I will be coping all the entries over the next few days. This will be a lot of work!
This was first posted on Dec 29th 2002.
Well it is almost 2003 so I thought I would start off the year with a TTC journal. This past year I did not want to start a journal because I was hoping that each new month, I would get pg.
Not to say that this journal is an admission of defeat but rather a document of my struggles.
I am also going to be more aggressive in TTCing. I have not talked to my Dr much but I do have an appt in Jan for Clomid.
So I KNOW this will be my year!
OK...here I go:
Me - 30 (31 in Feb) ~ DH 31 (32 in Jan)
TTC #1 since 11-01.
My cycles range from 33-38 days. But this last cycle was 40 days. I have not had much luck with charting my temp before and it is hard to use OPK's because my cycles are so random. I don't even know how long my LP is. I normally just BD every other day starting CD 13 to CD 25. I have really been thinking about getting a FM to help me. I know you have to start those the first few days of the cycle so maybe I will get one tonight or tomorrow.
Today is CD#1 and AF is here with a vengance! Major cramps! Ugh!
Posted: 2002-12-30 16:14
Well I decided not to get a FM. I will just wait and see how the Clomid does.
I decided not to because I have this annoying voice in my head that is saying "You are going to need medical intervention, don't waste the money" Horrible way to think I know. But today is just one of those grumpy, bitchy moody days In a week when I am over my moodiness I will wish I had bought it because I will be thinking "Maybe I will not need the Clomid!"
TTCing really plays with your mind. It makes me crazy!
Posted: 2002-12-31 19:15
Boy have I been grumpy!! I feel bad for DH. I got anoyed with him Sunday for chewing carrots too loud.
Well AF is finally easing up. She will be gone soon. I am not getting the FM, so I am going to buy OPKs. Since my cycles are random I may have to buy 2 boxes. We will see.
I am very proud on myself though...I finally got back to working out. I did 45 minutes on the treadmill yest. I was going to do my yoga today but I decided that if I want to see the ball drop...I might need a nap. Maybe tomorrow or Thursday...I have off that day too!!!
My New's Year resolutions are #1 - to be more aggressive in TTCing. More DR visits - whatever it takes!! And #2 - I am taking one of my professiors advice and I swear I will try to work on my short stories and get published. Maybe seeing it written here will make me work harder!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Since I am not pg....bring on the lemon drop martinis!!
Posted: 2003-01-02 16:45
CD 5. Not much going on. I have not worked out since the other day. I really need to get my good exercise plan back in place. Today I was off work so I cleaned up the house. I guess that was sort of a workout. Tomorrow I WILL get back to it!
Posted: 2003-01-04 12:44
CD 7. I am such a slacker. I still have not worked out.
I have to buy the OPK's this week so I will be ready to start using them on CD 13. I don't think I O that early but who knows with my body. I will buy 2 boxes so hopefully I can find the right day. If it does not work this month I will be moving on to Clomid!!
Posted: 2003-01-06 17:41
CD 9. I bought my kits so I am ready. I don't see how I can miss my O day this month.
I also will have an accoutability partner soon (thank you BF). Which is good because I did not work out AGAIN today! UGGGHHH! And I am following my Dh and lowering my carb intake. He did this and lost a few pounds in just one week.
Posted: 2003-01-07 17:49
CD 10. Well I worked out today!!!! Yoga and some pilates. I am so glad to have someone to keep me going. She did cardio yest and I did nothing. So I HAD to work out today.
I start the OPK's in 3 days. I hope I am guessing my O day right. The other times I used them I think it was around the 20th day. But the very last time I used them it said I was Oing on day 21 and 22 but then AF came on CD22. Something that had never happened before or since then.
I have heard of someone people Oing as early as CD 10. I hope not me because if s...I will have wasted 2 kits and 10 mornings.
I go to see my Dr in 2 days for Clomid. I am ready to get more aggressive but I am hoping with all the testings I will not need the Clomid.
Posted: 2003-01-08 21:28
I have gone 2 days in a row!! I did 40 minutes on the treadmill today. I am sore from yesturday's yoga though. I hope I will be ready to do it again tomorrow! From Monday to today..I have lost 3 pounds! Yay me!! Only 7 more to go.
So my Clomid appt is tomorrow, finally!! I really hope I will not need it next month. I start testing soon and I plan on doing the Audra! Just in case I am also going to do my regular BD marathon every other day starting CD 13- CD 25. A few of girls on the 0-6 month board have had a lot of luck with it!!
I hope I do too.
Posted: 2003-01-09 13:35
Well I had a GREAT appt.
She said based on my cd numbers, I am probably not Oing. But....I did get the prescription for Clomid.
She also told me that the month I start Clomid...I need to chart my temp. and fax it to her at the end of the month.
So I will do the OPK's this month and see if I O. If I go great and if not that's ok too.
The best thing is that I really have NO stress this cycle!!!!
Posted: 2003-01-10 19:59
CD 13. The OKP was negative...just as I expected.
Since I had to pick up my nephew today I could not workout when I got home. But I snuck in about 30 minutes on the treadmill after he left.
I needed to do something since I did not get to workout last night.
I will not be taking this weekend off, I will do yoga tomorrow. (BF has to hold me to that)
Posted: 2003-01-11 09:15
CD 14 Friday was that first day for the OPKs. The lines were one faint and one dark in color. So no Oing. OK I got that part. Now this morning they were closer in color. One was still lighter so I knwo I am not Oing yet. BUT....do the start off one light and one dark and then they gradually get closer in color till I O and they are the same color? Or is random colors till I O and suddenly they are the same? Does this make sense? If anyone knows let me know!!
Posted: 2003-01-12 10:35
Well today the OPK test line was lighter that yesturday's. I don't know if I want to use the other box or not. If my dr is right and I am not Oing, maybe I should wait till I start the Clomid. I have 2 more in this box I think so I have 2 more days to decide.
Posted: 2003-01-13 11:06
CD 16 - The OPK's are still negative. So no Oing yet! Maybe not at all..only time will tell.
I only worked out once this weekend BUT I have lost 5 pounds in one week. 5 more and I will be back to my high school weight!! YAY!!!
Posted: 2003-01-15 12:11
Still no positive OPK. I am guessing that I will not O this month. I have 4 more tests for this month. I may be waiting for AF so I can start Clomid. My cycles last 33-40 days. I hope this is a short cycle!!!
I have not worked out since Sunday but I plan on it today. I am up 2 pounds since Monday. I hope I can shed those this week.
Posted: 2003-01-16 16:25
CD 19 and I can't believe what I saw this morning!!! I got a positive OPK!!!! I hope this means I am Oing. Can you have a LH surge and not release an eggy? If anyone knows let me know here or in the journal comments area. I am BDing tonight just in case!!
I worked out last night for 60 minutes on the treadmill. But from now on anything less than 60 minutes will be lazy. But I did relose that 2 lbs that I had gained back somehow. I am sure it was water weight.
And we are getting snow tonight!!! It is a big deal in my area. We all shut down when it snows. (We don't spend tax money on snow plows that we will use once a year.) My boss and I treated today like a Friday so I will be having a SNOW DAY!!
Posted: 2003-01-17 09:05
CD 20. I can't believe I Oed yesturday. Between the positive OPK and the cramping feeling on my right side, I pray this is all a sign on Oing. I have not ever felt the O cramping before but I never really tried to track the O day exactly.
I did not tell Dh that I got a positive. He thinks that I will not O this month. Last time he asked about the OPK test was the day before I O'ed. So he did not feel like a sperm doner last night.
We did get about 1 1/2 inches of snow but then it started raining so we won't get to make a snowman. And I am at work today.
BUT WHO CARES...I O'ED!!
Posted: 2003-01-18 22:30
Well I hope I did not miss my O window this month. I got to BD Thurs. (O day) but I did not get to Friday. But I did Sat. morning. I hope I did not miss that eggy.
I have not worked out since Wed. Since football does not come on till later tomorrow...I will have plenty of time.
Posted: 2003-01-21 11:41
CD - 24
DPO - 5
I don't know when to test. Normally is I am not using the OPK's I don't know when I O so I wait till CD 35-40 before I test. Since I got a positive OPK on CD 19, I am not sure. I guess I will ask the 7+ girls.
Today is DH's birthday!! I may not be able to workout since we might go out to eat But I did 40 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes pilates yest.
Posted: 2003-01-26 10:00
I have been really slack about writing this week but there has not been a lot to do besides wait to test or wait for AF.
CD - 29
DPO - 10
I am going to try to wait till my b-day to test. Or maybe the day before that will be Sat.
Even thought I am not charting yet I have taken my temp a few times this month. I started at 96 something. I think I had a peak when I O'ed but I think it was 97.9. I guess I will have to find it. Now my temps are staying in the high 97's. This morning it was 97.9. I hope this is a good sign but I dont want to get my hopes up.
Today is Superbowl Sunday and we are staying home by ourselves!! I am always a little sad on Superbowl day because that means no more football for a while.
Well, March Maddness is right around the corner and my Seahawks are 12-4 right now!! GO UNCW!!
Posted: 2003-01-27 20:09
CD - 30
DPO - 11
My boobs still are sore but I don't want to read too much into it. I have been craving chocolate too so this may not be a good sign.
I have been so good...I worked out 2 days in a row. I have been a little slack lately!
Well, my temps are dropping. 97.8 to 97.4 then this morning 97.0. I guess AF is on the way but maybe it had just been too cold in the house. I guess we will see. I may be able to celebrate my b-day with a few martinis!!
I was really hoping for an October baby. I am mad at myself for getting my hopes up. But I will be starting Clomid in the next week or so I guess so hopefully I will be pg soon.
I did not work out last night, I got busy cleaning up my aquarium. I am looking foward to setting it up again. Back to working out today.
Posted: 2003-01-29 15:21
Well about after 2 hours after I wrote that AF hit. I have a lot of cramps so working out may not be an option today.
I went to get my Clomid and the drug store said about 20 minutes. So I ran up the road to Petsmart to waste some time. Got back and they said that they did not have any. They would try to find some at another location. So I get home and then they call and said...oops...it is here. They had not unpacked today's delivery.
AAGGGHHHH. Don't they know know that I am grumpy and cramping!!
Posted: 2003-01-29 17:42
I started my temp chart!! Hopefully this will be informative to me and my DR.
If anyone has any feedback on my chart, let me know!!
Posted: 2003-01-30 18:15
The cramps are gone thankfully!!
I start Clomid tomorrow!! YAY!
I have had a headache since last night. The weather is getting ready to change so my sinuses are driving me crazy! I did not go to work today and I am not working out. That makes 2 days in a row. Hopefully I will tomorrow.
Posted: 2003-01-31 16:43
I took my first Clomid pill today!! I am so excited. I decided to take it in the late afternoon so I can monitor myself for any side effects. I doubt I will have any but you never know. Also...I am just so excited!! I really hope this works! GO CLOMID, GO CLOMID, GO CLOMID!!
No working out today. I am still fighting this headache. Plus since I have to pick up my nephew on Fridays, I get home later than normal.
Posted: 2003-02-02 08:03
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! I am 31 today. Last year I did not mind turning 30 because we had not been TTCing too long and I just KNEW it would happen soon. So here I am one year later and still no baby. But I have a few more Clomid pills to take so that is giving me some hope.
Dh has something planned for me today but he wont tell me what it is. Since some diamonds were loose in my wedding band, we are having a new ring made. I told DH that should my birthday present from him, but he won't listen. Not that I mind getting more presents!!
Posted: 2003-02-03 20:06
I have not worked out in a few days. I had cramps, they a 2 day headache, then my b-day. Today I forgot to eat lunch and I did not want to workout on an empty belly!!
I take my final Clomid pill tomorrow. I am so excited. In a few days the BD marathon will start!!! No side effects so far. Maybe I will not have any!
Posted: 2003-02-07 17:23
The BD fest will start tonight. DH is so stressed at work and he has been so tired at night. I tried to get a head start on the BDing last night but he fell asleep in the recliner around 8:30. I told him that we are paying for Clomid and we need to try to catch that eggy. I hope we can tonight but if not..I hope waiting one day will not mean that I miss anything.
Posted: 2003-02-08 20:00
Well I can't get to the website to update my chart. Good thing I have been keeping a written one.
Well DH surprised my the last 2 days with BDing!! It's been a good weekend. I don't think I have O'ed yet but it is fun to practice.
Posted: 2003-02-10 10:39
My temp went down to 96.1 so I think I will O in the next day or so. I am so excited!!!
Posted: 2003-02-11 07:41
CD 14. The OPK was negative today. We did not BD last night. I was so mad at DH. I can't help he is tired and stressed. This work stress will pass... a baby is forever. I think he knew this morning that I was mad. But since today was a negative I am not as mad. Tonight for sure!
I hope I O tomorrow!
Posted: 2003-02-12 13:52
CD 15. AM I EVER GOING TO O? IS THIS CLOMID GOING TO WORK OR NOT!!
I don't know what is going on. Why have I not O'ed yet? I am getting fustrated.
We did BD last night. I think DH knows that I was a little dissapointed that we wasted the previous night and that I will hopefully O soon so we need to be BDing.
Posted: 2003-02-13 09:49
CD 16. I am getting so mad. Last month I O'ed on CD 19. This month with Clomid I still have not O'ed. WTF??? My temps are still down.
I am having a pity party today I think. I just had such high hopes for this Clomid and I thought it would make me O sooner. I am dissapointed, and fustrated.
At least I have worked out 3 days in a row. My goal is to workout everyday this week!!
Posted: 2003-02-13 18:38
I am feeling better now. I can always count on my TTC7+ girls to help me out!! I just have to wait a little longer to O. I am use to that!!
I did my yoga today so I am 4 days in a row!!
YAY ME!! And Survivor is tonight!!
Posted: 2003-02-16 12:07
CD 19. I still have not O'ed. My temps are not going up either. I am starting to think that this month I will not O so that I will have to go on a higher dose.
I worked out Mon-Thurs. I have not worked out since because I have been sore!! The yoga really kicked my butt this week. We are suppose to be getting an ice storm today so we are not planning on leaving the house. I will try to work out today.
Posted: 2003-02-17 10:20
Cd 20. I did work out yesturday, yoga. And we did get iced in. The yard is white but it is all ice. We did not get any snow at all.
And according to my babymed chart...I O'ed. I did not have cramping from the Clomid, I did not have a temp spike. We did not BD a lot around that time and I feel like we mised our chance this month. I am mad, sad, confused.
If anyone wants to see this crap here it is:
Posted: 2003-02-18 07:43
Temp went up to 97.8.
I guess I just have to hope that I got lucky this month if the Babymed chart is right.
Since Dh and I were home yesturday I did not work out.
Posted: 2003-02-19 09:17
I guess I am 2WW now. I am just so confused this month.
I will get back to working out today. I did not yest because I stayed at work really late waiting for my new desk!! But I gave up waiting and I missed the delivery by 10 minutes. So they will be here today and then I get to redo the office!! This will keep me occupied in the 2WW!!
Posted: 2003-02-20 17:48
I will not work out today. Last night I put together my hutch for my new desk so it would be ready to put on top of the desk today. That took 1 1/2 hours of sitting on the floor, bending up and down, picking up heavy piece of wood and I don't know why I forgot to use the electric screwdriver.
So this morning I start on the desk. It is a 3 part unit. Also very heavy and also having a lot of screws. This time though I remember the screwdirver but the battery ran out half way through putting it together. So now my back hurts and my hand kills me when I grip things.
But it is together and I had fun doing it!! Tomorrow I have to arrange all my stuff and the rest of the furniture!
Posted: 2003-02-21 19:08
Well my temps are staying up but it is still too early to get excited. I have been looking at other babymed charts to see when others BD'ed around the O day hoping to see some that BD'ed 3-4 days before Oing and not after but still got PG.
How sad of a person am I!!
If AF stays away, I will test in 8 days.
We are going out with some friends tomorrow and it wil be hard to explain why I am not drinking. But just in case I got lucky this month I am not going to drink. I don't think they will put 2 and 2 together because they do not want kids.
I did 45 minutes of yoga today and I really did not want to so I am happy that I made myself do it!!
Posted: 2003-02-22 08:51
My temp is still rising. I really don't this we BD'ed enough this month so I don't know why I am getting my hopes up.
I HAVE to work out before we go out tonight. Last night I ate a lot of carbs. We got BB-Q plates from my Dad's church and I had 1 1/2 hushpuppies and drank 1/2 a can of coke and DH had bought me a Kit Kat.
Thankfully my weight was not up this morning. I will do treadmill since I did yoga yesturday. I am excited because I am not sore today. I guess this means I am finally getting back into shape!!
Posted: 2003-02-24 11:04
My temp too a little dip this morning. I hope it will not keep falling!
I worked out last night but not Saturday. Instead I vaccumed the entire house. That was an 1 1/2 hour workout!!
I just bought the Winsor Pilates videos off Ebay. I have really enjoyed the pilates I have been doing but I wanted to do more! They are coming from Canada so I don't know if it will be this week or next!!
And my wedding band will be ready this week! It better be because it was suppose to be done last week! I can't wait to get it back! I have hated going without it.
Posted: 2003-02-25 07:34
Well I guess AF is on her way. My temp almost fell off the chart.
And I got a fever blister last night! I have not gotten one of those in a year or more.
So I got a little excited last night thinking it was hormones.
I did not work out last night but I will today. My weight is still down but with AF coming, I expect the scales to go up a few lbs. It always does.
Posted: 2003-02-26 11:20
I started Tuesday night. I knew I would because my temp went from 97.8 to 97.0. Then the cramps started. I had them all day Tuesday, all night..I kept waking up..UGH!!
Now my big concern is I have to start Clomid tomorrow. I faxed my chart to my Dr and I am waiting for her to call me and call in my prescription.
I did do the treadmill yesturday even though I had cramps. I only did 30 minutes treadmill but that is better than nothing. I was hoping it would help the cramps and it did a little until 2 a.m.
New month's chart:http://www.babymed.com/bbt_link.asp?GID=2BF3D3C4
Posted: 2003-03-01 08:47
OMG!! I have been slacking!!
CD 5. The DR got my Clomid called in. She did not increase the milligrams since it seems to be working.
This month DH and I have already talked about how this month we WILL do better at BDing. The software will be releasing next week so a lot of his stress will be gone. We will start next Wed or Thurs. I am going to try to BD everyday for a week. Luckily it will be around the weekend and that is always a better time for us to BD!!
I have really slacked off on my working out My weight went up 2 lbs, as it always does when AF is in town.
I have also been eating crap. Chinese food, a few cookies, DH bought me 2 Kit Kats. But I am blaming it all on AF!! This weekend I will try to work out Sat and Sun.
I finally got my wedding band back!!! It looks great and I feel so happy to have it back on. I hated being without it!!
Posted: 2003-03-02 10:18
I did not work out yesturday but DH and I went to the mall and Lowes so I did a lot of walking so that is better than sitting on my butt all day playing video games!!
I will today, I made a promise to myself!! I am still waiting for the new videos to get here. I am looking foward to doing more pilates!! They are coming from Canada so hopefully they will be here this week!!
Posted: 2003-03-03 07:54
Trying the preg.org charting tool also!!
I can compare charts!!
Posted: 2003-03-03 18:26
I took my last Clomid pill today. Here goes another month!!! We will start BDing Thursday. I told Dh this month we need to do better than last month. His job will be more accomodating now. He is less stressed and less tired!! I really hope this will be my month.
I finally got my new pilates videos today!! I did one of the tapes, about 40-45 minutes!! It was great. It is so simaiar to my yoga but a little more controlled in the movements. We will see tomorrow how I feel. I hope I am a little sore.
They gave me this chart so you can measure your waist, hips, thighs....uuggghhhh. Even though I am not overweight, I decided to measure. I am hoping to tone everything up. It would be nice to loose 5-10 lbs. That would put me at my high school weight!!
Posted: 2003-03-04 18:17
3 days till the BD fest!! YAY!! I am going to catch that eggy this month!
I did my second pilates video today!! I am really enjoying the tapes. I am a little sore from the workout yesturday. I feel like my hips are going to fall out of the sockets!!
Posted: 2003-03-06 10:32
BD fest will start tonight!!! According to babymed I O'ed on CD 7 and I know that is not right.
I did not workout last night because my niece and nephew were over and I was trying to finish my niece's beaded curtin and wall art for her. That and my neck was hurting. I guess it is from holding my head up a lot during pilates. But I will try to make up for it today.