Time to get serious.

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Time to get serious.

So recently, on the December BB I have realized that THIS is my last chance at a 2008 baby. It sort of hit me hard as I have had two chances already at a 2008 baby, March and October, both ending in m/c. I really want to have a 2008 baby, I can't imagine saying that my due date is 2009, I mean IT JUST TURNED 2008. It is too far off for me.

So, it's time to get serious. OPK's, charting, lots of BD-ing, even though I know that you are only supposed to do it every two days... What if you ovulate on a day in between!!!! Gonna do it everyday.

If I have a 28 day cycle (which I doubt I will) I will have one more shot at Decmeber. I seem to be having longer and longer cycles since my D+C in October 2007. It used to be 27 days like clockwork, now its 27, 32, then 33, then 36:eek: I want my 27 day cycles back!! More chances per year!!!

To top that off I am a late ovulater, around CD20. That only gives my about 10 chances a year!!

So frustrating.

All I know is I NEED a 2008 baby.

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I kind of want to quit after this cycle (if it doesn't work). I know this is only our 5th cycle trying after D+C but I am tired of trying and getting no where. Last night my husband said something like: it will happen when it wants to. I want it to happen NOW!!! Or three months ago even!!

It is just so frustrationg to know that I will one day get pregnant again but I am going to have to force my body to not become overly attached to it until after the u/s at 18-20 weeks. I don't want to be a wreck if I lose another one so late.

I guess thats all I can do to keep myself sane since my late loss (16 weeks). I mean who loses a baby at 16 weeks and doesn't get any answers as to why!!!!

I do believe that my body won't let me carry to full term again until I come to terms and accept the loss. I mean I accept it and all, I just wish I had some answers.

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Almost time to ovulate, hopefully. I really hope to ovulate next week and not in two weeks. Because then if it doesn't work out this cycle I would have one more chance at 2008. Two chances for December would be GREAT!

I really want a 2008 baby.

Stressing myself out to much over it I think.

It will happen.

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Purchased OPK's for the first time. I am not too sure when to start with them. My cycle length keeps varying but is getting longer and longer. I think if FF doesn't give me cross hair by CD 19, I will start using them then.

DH and i have vowed to DTD everyday. We have missed one day so far since AF left, let's hope we can keep up the trend.

I just wish TTC was easier, push a button, get a big baby tummy. I guess everything comes at the time it is due, lets hope its sooner than later for baby#2.

I really don't want to be a n old mom. I know 24 isn't OLD, but it is old enough. Once I hit 25, I want my life to be complete, accomplished and headed to the next step. I want everything in its place. I guess I still have a few more months after December 2008 then, but 2009 is just too far.

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Last night, DH said something sweet. All he said was "I will be so excited to see you pregnant again". I thought it was so cute.

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So, I thought I would be ovulating soon, well hoping, due to my temp. I did an OPK yesterday, negetive. Then today I felt something at my left ovary. We shall see what my temp does tomorrow.

Wait, wait, wait.

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It's not loooking like I will be ovulating on time. My temps are messed. Hopefully by next Wednesday, then it will be a December baby as opposed to a late Nov.

I really hope I concieve this month, DH is really optimistic and in to it this month, more than the previous months. I think the thought of 2009 scares us.

We were discussing names and finding out the sex last night, and we sort of came to the conclusion we won't find out this time and we will save naming the baby until a week or so before the due date. Typing that out now, makes me sort of feel that we are subconsciencly (sp) not fully bonding with the next one due to the late loss??? Hmm, now that's something to think of.

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My son is ill.:confused:

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Yesterday:
Positive OPK
EWCM
Cervix=HSO
BD twice!!
Yahoo
I am excited about this cycle!, just waiting on my temp tomorrow depening if I get to sleep tonight, my poor DS is sick Sad
Here's to the 2WW (with more BD-ing just incase), all I can do now is wait!!

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The OPK's are now negetive, so the wait is on!
My temp rose a little this morning.
I am planning on testing on the 23rd.
We shall see what happens.

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Well, I think I just NOW ovulated, this cycle is a bust.

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As I have posted before, I had a late loss (16weeks) in Oct. During my pregnancy, there were 3 others pregnant too, coincidentally, my three best friends. I was the last one due, now that all three babies have arrived, and with my upcoming EDD (23rd) I am feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. I feel like I will never get pregnant again. Yesterday I saw all three babies at the same time, for 11 hours!!! (b-day party). As soon as everyone left, I had a meltdown. I should be getting ready to have mine, if not already.

I know the past can't be changed, it just hurt even more yesterday. Especially since one the babies parents, I believe aren't fit to be parents (multiple reasons).

DH was cute and supportive during my meltdown, and I love him so much. We will get pregnant again one day.

One day...

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Anovulatory so far.
I am so frustrated with everything.

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So excited.9PDO

nausea
increased sense of smell
creamy CM
dip in temp at 7 DPO, followed by high temps now...

Can it get anymore exciting!!!
Testing tomorrow!!!!!!
(I tested on 6DPO, so bad, of course BFN)

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Tested on Tuesday, darn evap!

Tested today, BFN.

It is still early in the game. I am waiting until Monday to test if AF isn't here yet.

I really hope that I am pregnant, yay for 2008. But January is just one month away from December, but a whole YEAR away... it would make my son and the new baby 5 years apart in school, unless I go early into December.

There's the plan, if I get pregnant with an EDD of early January, I'm sqeezing him/her out in December!

Good luck to myself, not feeling it.

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Getting frustrated!

Since it is looking like I am not pregnant, I really want AF to show. Just to be able to move on with things. I know I om only 12DPO and my LP is usually 15, so there is still some hope left there.

I think I am more frustrated at the fact of my long cycles, I guess that is something I have to learn to accept.

I have accepted the fact now that I probably won't be having a 2008 baby, oh... but there is still hope!!

I will not give up!

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Oh and DH is being a dufus.

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Tested, BFN.

I just want my body to do something!! Either give me AF or give me a BFP!

DO SOMETHING!!

I am quite sad at the fact that the writing on my ticker is about to fall off.

So sad.

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16DPO
Haven't tested since Friday's BFN.
I am not too sure what to think with this cycle. I keep having cramps for the last 5 days, shouldn't AF be here by now if she was stopping by?
I read this thing about soy isoflavones... I might try it if I get AF this motnh but need to read a bit more about it first.

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FF recorrected my O date, I am now 10DPO. Feeling hopeful.

Here are the symptoms:
8DPO Brown Spotting
9DPO Temp Drop
10DPO Temp Rise!!!
Bloating, food cravings.

I am so looking forward to testing. Probably tomorrow.

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Haven't written here in awhile.
Tried Soy on CD 3-7- BAM! Ovulated on CD12!
Our BD-ing is great too as it was early in the cycle, we haven't gotten bored yet, lets hope that my O date doesn't change.
Yay Soy!

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My O date changed from CD 12 to CD 25 but it is Time to close this journal, I am pregnant!!! EDD Jan 29th, 2009!!!

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