Things are better so that's good news.
I've been a little crampy today and yesterday. I hope that's not a bad thing. (It could be bladder pain. Sometimes it's hard to tell.) My temp dropped some for both days, but not below the CH horizontal line, so I guess that's a good thing. I hope it goes back up though!!!
UGH! This can really get frustrating sometimes. I think my hormones are on edge. That doesn't mean I'm pregnant, but I'm definitely hormonal! I'm crying over any and everything, can't seem to keep myself from feeling hungry, and can't stop drinking milk and water though I'd KILL for some Mt. Dew right now! haha!
My vent is... Why is it that everyone I hear about around me is just 'oops pregnant?' Is it just me that thinks that? Surely, others are not blind to it either, but why us, the ones who try our @sses off, have to KEEP trying, while my next door neighbor who is 18 is 'oops pregnant' and scared sh*tless. Her boyfriend is only 17 and headed off to boot camp. What is this world coming to? I'm pretty sure it's not jealousy in this case. In some instances, yes, but at least I admit to it. This is totally different. I'm sick of the 'oops I'm pregnant' people. SRTLHJSRTHJ! It's disturbing in sooooo many ways.
GOOD NEWS! MY UNCLE IS FINALLY GETTING HIS BABY BOY! His fiance is pregnant and they found out the sex of the baby not long ago. He already has a 4 year old little girl who is adorable, but he's ALWAYS wanted a boy. It's such a blessing. He's naming him after himself and his older brother who passed away a couple of years ago. It's so perfect and sweet! *wipes away a tear*
My husband is amazing. He truly is. He gets little things sometimes for me that are such small things, but mean sooooo much. And it's funny because he leaves me these things on the toilet seat lid (LOL) because he knows eventually I'm going to go to the bathroom, or he'll leave things under the bed covers because he knows I'll see it just before climbing in the bed when I pull the blankets back.
He got me a card this time that reads:
Since I met you,
All I can think about
Is making you happy.
I want to see your smile
And hear your laughter.
I want to kiss away
Old hurts and hold you until
You know without a doubt
That this is for real.
I want to memorize
The sound of your voice
And the dreams of your heart...
More than anything else,
I want to make you happier
Than you've ever been before
And give you all the things
That you truly deserve.
I love you!
Yeah... it made me cry, but it was a good cry!!!
Yay for pictures! I will add more later. I especially want to add some from our honeymoon!
Here's one of me in the bathroom haha
Trying out the mentos in coke/pepsi thing with Samantha! LOL It actually works!
My friend Brittani and I
Aw, I like this one.
Jeremy and I when we first got together.
Getting ready for our wedding.
I'm going to go picture crazy now!
The after party.
I decided to change the over the counter meds I'm taking for conception use. I was taking the meds that were compared to Women's 1 A Day. Tonight I'm going to start taking the pills that are called Complete One Source Prenatal. It looks like it might be compared to Stuart Prenatal? Either way, it's the exact same thing, just cheaper, and you get more pills. Works for me. At least I'll be getting the Folic Acid I need!
I feel crampy. Blah. BUT, my husband is cooking my favorite food. Salmon! Yay! God bless him!!!! (now the house will smell like fish for days... time to open some windows! LOL)
I took a pregnancy test. Probably the cheapest out there. (CD 30) Some kind from Dollar General called Baby Test? There was the faintest line EVER, but I rechecked the directions, and nowhere on there did it say you could count it as positive with a faint line. So... it was technically negative.
I'm going to give myself another day or two, and retest if AF hasn't came yet (b/c my temp is still up), or the symptoms are still heavily there. First, either I've got to get me a better pg test OR AF has to get here. One of the two will happen sooner or later. I hope it's not the latter... I'm still crampy though, and my back aches, and I'm still urinating more frequently, I want loads of water.... Blah.
I do have an appt. with my family physician at 8:10am in the morning. I'm not sure they'll test me, but I'm not even sure he knows I'm even TRYING to have a baby. Probably something he should know, yeah?
I took a Clearblue Digital pg test. It came back negative. I've still got another test, so I'll give myself another three days or so before I take the other one. My friends swear I'm pregnant, but I don't know. I'll find out soon... I hope! I just want something to happen, one way or the other.
I took yet another pg test earlier/yesterday. First Response Early Result. Got a negative. Still no AF. Since it's after midnight, I'm now 15 DPO... I haven't used my FMU, but I plan on it when taking the next test. My RL friends kept begging me, but this time I'm going to WAIT. So, two negatives in a row. I'll wait a couple days then POAS as soon as I wake up.
I didn't update about this because I forgot. My doctor put me on blood pressure medication because mine has been higher than it should be for about two years now. He thinks it will help with my anxiety too because when I went in I was practically having a panic/anxiety attack. Anyway, he's worried a little about my heart over working itself, and he said the one good thing I have going for me is that I'm still young. He said there's probably three things causing it. Pain, Anxiety, and Genetics.
You wouldn't believe the amount of meds I'm on because of my bladder and now all this other stuff. It's insane. As soon as I get a BFP (whenever that may be) I'm going to have to go in immediately to find out when I can still take and what I can't take.
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I continued spotting through the night, had some little cramps and back aching and noticed the blood turning more red. So I thought, "At least I know it's my period and everything is okay." I got some sleep and woke up. Now I'm having contraction type feelings every once in a while and they'll hit in like 5 minute waves at sporadic times, and then go away for a bit then come back incredibly extreme.
I hope I'm not miscarrying... My doctors thinks I miscarried the beginning of January 07, but it was too late to see the hormone in my body. All they could do was go off the signs and speculate that it was a miscarriage. (I was on birth control at the time.) I'm worried because the feeling is similar. It's extreme, and I really need to be checking my bleeding. Any news, and I'll let you girls know! Please keep me in your thoughts and say a little prayer for me.
I just wish I had a cheapo pregnancy test so I could see if the hormone is even there, but I don't. I'm not even sure it would pick it up. If things get worse I'm going to the hospital.
Ugh, I'm getting frustrated with the littlest things. For instance, MY AVATAR WILL NOT STAY UP! OMG It's driving me insane! I post with it and minutes later I check and it's gone... wtf... I had this problem before and somehow FINALLY it stayed. Last night I thought I'd change it, but now I wish it hadn't. GRRR on pointless stress!!!!!!!!!!
I actually wasn't going crazy! LOL There actually was an icon issue going on. It was something to do with the site. LOL