I had a journal while we were TTC our first baby (DD now 13 months) here:
Here is our TTC story up to this point...
It took us 6 cycles to get our BFP with our DD. I had a smooth, uneventful pregnancy until I developed pre-eclampsia at 40 weeks and ended up being induced. After DD's birth, I went on the mini (progesterone-only) pill. I was hesitant to go back on hormone birth control because it caused some cycle issues when I had stopped them the first time around, but I really didn't want a surprise pregnancy when DD was still an infant & didn't trust BFing to prevent that from happening. So I continued using that until April (DD was 8 months old) then decided that I would be okay getting pg at that point & we stopped using any birth control (I also stopped BFing at that time for other reasons). I didn't get postpartum AF until JUNE. At that point, I was very ready to actively TTC, so I started using OPKs & we had no luck over the next 2 cycles. It also seemed as if I was having an issue with my luteal phase (the part after ovulation) again like I had when TTC the first time. So I started charting again to confirm this, and sure enough, my last 2 cycles have had 8 & 7 day LP's.
Now that DD's birthday has come and gone, I am getting very anxious. I'm more irritated about the cycle problems than anything because I don't think I could get pregnant even if we conceived because of my stupid LP. So I'm not sure what to do at this point. I've tried B6 in addition to a few herbal remedies to straighten out my cycle, but they haven't seemed to help in the slightest. I think the next step is to make an appointment with my OB (who is also an infertility specialist) to see if he thinks I should just wait it out or try some medication.
So that's the story I'm on CD3 of my 4th cycle TTC our second baby. I "normally" O around CD 20, so I have 2 1/2 weeks of WTO to go!
So...the bad part about having a popular OB is that he is always scheduled out reallllllly far. So that means he'll be no help this cycle, so I've decided to try something *new* to help this horrible LP of mine. After doing a lot of research, I'm going to give Vitex a shot. The downer is that it's really hard to find, so I had to order online. I'm a bit concerned that it'll totally wonk out this cycle since I'll be starting it in the middle, but we'll see! Really, it can't do much to make it worse. I've had a really crazy cycle already with hot flashes, sensitive nose, fatigue, cramping, etc.
DH is really getting anxious to have another baby all of the sudden. He says that he hasn't been putting in enough effort (true!) and that he is all business when it comes to BDing now LOL! When we were TTC our DD, I got pregnant the first month that he was "ready" (although we'd been TTC 6 months), so I can only dream of that happening again. He works really long hours & is exhausted most nights so its been tricky to get him to BD at the right times. I also have a tilted uterus supposedly, so apparently, certain positions are better than others
Anyway, I'm hoping this Vitex stuff works out for me and at least give me a 10+ day LP. I'd be thrilled with 11! I've heard average is 14, but the only time I've ever been 14 was when I was pregnant with DD.
So my Vitex came & I've been taking 3/day (400mg each) since probably CD10. I O'ed on CD20 (CD19 is normal for me) which is a day or two earlier than last cycle, so that is promising though I don't think the Vitex had anything to do with it; everything I read says it takes a few months for it to really affect your system. In addition to that, I'm taking 100 mg of B6 a day split into two seperate doses of 50mg (not sure if that matters at all). Add some natural progesterone cream during my 2ww + my prenatal...yikes!
I'm now 5 DPO, so I don't plan on seeing AF until Sunday or Monday...Wednesday if I'm lucky! We did OK as far as BD timing went...I would have liked to get one more in on CD19, but it just didn't work out But DD was conceived by BDing on O day & the following 3 days, so it *could* happen.
7 DPO...nothing too exciting to report. I have had some severe AF-like cramps the past 2 days, but nothing from her yet thank goodness. Otherwise, I feel oddly un-symptomatic. That is a *good* thing because that is how I was with DD, but I just can't let myself get excited at all because the disappointment is too hard.
I couldn't resist & did a HPT (IC) this morning & it was stark white. Of course, I didn't expect it to be +, but it would have been awesome. I will probably test tomorrow and every day until AF shows like I always do. Thank goodness for IC's!
The only other thing I can think of is that I had severe hot flashes all day yesterday & some on and off today. I've had them ever since I had DD, but since I started taking Vitex, they've been few and far between....so I'm not sure if I should read into them or not.
I caved and tested again - BFN But it is still early. I'm just thrilled to be having a longer LP than in the past. Last cycle was 7 days, so I'm already doing better than that! I'm promising myself that I won't be too sad about AF showing if she waits until at least Wednesday.
As far as preggo symptoms, just same old: lots of cramping, lightheadedness, tired, headaches that come and go, and hot flashes.
I think I will go pick up a good HPT like FRER later today so I can feel more confident in the answer I get tomorrow morning.
The awful witch showed I started spotting last night & I knew it was all over. I was really thinking this was it, especially after getting 2 very faint lines on HPTs yesterday...maybe I was seeing things, maybe I had a chemical pg, but either way...on to cycle 5 (month 6) At least I got my about 10 day LP...huge improvement over 7 days! Thanks Vitex/Progesterone/B6 (lol).
The only thing that makes this easier is my 14-month-old DD who came in and gave me extra cuddles this morning Every failed cycle when TTCing her was sooooo much harder than this; now I have one baby to be thankful for and remember that it will (most likely) happen eventually.
For now, I'm trying to refocus my efforts into finishing her first year photobook. I don't think I am going to temp this month...I have established a decent pattern, so I think I'm safe just doing OPKs. Wish me luck!
AF got really brutal yesterday afternoon. Heavy flow, super crampy, the works! Luckily, I feel a lot better today. I won't lie that I wonder if I was pregnant, but my body failed it. Guess I'll never know.
This part is the most boring! DH doesn't keep track of my cycles at ALL, and I haven't had the heart to tell him that AF showed yet (although he probably figures she has since I don't have any exciting news at this point). I'm wondering if I'll O around the same time this cycle or earlier??? We'll see.
Go figure, I stop journaling on here again and then I get my BFP just like last time.
Last cycle (#5 since TTC this baby) was a success!!! I don't know if I should thank my Vitex, Softcup, B-complex (switched to a B 100 Complex rather than just B6 this cycle), Preseed or none of the above. I had the same "signs" as last time I was pg which were pretty much NO signs other than minor headaches and dizziness. Way less symptoms than non-preggo cycles. Weird, huh?
I'm still having a hard time believing that I'm pg & the fact that I'm going to have two under two hasn't sunk in yet! But I hope so much that this is a healthy, sticky bean and that in July, I'll have a beautiful new baby (boy or girl, I don't care!!). It is going to be some adventure.