the girls have no school today and I'm getting ready to fax off resumes. TA ta. The BD Marathon begins tomorrow!
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    CD#12 -BD Marathon begins TODAY
    WE BD'd 4 days in a row and didn't yesterday -I fell asleep-so it starts today. I just found out our neighbor is having TWINS -wowzers! Nothing new around here -just wish us luck!
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    STILL CD#12 -WE BD already! WOW.
    Now, we just have to BD for the next 4 days straight and we're set. Lord help us! And come on Clomid-do your trick!!!!
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    CD #13 -Thursday -LET THIS BE OUR MONTH!
    I'm excited b/c I think we can do it this month with Clomid's help! Yesterday the c was high and open and that was right after BD, so I'm hoping that is good. We'll BD again today and tomorrow and the weekend, too. I hope. I need to drink lots of coffee so I don't fricking fall asleep again!!
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    CD#14 -Friday- We BD yesterday and the CM was really "wet" but no EW. No EW today either -just "wet" again. hmmmm. The funny thing was DH was tired and yawning and complaining -now that's a switch! He was wide awake after though! hahahha. Anyway, just 3 more days straight and we can fricking take a break. Man, I just ate some eggs and I gagged! They were the greasiest, nastiest eggs ever. I can still taste them. I'm seriously getting shivers over those nasty *** eggs. Ok, I need to go brush my teeth.
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    CD #15 -"O" DAY!! Lots of EWCM
    If we BD one more day we will FREAK! We have BD EVERY DAY and it was so funny b/c last night we BOTH did not want to but we did....and we have to tonight and tomorrow, too. Wish us lots of luck and stamina
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    CD #16 -NO HE DID NOT! We didn't BD yesterday! ****. And -of all the damn days -it was EWCM. WTF? I told him and then asked him and everything-he knew! AND WATCHED TV INSTEAD. Mother of all that is holy -if we did all this damn BD every single fricking day for nothing......I'm so pissed off. Of course, I fell asleep. Just b/c I was sick of waiting around. And the EWCM did not stay the whole day either. By early evening it was gone. Go figure. I GUESS we'll BD today just in case. Damn it all! BD is feeling more like a chore. I'd rather do laundry. UGH!
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    CD #16 -STILL. I have a cold. I'm feeling nasty. Abby got a nail stuck in her foot -it FREAKED her and Kate out and I pulled it out. nasty. Anyway, I don't much feel like BD. I REALLY don't want to b/c I'm soooooo blah. Eating lots of birthday cake and brownies has not helped either. Anyway, I don't think this is going to be our month since we missed yesterday and prob. today. DAMN IT ALL.
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    CD 17 -The marathon is OVER!
    We DID end up BD yesterday. So, since AF ended, we have BD 8 times in 10 days. I think we may have covered all of our bases this month! YIPPEE! We did no BD on CD11 or CD15. Hopefully that won't matter. I feel like ***. My nose is all stopped up and my head hurts. WAAAHHHH....cry me a river. I'm glad today we can relax Abby's foot is ok but she's still going to dr. today to make sure
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    CD #18 - 3 DPO - Tuesday
    Yesterday was Kate's birthday and I took her out for a huge sundae and then at home she stuck her face in her cake! ha ha ha! Very funny and she was in the best mood, too! I have a cold and took NyQuil last night and went to bed at 8:00pm. Feels good to get LOTS of sleep -I even took a 2 hour nap during the day. I have been eating like a cow, though. Stupid brownies and b'day cake. I need to work out 4 days straight to get back on track. I HAVE TO FIND A FULL TIME JOB! That's my goal this week. We need the $. I need to get out of the house! TTFN.
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    CD #19....going sooooo slow. 4 DPO.
    Filled out tons of applications yesterday and i have another interview tomorrow. I can't stop eating fricking chocolate! At least I haven't given up the gym. Nothing new really -just bored and tired still. I took NyQuil again last night and I was sooooo sleepy all day -took another fricking nap! I'm turning into a sloth. OH! I forgot to say that I have had cramps on and off all day and that I think I "o"ed for sure cause I had pains on my right side. I want to see if next month it happens on the left....very interesting.

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    CD #21 -Had Progesterone drawn today and I told them to do a preggers test, too.
    The Dr. said she does it starting at 5 DPO, so that's cool. I think I'm 7 DPO but don't know since I didn't do OPK's this month. I find out today if I get the job I interviewed for yesterday and I really really REALLY want it! I'll know more around noon. Tomorrow we're celebrating Mom's b'day and I WILL eat lobster -it's been toooooo long.
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    CD21 still -one of my best friends just e-mailed me in a panic saying she took a hpt at work and it's positive! I started crying but I'm still so happy for her! It's just so hard to hear sometimes. She has a BEAUTIFUL little girl who is turning 2 this weekend and she's in shock! So am I! I hope i'm in the same boat as her when the results come back on Monday!
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    CD 23 -NO SYMPTOMS AS USUAL.
    I'm so tired of TTC. I'm so sad about all of the heartbreaks that come along with it. I REALLY tried to stay positive this cycle-i honestly did! We did EVERYTHING right, too, which is good b/c I know we're trying and we're doing exactly what we should. And still, with fricking Clomid's help, we are not pregnant. I don't want to keep trying just to be let down again and again. And to have my friend suddenly -just in ONE time having sex -get pregnant is so sad to me b/c she does NOT want to be preggers. I'm not jealous and I am happy for her b/c I know she'll come around and eventually be happy she's preggers. It's just that why can't we? Why is it soooo damn hard for us when we try so hard?? It just makes me sad. Thank God for Kate and Abby!! Ok, I need to go get ready for church. I find out tomorrow what the pregnancy test (blood work) from the lab is. I'm already sad b/c I know it will be a BFN
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    CD#24 I am DREADING the phone call today. I just KNOW KNOW KNOW that it is BFN. I'm just so mad/sad we can't do this and we want it so badly!!
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    CD24 still -It was Negative. And to top it off, my progesterone is the lowest it has ever been - 9.5. She said it looks like I never even ovulated but maybe I ovulated super early so I was on my way back down when I tested on CD21. Either way I'm not pregnant once again. I have to call when I get my period to find out what we do next. Will I ever stop crying? I took a walk with the dogs through the woods and was praying and crying and I came to the clearing and it was so beautiful. There were hundreds of daffodils everywhere -like a little gift from God to me saying don't give up. I picked about 30 of them and they're in a vase now. I know God has his plan but I'm sure having a hard time understanding it right now. The good news is that my Mom's heart results came back and they were GREAT! i cried when i found out -what a relief! I was sooo worried. That's a great 60th birthday present for her and us!
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    CD#25 -Ready to get this cycle over with. The nurse told me that if I actually did O early, that AF will be here early -so just a few more days. I don't know -the more that I think about it, the more I think I did O. I mean, I NEVER have gone a cycle without Oing. So, I must have just done it really early. But the fact remains that their bloodwork came back negative which just pisses me off! Why is this so damn frustrating and hard for us?? I just really do not understand this. Why can't we get pregnant? Even the Dr can't tell me. What is it? What's causing this BFN every month? I'm even taking fricking medication and it's not working! I did that damn HSG -which was NOT fun -and still nothing! That was 3 months ago and I walked out of there with the Dr. saying "most patients after having the HSG done are pregnant with in 3 months" asshole. Liar. I'm so pissed off! I'm pissed b/c I can't fix it! I'm so not in control which just sucks! And this clomid causes little cramps that feel like O pains and they annoy me! Like little reminders that say "you took Clomid and you are cramping from it and you're still not pregnant" I'm going to drive myself insane I think. I'm outta here.
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    CD#26 -I still took a hpt this a.m. which was sooooooooo a BFN. I knew it would be but just had to prove it to myself and waste a little money in the meantime. I think AF will be here early b/c my cramps are way too much today. I have to call DR. to get more clomy. It's so funny-someone told me spit kills sperm. UFB! Jeff just spits all over me practically! It's so gross, too. If this is what has been our problem this whole time I'll die laughing. I think I'm going to buy some evening primrose oil and some fertility blend. Why not -I've tried everything else!
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    STILL #26 -I don't think i have CM like other people do. I mean, I have to go looking for it! And years ago it wasn't like that. So I called the DR. and they think that's prob. what the damn problem is! GOOD GRIEF! Couldn't we have figured that out earlier assholes? Anyway, I have had PMS cramping all damn day -hurry up you stupid little AF. I find out Friday -2 days -what new meds for CM and how much more clomid. This is definately not "o" pain -it's cramps and they suck.
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    CD #27 -still no AF but no more cramps! I have NO symptoms, NO cramps anymore, NO NOTHING. I'm tired around 3ish, but I'm ALWAYS tired around 3ish. UGH! I just want her to come on already to start our 16th cycle. Waiting for her already KNOWING she's coming -that stupid *****! AF sucks hairy, pasty ones. The cool thing is by about 5pm yesterday my Clomid/PMS symptoms left -I could literally feeling ME come back! it was great -I was actually smiling and laughing!
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    CD#28 -She is not here this a.m. but she usually comes at night or in the a.m. tomorrow on CD29. I hate AF. You know, I prob. have started already b/c she loves to tease me. I think "hey -she's not gonna show!" and she's already there and I just don't know yet.
    OK, here is my plan of action: Get some Evening Primrose Oil, Up the dose of Clomid, see what the DR. can prescribe for CM, Try not to freak out anymore.
    The Dr's nurse is calling today to tell me about CM meds and how much more Clomid. GEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZ!
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    CD30 -I am officially LATE. Well, just typing that will now jinx it and she'll come. I just checked my cervix and it was high again and soft. It's just all so damn gross. Anyway, yesterday it was low and hard. I don't know what to think to be honest. I think it's the Clomid. And, if I even start to get my hopes up then I just jinx it as usual. PLUS, I had blood work as a BFN. I did a hpt on 11DPO which was a BFN. So.....I guess It's a stupid BFN. I know it's a BFN. I just don't understand why she's not here yet. I have NO symptoms. No sore BB's. No nausea. No nothing. What is up with my fricking body?!?!?! I'm so tired of this little game AF plays with me every month!!
    I JUST HAD A THOUGHT!! I KNOW she'll be here today b/c she ALWAYS comes on 15dpo which is today -it's b/c I ovulated later so she's coming later!! duh....

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    CD30 STILL -BFN again today. Ok, I had a few slight cramps off and on this a.m. and through out the day (we layed out today on the deck -it's only March 9th- coolies!!) but tonight they are major and not going away. That ***** is almost here.
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    CD#31 -AF IS HERE -CD #1 !!
    HERE GOES CYCLE 3 OF CLOMID 100mg...
    Well, she was here when I woke up at 5:30 this am. but was NO WHERE last night. Except for all of the stupid cramps last night I didn't know. She sure is tricky. I had cramps for like a week before she showed. I NEVER had even a twinge of sore BB's!! NO NAUSEA. No real tiredness other than around 3ish in the afternoons or a little in the a.m. -no symptoms at all as usual. Well, this starts our Evening Primrose Oil too. that was the longest cycle ever. I read that Clomid can increase cycle length and cause cramps the whole second 1/2 of your cycle. IDiot. So, do I now have a 16 day leuteal phase? Guess so....
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    CD#3 -Start 100 mg of clomid.
    Nothing to report. DH's nagging is on my last nerve but that's not new. Still looking for that magical job. Still wanting to do something new but have no clue what it is yet....
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    CD#5 -3rd day of Clomid. Almost killed hair lady yesterday. The horns are now out and quite pointy! I hate this stupid Clomid.
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    CD#8 and finished with damn clomid! AF only stayed five days though, so thanks clomid. Nothing new to report. I am so off my regular cycle/schedule, I guess I'll start the OPK's now. I hate Clomid.
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    CD#10 -started B6 today as well as grapefruit juice and my normal EPO and multi-vitamins. COME ON ALREADY! i've never taken so many pills in my life. Getting desperate over here......No side effects from Clomy lately. Once the last pill was taken my moods were MUCH better. No hot flashes in a few days either
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    CD 10 Still -I forgot to write my PLAN OF ATTACK for this month. Ok, last month we BD 8 times in 10 days. After about the 3rd day in a row it really lost it's luster. Not fun. So, this month is every other day until way after O. I do NOT plan to do my Progesterone this month simply b/c it costs $97 every time I do that stupid thing. I feel that if I get + OPK's then I'm good to go. I really hope this month is it. But, now with all of this war talk I'm wondering if this is a smart time to get PG. God Bless the USA and our Men and Women fighting for us!!
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    CD 10 Still -I forgot to write my PLAN OF ATTACK for this month. Ok, last month we BD 8 times in 10 days. After about the 3rd day in a row it really lost it's luster. Not fun. So, this month is every other day until way after O. I do NOT plan to do my Progesterone this month simply b/c it costs $97 every time I do that stupid thing. I feel that if I get + OPK's then I'm good to go. I really hope this month is it. But, now with all of this war talk I'm wondering if this is a smart time to get PG. God Bless the USA and our Men and Women fighting for us!!
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    CD#12 -Where is my stupid CM? Stupid Clomid! I'm hoping to get a + OPK today or tomorrow since it's the weekend! Still drinking grapefruit juice and B6 and EPO and bumping uglies every other day. We shall see......
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    CD#13-Saturday. CYCLE #16.
    It is early so I have not done an OPK yet, but so far they've all been negative. We BD last night and FINALLY there was more CM. it's about fricking time -that damn Clomid is so stupid. I don't understand how this will supposedly help me if it makes the CM go away. That's what I need in the first place! Also, no side effects here lately which I'm loving a lot! If I get a +OPK I'll write it down. So far we're still sticking to the every-other-day thing. I'm off to a Baby shower todya. eee gads.
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    I am sooo hurt right now! My DH has a friend that I think is total white trash and just worthless. She has caused many stupid arguments b/t us in the past. Well, I found out today she and her new hubby are PG. Well, I later found out DH knew! He has known for a while but didn't want to tell me b/c he said "I don't care she's PG -I'm not even excited for her" . I'm just pissed that he kept a secret from me. And the fact that she just tried a few times and it worked even though she's majorly old. And us-we're on our third round of damn Clomid. DAMN IT ALL.
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    CD#14 - I got + OPK today!!!
    Yeah, c'mon! DH was so sweet when we got up today. He said "It's like you -you hear someone stupid is PG and you don't care and that's how it was when she told me and I just could care less." LOVE IT! He does sound like me Poor guy, he wants to be preggers more than me sometimes! Well, We BD this a.m. and then later I found out the OPK is + so we're going at it again tonight YEA! Oh-I'm having little O pains on my right. Where were they last month?
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    CD#16 -2DPO. We BD on day 14, 15 and 16. Screw the every-other-day plan! Just covering all bases here. DH insists I lay there for 30 minutes-he won't let me up! it's so funny. He's really getting into this now and I love it! I think tomorrow we'll take a day off b/c it's getting a little unsexy now. It's like "we have to do this one more day!" and it's not really romantic like it was with the every other day thing. Anyway, we both agree we love EPO-there was way more CM this month once it kicked in. I guess I'll stop taking it today since it's after O time. The only thing that worries me is that I had HARDLY ANY O pain. i mean -like almost none. And I did before so what if I really didn't O? Even though I had + OPK? I'm such a dork. I have NO sore BB's like everyone else on Clomid. No cramps. Geez -I'd pay for some sore BB's!!
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    CD17-3dpo. Ok, this a.m. the CM was sticky and white, this afternoon is more white/clear and stretchy. So, wtf?!? I guess we'll BD again tonight? Who knows b/c DH has a hockey game tonight and won't get home til late. I've kind of had cramps this afternoon -could this be O pain? UGH -what if I'm Oing now? Good Grief...
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    STILL CD17 - tonight the cervix has lowered and is getting hard. I guess this BD marathon is over! I just read that one of our graduates just had her baby!!!! CONGRATS JESSICA!! This is so cool -it's so dang real now! I love it!!!
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    CD#18 -4DPO.
    Nothing new again. I'm feeling quite optomistic this month though! I think we did everything we could possibly do right. If it doesnt work this month then I am just throwing my hands up -no clue what to do next. I'm not going to do an IUI. I'll try the biopsy though to test my "non-nutritious" lining. I haven't worked out in about a week and I can tell. YUK.
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    CD #19-5 DPO
    Are my BB's sore? I don't think so -my mind is playing tricks for sure! I think it's cause I've been living in a bathing suit top. Nothing to report. DH just came downstairs and said we still need to "get busy' just in case -yeah right! He's pulling a "shana" . ha ha ha Um, let's see. CM is sticky but there's enough to show on TP. I swear my cervix has turned sideways or something. I dunno-I'm tired of thinking about this!
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    CD20 -6DPO (I was wrong, No sore BB's )-Ok, I KNOW i'm reading way too much into this! Last night DH and his BF and I went for a quick bite and I had waves of nausea. The last wave that came, my face got all hot and I thought "well, crap, I'm going to puke" and then it was gone. Who knows!!! I have no idea why that happened but it reminded me of when I was preggers with the little women. I told DH and he was like "huh". I don't think he got it. I haven't worked out but today I'm going to walk to Susan so I hope we walk farrrrrrrr to get this roll off my belly! ~Shana
    I am editing this b/c I had to share. I get these bouts of nausea -DH says I do EVERY month -and It just happened again after I ate some chicken nuggets. I swear I don't want to eat them ever again. I went walking and I am worn out! I know this happens to me all the time so I am writing this to remind myself next month so I don't get my hopes up!!
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    CD21 - 7DPO NO SYMPTOMS AT ALL.
    Last night we had some neighbors over and played poker/cards and had to drink if you lost. I lost. So I'm not really too in tune to my bod right at this second. I had positive thoughts about a BFP but today I don't. I'm starving though! I'm wanting red meat right now -what ever. DH said yesterday that he thinks I am PG. We shall see............
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    CD21 -Do I have sore BB's or is it all in my fricking head??!?!? What a stupid thing to keep thinking about but I keep thinking -OW. I think it's definitely in my head. I'm such a dork!! Ok, I'm testing in 5 days.....COME ON ALREADY BFP!!!!!
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    CD22 -NOTHING. I sometimes think I am nauseated but i'm just hungry DUH! Nothing to report except there's still a lot of CM but it's white. grody. I'm not concentrating well on anything. I walked into the wall yesterday and the day before that I walked into the mantel. WTF? I'm out of it!
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    CD 23- 9DPO-BFP!!! ~April Fools!
    Just tired this a.m. but I think it's cause I went to sleep at 10:30 and walked yesterday. I've been feeling so weak if I don't eat but I think I am -YET AGAIN -inventing symptoms. I just need to eat! Nothing at all going on here. We had a cold front come through but today it's supposed to get up to 70 and thurs. will be 80! Going with DH today to have his old knees looked at. Bye! EDIT to add: DH's knees are fine. I am sooooo frigging tired today -I'm like a wet noodle and I can't even sit up straight. I NEED A NAPPY POO!!

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    CD23 STILL
    BUT,I have EWCM -but it's not clear, it's more white/clear. IT definately stretches and is visible on the TP. Never had this before -what the crap?
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    CD24 -10 DPO No more CM and not tired anymore..........
    Cervix is mid-way I guess, still firm. Stupid cervix. Stupid TTC. Stupid CM! UGH -I'm so sick of all of this. I hate waiting just because I KNOW it's another BFN. I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    CD28-14DPO. I know I quit and yada yada yada, but I woke up at 3:30a.m. b/c of sore BB's!! And, they are sore off and on this a.m. -could it be?! Also, on the OPK yesterday (13dpo) it was darker than on 11dpo. ODD, b/c usually it gets lighter. I will do it again at 1pm today to see if it has gotten lighter. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK -i need it so badly!
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    14 dpo -got a hpt and it was negative. I quit. I'm not kidding-no more clomid, no more epo, no more anything -i quit.
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    April 10th -CD3 -Dr. Appt. Today
    Ok, I know yet again I said I quit. But I just can't -we want a little baby sooooo badly! I went to talk to the Dr. today about why Clomid didn't work, etc. and she said that she will NOW not do the Endo. Biopsy because the cure for that is Clomid. So, obviously that rules that out. She's wondering if I have Endometriosis so now she has taken me off of Clomid. She even said that after a while Clomid can cause cm to thicken which does the opposite affect and can clog things up. So, I now am going to do a Laprascopy and another HSg while we're at it to clear things out again. This will be at the end of the month. If, after the Lap, I do not get pregnant (after a few months) then we'll go to the Specialists and do the IUI. PLEASE let this work. She said right before the LAP they will do a blood pregnancy test -I wish so badly it would be positive and that would be the end of TTC! This month NO Clomid. Now it's all on us........please anyone say some prayers for us -we need them badly!!
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    CD #6 and AF STILL here....I guess since no Clomid that AF stays longer again. Darn. Nothing to report except I started the EPO and B6 again last night. I know I said I wouldn't but I guess I will. UGh. TTC is so stressing!
    **SABBY -I'm so sorry I wish I could make things all better -you still da bomb!
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    CD10 -Still have not BD. Oh well. Anyway, I've decided against the Lap right now. It's just too "what if" for me. I have no signs of Endo. and no symptoms-it's just a guess. I really am not in the mood to do yet another procedure. I think we'll just take our chances for a bit.

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    CD #19-5 DPO
    Are my BB's sore? I don't think so -my mind is playing tricks for sure! I think it's cause I've been living in a bathing suit top. Nothing to report. DH just came downstairs and said we still need to "get busy' just in case -yeah right! He's pulling a "shana" . ha ha ha Um, let's see. CM is sticky but there's enough to show on TP. I swear my cervix has turned sideways or something. I dunno-I'm tired of thinking about this!
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    CD20 -6DPO (I was wrong, No sore BB's )-Ok, I KNOW i'm reading way too much into this! Last night DH and his BF and I went for a quick bite and I had waves of nausea. The last wave that came, my face got all hot and I thought "well, crap, I'm going to puke" and then it was gone. Who knows!!! I have no idea why that happened but it reminded me of when I was preggers with the little women. I told DH and he was like "huh". I don't think he got it. I haven't worked out but today I'm going to walk to Susan so I hope we walk farrrrrrrr to get this roll off my belly! ~Shana
    I am editing this b/c I had to share. I get these bouts of nausea -DH says I do EVERY month -and It just happened again after I ate some chicken nuggets. I swear I don't want to eat them ever again. I went walking and I am worn out! I know this happens to me all the time so I am writing this to remind myself next month so I don't get my hopes up!!
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    CD21 - 7DPO NO SYMPTOMS AT ALL.
    Last night we had some neighbors over and played poker/cards and had to drink if you lost. I lost. So I'm not really too in tune to my bod right at this second. I had positive thoughts about a BFP but today I don't. I'm starving though! I'm wanting red meat right now -what ever. DH said yesterday that he thinks I am PG. We shall see............
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    CD21 -Do I have sore BB's or is it all in my fricking head??!?!? What a stupid thing to keep thinking about but I keep thinking -OW. I think it's definitely in my head. I'm such a dork!! Ok, I'm testing in 5 days.....COME ON ALREADY BFP!!!!!
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    CD22 -NOTHING. I sometimes think I am nauseated but i'm just hungry DUH! Nothing to report except there's still a lot of CM but it's white. grody. I'm not concentrating well on anything. I walked into the wall yesterday and the day before that I walked into the mantel. WTF? I'm out of it!
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    CD 23- 9DPO-BFP!!! ~April Fools!
    Just tired this a.m. but I think it's cause I went to sleep at 10:30 and walked yesterday. I've been feeling so weak if I don't eat but I think I am -YET AGAIN -inventing symptoms. I just need to eat! Nothing at all going on here. We had a cold front come through but today it's supposed to get up to 70 and thurs. will be 80! Going with DH today to have his old knees looked at. Bye! EDIT to add: DH's knees are fine. I am sooooo frigging tired today -I'm like a wet noodle and I can't even sit up straight. I NEED A NAPPY POO!!

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    CD23 STILL
    BUT,I have EWCM -but it's not clear, it's more white/clear. IT definately stretches and is visible on the TP. Never had this before -what the crap?
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    CD24 -10 DPO No more CM and not tired anymore..........
    Cervix is mid-way I guess, still firm. Stupid cervix. Stupid TTC. Stupid CM! UGH -I'm so sick of all of this. I hate waiting just because I KNOW it's another BFN. I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    CD 25 -11dpo - BFN.
    I quit.
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    CD28-14DPO. I know I quit and yada yada yada, but I woke up at 3:30a.m. b/c of sore BB's!! And, they are sore off and on this a.m. -could it be?! Also, on the OPK yesterday (13dpo) it was darker than on 11dpo. ODD, b/c usually it gets lighter. I will do it again at 1pm today to see if it has gotten lighter. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK -i need it so badly!
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    14 dpo -got a hpt and it was negative. I quit. I'm not kidding-no more clomid, no more epo, no more anything -i quit.
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    April 10th -CD3 -Dr. Appt. Today
    Ok, I know yet again I said I quit. But I just can't -we want a little baby sooooo badly! I went to talk to the Dr. today about why Clomid didn't work, etc. and she said that she will NOW not do the Endo. Biopsy because the cure for that is Clomid. So, obviously that rules that out. She's wondering if I have Endometriosis so now she has taken me off of Clomid. She even said that after a while Clomid can cause cm to thicken which does the opposite affect and can clog things up. So, I now am going to do a Laprascopy and another HSg while we're at it to clear things out again. This will be at the end of the month. If, after the Lap, I do not get pregnant (after a few months) then we'll go to the Specialists and do the IUI. PLEASE let this work. She said right before the LAP they will do a blood pregnancy test -I wish so badly it would be positive and that would be the end of TTC! This month NO Clomid. Now it's all on us........please anyone say some prayers for us -we need them badly!!
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    CD #6 and AF STILL here....I guess since no Clomid that AF stays longer again. Darn. Nothing to report except I started the EPO and B6 again last night. I know I said I wouldn't but I guess I will. UGh. TTC is so stressing!
    **SABBY -I'm so sorry I wish I could make things all better -you still da bomb!
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    CD10 -Still have not BD. Oh well. Anyway, I've decided against the Lap right now. It's just too "what if" for me. I have no signs of Endo. and no symptoms-it's just a guess. I really am not in the mood to do yet another procedure. I think we'll just take our chances for a bit.

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    CD15 - we have only BD ONCE! Well, twice, but they were both on CD12. Yeah, this is NOT our month for sure!! oh well, we needed a break anyway. I have no OPK's, no nothing this month and I really don't care. I'm kind of over this whole TTC now just b/c I think it's never going to happen anyway so why worry about it anymore? Oh well.

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    CD17 -who the crap knows anymore?! I know that this isn't our month but I'm liking the idea of NOT being PG in the summer time -too much fun going on to be tied down being preggers. Good time NOT to do the lap i'm thinking. I'm so bad.

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    Today is CD 22 which I had no clue about -I just counted on the calendar. I have no clue what the DPO are. I'm guessing maybe I O around day 15, so I'm probably around 7DPO. Who knows anymore? Music Midtown is in 4 days -yippee! I'm glad I won't be preggers for that!

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    CD27 -13 DPO =Yesterday and this a.m. I got a second FAINT line on the hpt. I'm in so much shock/confusion. My heart is happy but my head is telling it not to be b/c there must be something wrong with the test. Well, I went at 8:30 this a.m. to the Dr. and had my blood drawn. I will know sometime later today. I don't know what to think. About 20% of me thinks it means I'm preggers -80% of me thinks I'm not. Jeff is not talking about it b/c he doesn't want to get his hopes up. We looked up "False Positive's" on the net yesterday. It says it's very rare to get one. I do not know what to think! PLEASE let the blood work come back ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ +++++

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    It's Official! I'm Preggers!! We are sooooo happy! I can't concentrate on ANYTHING -my work has been drastically declining since the blood work results came back 2 days ago. After 2 faint BFP on CD 26 and 27 that were early -I hadn't missed AF yet -I decided to go have my blood drawn instead of waiting around. Sure enough, it was + and the # was 40 which she said was fine considering I haven't missed my AF yet. My first Dr's appointment is tomrrow! AFter my first tennis match! GEEZ! So, I thought I would write down for anyone who reads journals ( I loved reading Laura T's journal!) what I did this month. I did not do the Clomid -that was over 2 cycles ago. I did not do the EPO or the Grapefruit juice. I did actually get some OPK's and I got an almost positive on CD13 and major + on CD14 which I always do, so that was nothing different. WE BD on CD12, 14, 15 and 18. That's it! So, we did it before the +, on the day of the +, and the day after the +. Now, I have done it this way on tons of other cycles, but this time after BD, I fell asleep! I didn't get up 30 minutes later -I actually fell asleep! Maybe the troops needed time to swim or something. Maybe it was just that we were relaxed this month. I have no clue, but I am so grateful! Thank goodness I didn't agree to the Laparascopy! I knew I didn't have Endo. So, anyway, That's how we did it. I'm so excited! And to all my TTC 7+ buds -I love ya tons! WT -I'll be waiting for you Who's gonna help me terrorize the preg boards?? Good luck to everyone! Over and Out -Shana

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