I hear about it all the time, and I've decided that if asked, I'm not going to be put on it. My mother said it never helped her, and once she got off of it she got pregnant. I'm beginning to really believe that since the miracle of life is a MIRACLE, then I will not go on the medication, and leave this in God's hands.
Today, a best friend of mine, told me she's pregnant. She has about a 9 month old right now. She knew we had been trying, and told me that her and her DH were going to wait a few months before trying again. She told me she didn't know how to tell me, and I can understand why because she didn't know how I'd take it. Honestly, I think I took the news rather well. I'm upset, jealous, envious, etc... but how can I not be? Yes, I got upset... and I had to explain to her that some of my future actions might be uncalled for so I apologized ahead of time. (sort of) It's not immaturity. It's just... The stress. I can't take the stress of it all, but at least I tried to explain.
We had a perfectly fine conversation so everything is fine between us. I told her not to take anything personally, and that it's not like I'm not happy for her. Anyway, things are good between us, and that's all that really matters. I'm just a little depressed...
So, here goes round #2! I'm on day 10 of my cycle and still temping, so we'll see what happens! I should be O'ing soon! Last time I supposedly O'd on my 18th day, but fertilityfriend.com couldn't make up it's mind. It kept going between my 16th and 18th day, finally sticking with the latter.
I picked up my Bible the other day for the first time in a while. I've always said I'd do my baby's room in Precious Moments whether it's a boy or girl, and my Bible is a Precious Moments Bible. Anyway, yeah. I've been reading a little bit of it each night or sometime before going to bed. All I can do is have faith and hope and pray that I have a healthy and happy pregnancy (and baby!)
Good news and bad news.
The bad news is... my friend lost her baby. She was about five weeks along. And even though I *****ed about it... I never wanted her to loose it, and I told her that I wanted her to have a healthy baby. In fact, I even reassured her of that. I really wanted nothing but the best for her. I know all things happen for a reason, so there must be one, but it's still very sad. It's also a big eye opener.
The good news is round #2 is definitely here! I'm now on day 15 of my cycle, I've still been temping. Not ovulated yet, but it should happen any day now. Last month fertilityfriend.com couldn't decide between my 16th and 18th day, so we'll see! I'm just going to keep trying. That's all I can do.
*Please pray for my friend and her husband!
Things have been a little rough between my DH and I since the 12th. I ovulated that day (once again, day 18 of my cycle, and it also once again jumped from the original date; day 16 of my cycle to day 18 JUST LIKE LAST MONTH.) I'm still charting my BBT. I'm now on cycle day 26. My regular cycle seems to be 30 days.
I knew, because of cervical fluid, that on the night of the 17th day of my cycle that I was very fertile. I told my DH so we went to try to make a baby for around 4 HOURS. He couldn't get an erection. I've mentioned this in my journal and in the 'TTC My First' forums. I have definitely decided that next month, I'm not telling him when I'm ovulating. I'm taking the advice from some of the girls that I've talked to on here about it.
It turns out though that he had a UTI which was probably the biggest problem. There's still a chance because we BD'd at around 4am on the 17th day of my cycle, and my cervical fluid was egg whitey. I guess I'll have to wait and see, but I just know deep down that if he could have performed then there would be a much larger chance of me getting pregnant. We'll have to wait and see, but you know what? Waiting sucks. I don't have much patience, so I'm praying that God gives me the strength to get through all of this!
I should be starting my period any day now. Trying is harder than I thought it would be. It's so easy to say, "I want to make a baby," but when something goes wrong, nothing can be done about it, and I don't have a Time Turner so I can't go back in time to change anything.
I thought March would be my month for some reason. Now, I'm just PMSing and slightly depressed and completely anxious at the same time. Bummer. I really hate this 2WW. I'm just ready for AF to get here already... Sometimes the stress of it really gets to me, then I start thinking about all the women on here who have been trying twice as long as me, or for a year, or two, or 10. To those women... my hat is off to you. I pray for patience every day now because I want to make a baby with my husband so badly. I just tear up, then want to go smoke a cigarette.
AF came tonight... I got a little emotional, but I mostly wanted to write in my journal to post with stats that I've charted with over the last two months.
January 25, 2008
Cycle Length: 30
Ovulation Day: 18
Luteal Phase: 12
February 24, 2008
Cycle Length: 28
Ovulation Day: 16
Luteal Phase: 12
(2 cycles) Ave. Min. Max.
Ovulation: 17 16 18
Luteal Phase: 12 12 12
Cycle length: 29 28 30
Time for round three!
P.S. I hate cramps. I hate bleeding. I hate pain. I hate it all... Okay, so you can definitely tell I'm ragging now. LOL!
My husband bought me some OPK's! First Response. I don't really know which is most accurate. Clear Blue Easy was a dollar more, so I was like okay, whatever. Then they had a brand I think he said was called Answer. So, these three look like they are going to be the ones that are easiest to find for me. If someone has a specific preference please say and leave me a comment in the thread to do so!
fertilityfriend.com offered a free 5 day pass as a VIP so I took it. I'm most fertile between cycle days 16-18 (which I had already figured out) so I'm wondering when to start the OPK's. On my 14th day? 15th day? If I do it on the 14th day then that will last through my 20th day. That seems to be the most sensible thing. Anyway, this will be my first month using them. It'll be interesting to see what happens!
I suggest buying from babywishes.org. Their tests are by FAR the best and most sensitive! Trust me, I've tried multiple kinds!
I just left this over in the TTC 0-12 months forum.
I'm so confused on when I should really start using the OPK's. This will be my first month using them. I'm most fertile between days 16-18 (that's what it appears to be so far from charting my BBT.)
Brand: First Response
It says to use the first day of bleeding/spotting (duh) and count forward however many days the chart on the paper shows (yay for directions! haha sorry, but I already know how to pee on a stick though...)
So, I have a 28-30 day cycle. That means a person with a 28 day cycle would count forward 11 days, a 29 day cycle would count forward 12 days, and a 30 day cycle would count forward 13 days.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I've only had two months worth of charting to deal with, because I'm on cycle three now. Three charts would have made it hella easier I bet, but I have to go by what I know so far. I'm most fertile between days 16-18, and I need to remember that the OPK will show positive even before I actually ovulate so basically, I have no idea on which day to start.
If I start on day 11 that only gets me to my 17th day. = too early??
If I start on day 12 that only gets me to my 18th day. = ???
If I start on day 13 that gets me through the 19th. = too long??
Question is... Which day should I start peeing on the stick to find out when I'm ovulating?! haha
I will not stress about OPK's
I will not stress about OPK's
I will not stress about OPK's
I will not stress about OPK's...
This site that someone showed me has helped a little. http://www.peeonastick.com/opks.html
Next month I might try Clearblue Easy "Easy Read" Digital brand. http://www.clearblueeasy.com/Digital...ionTestKit.cfm
First Response has been recommended and is one of the better ones, but the Clearblue Digital seems to be really good. I hope my local Walmart carries them. LOL
The reason I'm worried about the dye and stuff, is because I have dye in my urine where I have Interstitial Cystitis. It's sort of like over the counter Azo for UTI's, but stronger and prescription strength. I wonder if that will have an effect. ??? I hope not... That's why I'm thinking a digital would be better...