January 2009 I told my husband one week before our 4-yr wedding anniversary that I wanted a baby. I told him this by sitting about 4 baby books in his lap. I totally blind sided him with the idea. The reason this threw him off was because ever since the day we started dating, I told him I wasn't into the idea of having children, I had never saw myself wanting children, had never been close to babies & I wasn't one of those people that drove towards a mom walking with a new baby in the store or at church.
He then the next week bought me a baby bag, his way of saying "I'm okay with this." Since then we sat down & decided we would try after our vacation (a cruise) in Oct 2009. And WOW has these months flown by! I've read just about every baby book I could get my hands on trying to prepare myself for this journey. I knew nothing about having a baby, how to take care of one, but I knew I wanted one. In the last couple of months, I've been trying to decide who my provider will be & what hospital I want to go to.
Lately, I find myself looking at moms & babies trying to absorb any information that I possibly can.
So lately I've had very tender breast and nipples. I noticed it two nights ago and it's still just as bad today. I've NEVER had this symptom before. Every period in my life I never had this problem. It is the only thing different I have noticed, and I would be totally shocked if it was because I was pregnant. I know it is a early sign but I would love it if it was true. I don't know if I want to be pregnant on my cruise, but hey, I'll deal somehow
Well no other signs of pregnancy so far. My nipples are still somewhat tender, but nothing else. I wasn't too set on the idea that I could have been pregnant already. I'm okay with not being yet. I really would like to hold off on it until after our vacation in October. I do know that since I'm off my BCP & the hormones are out of my system I want to DTD all the time. My sex drive has really went through the roof which is wonderul since I didn't have one for years with being on the pills.
Well, I found out what the nipple tenderness was from, AF was on her way. I've never had that sign before in my life, but I'm glad to know what it was now. I know ppl say things change when you go off your BCP. A gf of DH's has gave us a lot of hand me downs from her kids. Everything is like brand new so I don't mind at all! It's all very cute and clean. She is going to give us some clothes next week and I can't wait to see what she has for me. If we happen to have a girl, she's going to give me like 10 bags full of old clothes. This makes me hope for a baby girl even more Plus, I can't wait to have a girl named Madison Marie.
I should O next weekend so I'll make sure to DTD with DH as much as I can without telling him its because I'm O'ing. He doesn't mind that we're DTD without protection, he just doesn't want the pressure of me O'ing. We leave in 25 days for our cruise.
Also- found out Saturday that my family MD is leaving Oct 31st!! I'm so heartbroken! I was wanting her to delivery my baby and see me during my pregnancy.
Just stopped another period cycle. No breast tenderness this time, weird... no warnings at all actually and it only last 4 days 3 days last time. I can handle that! Leaving in 4 days for the cruise, I should O around the 21st so that'll be handy for the trip because we'll be DTD a lot Anyways- Saw an OB doctor in my town this past Friday and I loved her. She was very laid back and said that she's like that for everyone's pregnancies. She told me a lot of the things I wanted to hear, which was awesome. I'm going to check out the nursery & L/D floor at our hospital to see if it will be nice enough to use and then I'll know which place I'll be going for my pregnancy I can't believe it's already time to start TTC for real.
As of today I am two days late for AF to show. I POAS last night and it said "not pregnant." I'm okay with that, it was only our first month of trying. So I'll just wait on AF to show up so I can start counting down the days to try again in November. I've also started weight watchers again a couple weeks ago. I'm really hoping to lose about 10 lbs before we get pregnant. But any weight off is a plus at this point.
So today was day 34 and no AF yet. Good news is, I was checking my cervix tonight and there is some blood thank God I'm going to start! 3 tests were negative and I was really starting to get freaked out that something was wrong. I'm glad I'm going to start so we can try again in approx 14 days.
Well here I am again. Today is day 27 and so far I've had two BFN this week. I do not plan on testing again until Saturday which would be day 31. Unless of course, AF shows up. I must say I'm starting to get a tad frustrated. My biggest problem is hurting DH's feelings because I feel like if I try to DTD too much around day 14 he's no in the mood because he doesn't want to feel like he's forced to DTD. I understand that to a point because he def. has to do his part for us to get the baby. I did purchase 4 OPK's so I will check that this next cycle. If that doesn't work, I will temp the next one and use OPKs again. And THEN if that doesn't work, I'll be seeing my OB.
Month 4 of TTC. My last cycle lasted 35 days!! Seemed to take forever to go away. I should O around Dec 28th so I'll be testing around our 5 yr anniversary! That would be the best present ever! I did purchase 4 OPKS to use this month. I'm also going to watch my CM very close and make sure to try to time this thing right. I know my chart doesn't look the best because DH & I wanted to just let it happen the first couple months but we've discussed it and this month we're going to do what the OB said "have sex every other day one week after cycle is over." I work on trying NOT to get my hopes up but I really feel like this is going to be "the cycle." DH is really on board with DTD more and timing it better and with the OPKS help I pray this is it!
~Praying for Madison Marie OR Christopher Michael Jr. in 2010~
So my signs I am feeling this time: (I know they may not mean anything)
Tender breasts, sore nipples- have had for about a week
Upset stomach- just lightly but enough to be annoying
Mood swings-got all emotional about cleaning the house the other night, I'm not sure where it came from but it was a total breakdown.
I POAS about two days ago so I know it was way too early for anything to have happened, but I couldn't help but be hopeful. I plan on POAS maybe tomorrow morning. That'll put me around 8dpo. Come Thursday I'll really be testing if I get a BFN tomorrow morning. I know it's only been 4 months of trying but I'm already so worn out on trying. It stresses me out when I want to DTD in my window and then I feel like I'm blowing DH off the rest of the month because I'm just not in the mood for it. And if I DTD I want to rush it to get it over with. ugh it's so not fair to him I know.