trying for #TWO ~ BFP 12-10

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trying for #TWO ~ BFP 12-10

I figured I would start a journal to help me get some of these crazy emotions out.

We actually started trying for #2 in July/Aug of 06 & had a chemical pg the first cycle trying. After that we (actually my hubby) decided it would be better to wait until he was more stable with his job. Well that happened last month! He got not 1 but 2 promotions and starting 07 a nice fat raise. So right after he told me that news he also said lets have more babies!!! LOL
So that brings us to this cycle. We have had great timing but I'm not feeling very hopeful for some reason. I guess all symptoms have faded, AF really feels like she is breathing down my neck, and I had a slight temp drop this morning. Now I know its still early & that I shouldn't give up but today I really feel like this month isn't going to be our month. That's ok though, I should expect to get pg right away.....it wasn't all that easy with Nate so it probably won't happen right away the 2nd time right??? Well that's what I keep telling myself....
So here were are 8DPO CD27 & waiting for the witch to show her ugly face (I'd much rather her go hide for a while though)

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CD 28 & 9 DPO, I feel crappy this am but Nate got me up at 4:45 so that could have something to do with it.
I really want to test but I keep talking myself into waiting until next week at least. Some days I really feel like I'm pg and some I don't....guess my mind can really play tricks on me.

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CD 29 & 10DPO, GOD I want to test so bad! I had a great temp spike this am but I also had the same withe the last cycle we were trying & that was a chem so needless to say I'm worried. I'm going to probably test at 12 DPO but try my heardest not to get too excited if its positive. I'll feel a little better if I make it past 14 DPO. Once I do I will call the dr and start blood draws to make sure my #'s are rising nicely.
Today I feel tired like always, I was was feeling kinda sick thing am but I ate & feel better. Last night I felt kinda crampy. Hope this isn't all in my head.

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CD30 & 11 DPO and BFN!!! Damnit I told myself not to test but I couldn't hold out. I was really hoping and NADDA! Stark white...I even pulled the test apart. Everyone keeps saying it's not over yet but I think it is, I think my temps are only high cause I'm coming down with something. I have been feeling crapy & hoping that it was early symptoms but now I think its a cold. FUN so I'll have a cold and AF will probably show her ugly face soon....FUN :roll:

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CD 31 & 12DPO I had a huge dive in temps and started spotting this morning so AF will probably be in full force by this afternoon Sad Man I really was hopeful, my chart was looking awsome & I was feeling lousy! Well I guess were onto the next cycle. Hopefully we'll have an Aug baby!

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CD 1 ~ AF showed up this morning. I hate cramps! Onto Aug BB.

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Nothing new & exciting going on, I'm on CD 3 and AF is still here. I have to run to the store this week & pick up some OPK's - I should really buy them online, there much cheaper that way. I was going to look into Vitex too but of course I keep putting off buying it. I'm tempted not to temp this month too - I haven't the past couple of days but I don't normally when I begin a cycle. It's just so stressful, espically when my chart looks so good! Who knows - I guess we'll just see how the next few days pan out.

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CD 4 & AF is still here. I'm having a horrible day today, I'm still sick & have a sucky cough. I hope it goes away soon, nothing like BDing while caughing through it...makes for a romantic night...LOL

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CD 10 and last night I took an OPK it wasn't as dark as the control line but it was MUCH darker then the last cycle on CD 10.....sooo I think I'm going to O sometime this week!! Much better then CD 19!!!

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CD 11 - no O yet but my OPK's are getting darker, I'm thinking I will see a positive OPK by Turkey day!!!

I did have my yearly appt today & my doc said she's giving me 3 months to get preggers or she's putting me on Clomid & running some tests!!! WOOOHOOO I love her. I'm soooo happy she's being totoally agressive about me getting pregnant. The only concern will it cause multiples. Oh well hopefully I will get pg before needing to go on Clomid!

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CD-17 No O yet - I gave up on the OPK's, they would get darker then light again. It was too frustrating so I just stop taking them. My temps haven't jumped up yet so I know I didn't O. Thank god too cause DH was really sick & we didn't get to BD until last night. Hopefully I'll O on CD 19 like usualy and I really hope we get a BFP this time!!!

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still haven't Oed yet and I'm on CD 18....this is really getting old! I did an OPK this am just to see if it was getting darker then the others & it seems as if it was a little darker but not a positive. Hopefully I will get a darker one tonight when I get home. I think I'm going to call my DR and see if she can't do some testing and get me on Clomid to shorten my cycles. I know this is only our 4th cycle but I'm just too damn impatient! :?

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were fighting something horrible - I think ttc wise I am out this month. I got a positive OPK today but we haven't bded since Sunday night & I don't think there is going to be any bding anytime soon. Somethings up with him, this is how he acted right before he told me he didn't want to have another baby. I'm just waiting for him to drop the bomb. Plus he's been avoiding BDing so I'm pretty sure he's gonig to say that he wants to wait again.
I hate this roller coaster - one month were trying the next were not. I'm always so stressed out about it. Maybe I'm the one who needs to take a break from all of this. My life revolves around the therm & OPK's. I think I need to take a step back from all of this and just go with the flow.
I'm done taking my temps, no more OPK's I just want my relationship back with my husband. I want to have sex because we want to not because we have to or its good timing.
I'm tired of all this let down & disapointment.

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we made up - seems that I'm putting WAY too much stress on him to have another baby. I told him that I'm done trying so damn hard & that I want the romance back in my marriage. Were just going to go with it & hopefully I'll get pregnant. No more temping, charting, OPKs, none of it!

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well I'm on CD 20 and Oing today (I think) I didn't take my temp this am and I didn't use an OPK. While I know I'm out this cycle - we only BDed once and that was 4 days ago so the chances are very slim. So I guess once AF shows we will be onto the next cycle with a promise from hubby to be more "complient" He was sick last week & didn't want to BD, then he was over tired & VERY stressed this week & didn't really want to BD so were pretty much out. Needless to say I was very upset about him not want to BD and missing out on this cycle but I'm already over it - ON to next month!! Which will put us in September - Nate's birth month!!!

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Nothing new to report, I'm pretty sure we are out for this cycle and I'm totally bummed about that. I'm very tired of trying already and it really hasn't been that long. I feel like my husband has given up already, he was so into it a few months ago but now he doesn't even want to talk about it. This makes me really sad. I want to have a large family and of course I want to be pregnant with a healthy baby ASAP! I wish I had more patients!

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Why is my body so mean??? I swear it's playing tricks on me! I woke up this morning with very sore bb's and nausea. My BD timing really sucks this cycle I can't imagine that BDing 4-5 days before O that I would get pg but now I'm thinking maybe. So of course this sends me right into obsessing, I was actually looking forward to just relaxing and getting this cycle over with. UGH this is such a pain in the ass!!!

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ugh I feel horrible today, AF is breathing down my neck....I wish she would just hurry up. It's so unfair that you have to deal with her for a week but I don't need the cramps and PMS a week before she gets here....what a witch!!

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so I took my temp this am - I know I said I wouldn't but the therm. was just calling me!!! Wasn't extreamly high 98.06 - I just don't feel good so of course I keep questioning if I could be pg. It would be nice, I would wait until X-mas morning to tell DH, that would be so fun! I'm saying a little prayer and hoping that I am but I won't be too dissapointed if AF shows next week. I know how bad my timing was this cycle.
keep your fingers crossed!!!

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ugh I've got cramps, I can't tell if its AF or possible pregnancy - I'm driving myself crazy today!!! I refuse to test, not until Thursday of next week at the earliest!!!

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I got a BFP this morning - it came up right away!
So much for timing, I guess his swimmers hung out for a little while LOL
I'm still causious as I have had a chemical pg in the past. I'll feel a little easier once I have had a blood draw done.

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Wow!!

I just read your entire thread and was getting ready to tell you I am in the same boat. We must have O'd at the same time. I am holding off waiting to tesat until next week around the 14th or so. I will never last. I have been trying for over a year now after a miscarriage. My only symptoms are creamy CM and a stuffy nose. I guess we'll see.
Congratulations keep posting!!!!

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WOOHOO Jenny ... sorry for posting here but wanted you to see it ... your gonna get your girl Smile

Love ya hun

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Lynne!! You can post here anytime sweetie!!!

Thanks - just waiting to get blood work done today, hopefully the numbers are nice & high!

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still no word back from my doctor :blowup:
I'm having a rough day today, I don't feel pregnant at all, every symptom just vanished! I'm just waiting for AF to show up & its driving me nuts. All I do is run to the bathroom all day to see if she's here. I woke up at 4 this am and ran right to the bathroom, even worse before I did that I took my temp and it was really low so of course that set the tone for the day. I just don't have a good feeling about this pregnancy and I don't know why. I guess I'm just so scared of another Chemical pg or early m/c. :cry:

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Finally! HCG was 104 @13 DPO - I went today for another draw & I have an appt with the midwife monday

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Yahoo Way to go hunny!!!!!

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Jenny I hope your updates are good. That you have a BFP and pregnancy is going well. Smile

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Midwife appt went great, she did a u/s but I was only 4 weeks so we could only see the sack, next appt I will hopefully see the hb!
I did get a call from my old dr on some blood work I had done last week. My HCG @ 16DPO was 548 but my progestrone was 14.1 and they want to see my at 18 so I was put on medication. I went today for another draw & will go again Friday for yet another one....I'm feeling like a pin coushin!!!

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This is going to be my last post here- my HCG is over 4000 and my progestrone is 22, I go next wed for a US.
Thanks for all the well wishes and reading my jounal.
Biggrin