Well it is almost 2003 so I thought I would start off the year with a TTC journal. This past year I did not want to start a journal because I was hoping that each new month, I would get pg.
Not to say that this journal is an admission of defeat but rather a document of my struggles.
I am also going to be more aggressive in TTCing. I have not talked to my Dr much but I do have an appt in Jan for Clomid.
So I KNOW this will be my year!
OK...here I go:
Me - 30 (31 in Feb) ~ DH 31 (32 in Jan)
TTC #1 since 11-01.
My cycles range from 33-38 days. But this last cycle was 40 days. I have not had much luck with charting my temp before and it is hard to use OPK's because my cycles are so random. I don't even know how long my LP is. I normally just BD every other day starting CD 13 to CD 25. I have really been thinking about getting a FM to help me. I know you have to start those the first few days of the cycle so maybe I will get one tonight or tomorrow.
Today is CD#1 and AF is here with a vengance! Major cramps! Ugh!
Well I decided not to get a FM. I will just wait and see how the Clomid does.
I decided not to because I have this annoying voice in my head that is saying "You are going to need medical intervention, don't waste the money" Horrible way to think I know. But today is just one of those grumpy, *****y moody days In a week when I am over my moodiness I will wish I had bought it because I will be thinking "Maybe I will not need the Clomid!"
TTCing really plays with your mind. It makes me crazy!
Boy have I been grumpy!! I feel bad for DH. I got anoyed with him Sunday for chewing carrots too loud.
Well AF is finally easing up. She will be gone soon. I am not getting the FM, so I am going to buy OPKs. Since my cycles are random I may have to buy 2 boxes. We will see.
I am very proud on myself though...I finally got back to working out. I did 45 minutes on the treadmill yest. I was going to do my yoga today but I decided that if I want to see the ball drop...I might need a nap. Maybe tomorrow or Thursday...I have off that day too!!!
My New's Year resolutions are #1 - to be more aggressive in TTCing. More DR visits - whatever it takes!! And #2 - I am taking one of my professiors advice and I swear I will try to work on my short stories and get published. Maybe seeing it written here will make me work harder!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Since I am not pg....bring on the lemon drop martinis!!
CD 5. Not much going on. I have not worked out since the other day. I really need to get my good exercise plan back in place. Today I was off work so I cleaned up the house. I guess that was sort of a workout. Tomorrow I WILL get back to it!
CD 7. I am such a slacker. I still have not worked out.
I have to buy the OPK's this week so I will be ready to start using them on CD 13. I don't think I O that early but who knows with my body. I will buy 2 boxes so hopefully I can find the right day. If it does not work this month I will be moving on to Clomid!!
CD 9. I bought my kits so I am ready. I don't see how I can miss my O day this month.
I also will have an accoutability partner soon (thank you BF). Which is good because I did not work out AGAIN today! UGGGHHH! And I am following my Dh and lowering my carb intake. He did this and lost a few pounds in just one week.
CD 10. Well I worked out today!!!! Yoga and some pilates. I am so glad to have someone to keep me going. She did cardio yest and I did nothing. So I HAD to work out today.
I start the OPK's in 3 days. I hope I am guessing my O day right. The other times I used them I think it was around the 20th day. But the very last time I used them it said I was Oing on day 21 and 22 but then AF came on CD22. Something that had never happened before or since then.
I have heard of someone people Oing as early as CD 10. I hope not me because if s...I will have wasted 2 kits and 10 mornings.
I go to see my Dr in 2 days for Clomid. I am ready to get more aggressive but I am hoping with all the testings I will not need the Clomid.
I have gone 2 days in a row!! I did 40 minutes on the treadmill today. I am sore from yesturday's yoga though. I hope I will be ready to do it again tomorrow! From Monday to today..I have lost 3 pounds! Yay me!! Only 7 more to go.
So my Clomid appt is tomorrow, finally!! I really hope I will not need it next month. I start testing soon and I plan on doing the Audra! Just in case I am also going to do my regular BD marathon every other day starting CD 13- CD 25. A few of girls on the 0-6 month board have had a lot of luck with it!!
I hope I do too.
Well I had a GREAT appt.
She said based on my cd numbers, I am probably not Oing. But....I did get the prescription for Clomid.
She also told me that the month I start Clomid...I need to chart my temp. and fax it to her at the end of the month.
So I will do the OPK's this month and see if I O. If I go great and if not that's ok too.
The best thing is that I really have NO stress this cycle!!!!