Tara's TTC #3 - Page 4
I feel like this is never going to happen
I feel like I'm never gonna get pregnant or have another baby again
I want this so bad RIGHT NOW I'm to impatient to wait
I love my girls so much and I'm happy and blessed with what I have of course but I also want another one
there's no limit on love no matter how many children a person wants or haves
I hope this is my month I'd love to have a little firecracker but if not *sigh* I'll keep trying and hoping and praying for a miracle
our insurance sucks *** right now and we can't afford to do any more fertility meds or even see the RE again-thats why I hope it happens..........
CD # 19
score on free samples of pre-seed at the pharmacy!!
well it seems as though I've *hopefully* already Od
CM declining--however we will be BD again tonight with the pre-seed and maybe tomorrow too
I don't want to give up yet
oh and I also went to the $ store and bought 4 pregnancy test so I'm ready to go!!!
lets hope one of those tests is a positive
well I put a countdown in my ticker
did I say that already?
anyway I think its on a week til testing
I don't know if this is my month or not
I'll lean towards the not cause I just know how screwed up my reproductive organs are
anyway I think if this is not my month I'll try to chart and temp and all that crazy stuff
I'm just not the best at temping every morning because I don't get up at the same time every morning
nor do I want to wake up at 5:30 am every morning when I DON'T have to work
anyway we'll see
no symptoms other then slightly sore boobs early am but thats nothing new for me
well I'm pretty sure I'm getting ready to start
I have brown discharge today and cramping
I'm so sad
I was hoping for a miracle that just isn't gonna happen
I'm gonna keep on keeping on
I'll chart and temp and check and hopefully next month will be my month
I want so bad to have another one I just know its really hard for my Dh and I and we just don't have the money to go thru IVF again
and keep your chin up
it happened once before it can happen again
I don't know whats going on with this body
I haven't tested in 3-4 days no sense really last one was -
and besides I feel - about it any way
still no AF but then again no big surprise for me
*sigh* I'm gonna have to go back on provera AGAIN!!
yuck yuck and more yuck!!
this stupid ticker--it just restarted itself