Well - I keep on coming over to this part of pg.org - so I think it's finally time for me to start my own journal.
Introductions first - I'm 30, my DH is 32 and we have been married for over two years, TTC for 16 months. At first I kind of had to pressure my DH into starting to try - at least going off BCP. He wanted to be married for 2 years before we had a baby (HA. Looking back on that time now... how innocent we were).
I had been on BCP for a long time (over 10 years) so I figured it would take a bit to get it out of my system, so when we didn't get a BFP in the first few months, I wasn't that worried. After 6 months, I started using OPKs.... and then... after a year, I went to my yearly checkup and basically freaked out.
Health-wise, I'm in great shape. My periods have alway been regular, I exercise 5 - 6 times a week, but I am overwieght. So - since that this the only thing 'wrong' with me - I started blaming that. "I'm so fat I can't that is the reason". Anyway - my doctor did a bunch of bloodwrk and tests, and the truth comes out.
Unexplained Infertility. See, all that bloodwork went fine. DHs SA came back 'normal'. So, now - we are working with an RE. Last cycle was my first time with using Clomid, and we didn't have success, so this cycle we are doing clomid again, but this time with IUI and a trigger.
So - things are just going GREAT here in Clomid land. My SEs this month have been much more severe than my first month - I had a headache for 4 days straight last week! Augh.
My FIL has been living with us for over 2 months now (long story, but he was living out of the country for 5 years, so doesn't have a house in the US - moved home on June 10th, is closing on his new house on Aug 1st, thank god). That is also adding some strain. It isn't like DH and I can just sit in the living room and talk about how I'm nervous about the IUI or anything... because he doesn't really want to share our TTC issues with everyone. Anyway - last night I went up to bed somewhat early, just to read. But I was hoping that my DH would follow - and we could talk a little (and I'm surprised he can't read my mind!?).
He did come up, and want to talk at 11 PM (sigh) and I sort of lost it. Started crying and everything. I just want this baby making stuff to be easy! I don't want to have to go in for 'transvaginal ultrasounds'! Yuck. Anyway - we talked about me just needing his support, and how things will probably calm down a bunch with my FIL moves out this weekend - but for now I'm sad (thank you, Clomid), and he understands.
In follie news, I did have the ultrasound this morning, and it was no biggie. They saw one big follie at 16.5 mm, and a few others at 12 mm. Now I have to go in everyday to check the progress, and when it hits 18mm, I'll do the trigger. And then the IUI the next 2 mornings after.
Well, this morning that big follie had grown to 19mm! The others are still at 12mm... but I'll be triggering tonight and going in for the first of 2 IUIs in the morning.
Of course, it can't be easy - my doctor's nurse just quit - so they don't have anyone in my office to do the procedure tomorrow. I have to drive into the Kennmore Square office - Boston rush hour traffic... that'll be fun. Plus - my manager is here from Chicago to mid-year reviews. He got here today (I was in late because of the U/S this morning), and then is here through Thursday - with me having IUIs at 10:30 both Weds and Thursday.
I decided to tell him everything I was going though - mostly to explain why I was going to the doctor so often - and he confided in me that he and his wife went through IVF. So that is good - at least he understands what this is all about.
I'll report back tomorrow about the IUI - wish me luck!
Not without a bit of drama, of course. I was stupid and didn't fill my trigger shot script in advance, and when I went into the office on Tuesday - I truly wasn't expecting to need to trigger on Tuesday night. I usually don't ovulate until CD16 or 17... but there was the big follie. At lunchtime I went to the drugstore - they didn't have Novum in stock. None of the CVSs in the area did either - or Walgreens or anywhere. Then the hormones started kicking in and I was FREAKING OUT.
I drove back to work, and started going down the list of CVS's nearby - and thankfully found one that had what I needed. Of course, when I went to pick it up, it needed my doctor to call the insurance company for them to cover it - and at this point it was 6 PM. So I just paid for it - $68 (could have been worse).
Aaron did the shot for me - I totally couldn't look.
Both days the IUI was a total non-event. I barely even felt it.. and Aaron and I had a blast hanging out together in the morning - he would go give his 'sample' and then we would go out to breakfast together... and just sit around and wait for my appointment.
So, now the 2ww begins! I'm visulazing the little guys in there - looking for the target - go get em!
Well - nothing much new to report. Now I'm just WAITING until I can test (which isn't until Aug 10th). The fun part is all of a sudden, Aaron is all excited too. He is pretty good about being non-emotional about things - leaving me to be the one whose is a little crazy. But he told me yesterday that he has been dreaming at night that we are pregnate - and all the fun things he'll do with the little guy! I just think that is too fun.
As for me - I don't feel any different since the trigger and IUIs. I know that some woman get pg symptoms from the trigger shot - but not me (at least not yet?). The one annoying thing is that I'm still having night time hot flashes from the Clomid - I must have been up 4 times last night. But, at least no more headaches.
Not much else to report - it's hot here, so I'm spending the weekend inside in the AC!
I feel weird. I know it is too early for any symptoms (4 DPO) - but I am super tired (well - that can be explained, stupid nighttime hot flashes), and I'm pretty down. I don't know why - I think a lot of it is our lack of alone time with my FIL living with us. Let's hope I feel better tonight - he is moving out as I type this!
So - I was wondering what the rest of you long term TTCers do to deal with the wait? I'm an avid knitter, and I have been amassing lots of yarn and baby patterns since before we even got married... when we started TTCing, I made a little baby blanket, expecting to be pregnant that month. Since that was 1 1/2 years ago - obviously that didn't happen.
When we started going to the RE, I decided to pick up my needles, and start making baby stuff. I'm going to store it all in a little basket... so it's ready when we finally have success. It's been helping - I've been able to get excited about making the little things - but also awkward - when people ask what I'm knitting, I have to admit that it is for my yet to be conceived baby!
Oh well - that is work works for me - what about the rest of you???
OK - so I'm now all the way to 5 DPO (note scarcasm).... and my stomach has been hurting for 24 hours. What is the deal? I of course consulted Dr. Google, and it's way to early for pg symptoms... I guess it's an s/e of the HGC shot?
Sigh. I wish the next week would just FLY BY! The good news is that I'm going into NYC for work tomorrow, and then doing the Breast Cancer Three day walk this weekend - so I'll have something to keep my mind busy for most of this week.
I wish there was some way know right away that the IUI worked. Going crazy here!
Wow - after posting every day for a bit - it has been a long while! But like I said in my last post, I have been busy.
The trip to NYC ended up with us having to get 'rescued' from the train. I was on the Acela, which runs on electricity, and a big storm passed through, knocking all the power out. So didn't get home until after midnight, when I was expecting to get home by 7!
The Breast Cancer 3 day was SO much harder than I expected. I trained just like they told us to, but I guess nothing really prepares you for being on your feet walking for ten hours a day. But, I walked every single mile... so 22 miles on Friday, 19.3 on Saturday and 17.9 on Sunday. I'm pretty proud of myself!
As for TTC, I'm going on vacation tomorrow. AF is due on Friday... and my doc said I could test on Thursday. Here is the thing. Aaron won't be around until Thursday afternoon. He doesn't want me to test until he gets there - which would mean waiting until Friday. I thought I would be annoyed about it, but I'm both excited and scared to test.... so I guess it is ok.
I'm going to call in and pick up my Clomid for the next cycle just in case. I'm going to be on Nantucket from Weds - Sun, so just in case I get AF when I'm supposed to, I'll have it. I only have to pay a $10 co-pay... I bet that is the first time I hope that I'm throwing the $10 away!!!!
OK. Well, basically right after I posted my big quandry over when I should test, AF came. I thought I was OK with it, but then I called Aaron to tell him, and started crying. he was very sweet about it... saying not to worry, we'll get it to work...
But MAN. I thought we had covered every single base this month. Goes to show, us type A's can't just work harder and get prego!
The rest of my week was great - I went to Nantucket and had a little vacation - of course work called every day, so not much of a vacation. We did spend time on the beach, and watch a Boston Pops concert - and the dogs got a lot of play time - so good time was had by all.
I go into tomorrow to talk to my RE, I have my CD 11 ultrasound scheduled for Friday, and I think he is going to have me get and HCG this month - but I'll report back on that after tomorrow morning.
Now to go check on all your journals... see if we got any BFPs while I was gone!
Augh. I just wrote this big long post, and lost it.
Just got back from the RE - I really like this guy! He is so calm and understanding.
First, we talked about this past cycle - how I only had one big follie, and he said that of course more is better. My lining was at 7mm, which he felt was just on the good side of good (that makes sense, right?). He also looked at my DH's sample results - and the good news on the front was that he was very happy with those - even said the sample from the first IUI was 'off the charts'. Now, my DH is walking around all proud of himself.... lol.
The other thing that was concerning me is that we had planned to go away for the weekend, and now, I count out the days and see that CD11 is on Friday. If things go like last month, I would need to drive into Boston on Saturday morning for the ultrasound follie check, and then trigger that night, and then need to be back in Boston for the IUI on Sunday. My doc said that we wouldn't worry about all that. We'd do the check on Friday, and maybe Saturday if needed, and if I do the trigger on Saturday night, we would just BD on Sunday, and do the IUI on Monday. He said that the Monday IUI was the most important.
If this cycle doesn't work, then I will take next cycle off, and move onto injectables. But first - this afternoon, we will be doing an HSG...make sure everything is clear.