trying for #TWO ~ BFP 12-10

I figured I would start a journal to help me get some of these crazy emotions out.

We actually started trying for #2 in July/Aug of 06 & had a chemical pg the first cycle trying. After that we (actually my hubby) decided it would be better to wait until he was more stable with his job. Well that happened last month! He got not 1 but 2 promotions and starting 07 a nice fat raise. So right after he told me that news he also said lets have more babies!!! LOL
So that brings us to this cycle. We have had great timing but I'm not feeling very hopeful for some reason. I guess all symptoms have faded, AF really feels like she is breathing down my neck, and I had a slight temp drop this morning. Now I know its still early & that I shouldn't give up but today I really feel like this month isn't going to be our month. That's ok though, I should expect to get pg right away.....it wasn't all that easy with Nate so it probably won't happen right away the 2nd time right??? Well that's what I keep telling myself....
So here were are 8DPO CD27 & waiting for the witch to show her ugly face (I'd much rather her go hide for a while though)

CD 28 & 9 DPO, I feel crappy this am but Nate got me up at 4:45 so that could have something to do with it.
I really want to test but I keep talking myself into waiting until next week at least. Some days I really feel like I'm pg and some I don't....guess my mind can really play tricks on me.

CD 29 & 10DPO, GOD I want to test so bad! I had a great temp spike this am but I also had the same withe the last cycle we were trying & that was a chem so needless to say I'm worried. I'm going to probably test at 12 DPO but try my heardest not to get too excited if its positive. I'll feel a little better if I make it past 14 DPO. Once I do I will call the dr and start blood draws to make sure my #'s are rising nicely.
Today I feel tired like always, I was was feeling kinda sick thing am but I ate & feel better. Last night I felt kinda crampy. Hope this isn't all in my head.

CD30 & 11 DPO and BFN!!! Damnit I told myself not to test but I couldn't hold out. I was really hoping and NADDA! Stark white...I even pulled the test apart. Everyone keeps saying it's not over yet but I think it is, I think my temps are only high cause I'm coming down with something. I have been feeling crapy & hoping that it was early symptoms but now I think its a cold. FUN so I'll have a cold and AF will probably show her ugly face soon....FUN :roll:

CD 31 & 12DPO I had a huge dive in temps and started spotting this morning so AF will probably be in full force by this afternoon :( Man I really was hopeful, my chart was looking awsome & I was feeling lousy! Well I guess were onto the next cycle. Hopefully we'll have an Aug baby!

CD 1 ~ AF showed up this morning. I hate cramps! Onto Aug BB.

Nothing new & exciting going on, I'm on CD 3 and AF is still here. I have to run to the store this week & pick up some OPK's - I should really buy them online, there much cheaper that way. I was going to look into Vitex too but of course I keep putting off buying it. I'm tempted not to temp this month too - I haven't the past couple of days but I don't normally when I begin a cycle. It's just so stressful, espically when my chart looks so good! Who knows - I guess we'll just see how the next few days pan out.

CD 4 & AF is still here. I'm having a horrible day today, I'm still sick & have a sucky cough. I hope it goes away soon, nothing like BDing while caughing through it...makes for a romantic night...LOL

CD 10 and last night I took an OPK it wasn't as dark as the control line but it was MUCH darker then the last cycle on CD 10.....sooo I think I'm going to O sometime this week!! Much better then CD 19!!!

CD 11 - no O yet but my OPK's are getting darker, I'm thinking I will see a positive OPK by Turkey day!!!

I did have my yearly appt today & my doc said she's giving me 3 months to get preggers or she's putting me on Clomid & running some tests!!! WOOOHOOO I love her. I'm soooo happy she's being totoally agressive about me getting pregnant. The only concern will it cause multiples. Oh well hopefully I will get pg before needing to go on Clomid!