TTC#1 Wish me baby dust!!!

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TTC#1 Wish me baby dust!!!

I wasn't gonna do this. I wasn't going to get frustrated trying to get pregnant. I wasn't actually going to try. I was just going to let things happen without thinking about it. Then my friend got pregnant and I ran out of patience. So now I'm trying and it is all I can think about. The days till you ovulate, then the days till af is late or not. So this last cycle after asking a couple friends I decided I would try on the 10th,12th and 14th day of my cycle. Well today af came and I'm frustrated. So I bought a thermometer. My husband and I have only been married two months and I always said I wanted to wait until I was married. So now I'm married but not pregnant.
A little history here before this journal goes any further. I have endometriosis so I have been told that it could take me longer to concieve. Well all it has succeeded in doing is making me scared. All the thoughts go through my head that I'm sure go through many other women's heads while trying to concieve. Only I have something to co-sign these fearful thoughts. Endometriosis could cause infertility but I had a surgeory to help get rid of it. So I am probaly not infertile. Still I'm always scared that I can't have kids. I've been on birth control forever on and off. I've tried depo but I was mostly on ortho-tricycln. I stopped taking the pill about 8 months ago. My husband works nights and I work days so we hardly see each other.
So here I am on day 1 of my cycle ready to try again. This time I will try to chart my temps and see how that goes. Wish me baby dust!

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cycle day 6
well I'm trying to chart and I am new to this so I'm not quite sure what I'm doing yet! Anyway today is cd 6, af is gone finally, and this is the time when I want to bd. I do not have a regular cycle it is usually between 26 and 33 days. Either way if you do the count according to af then I wouldn't start o'ing until cd 8 at the earliest. But that is not reliable since everyone is different. My temp dropped a little today from about 98.2 to 97.8. The hardest part of ttc is the waiting. This I my first month temping so maybe I will have luck and baby dust on my side. I also have an opk. Again since I'm new to this I dont know when I should start using this. According to the box if my shortest amount of cd's 26 I should start on cd #9.

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Posted: 2002-08-19 22:20
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cd#7 ttc#1
Okay I think I have this journal thing down now. My temp dropped some today and since I have never temped before I have no idea how much it should drop right before you O. I also have opk's so maybe between those and temping I can get a clue. Now the next thing is my DH works nights and I work days so if I do O I have to figure out a way to get him home to work on these baby creating!

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Posted: 2002-08-25 19:07
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ttc#1
cd#13

Well its cd 13. I have been bd'ing alot lately. On cd#13 my temp. dropped to 97.3 the lowest so far. I didn't bd on that day since I didn't know that it would start to go up after that. But I did bd the next day. I took and opk on cd#10 and nothing happened i.e. the blue line to tell you of a hormone increase was faint blue. Then I didn't take an opk on cd#11. Then on cd#12 I took one and the hormone line showed up first and was alot darker than the control line. So I am guessing that I should be o'ing today or tomorrow according to the opk. But according to the temps I think it would have been sooner. Wow this is kinda hard trying to locate when you O. Now it it is the waiting game I will bd tomorrow just to make sure I dont miss my O day. Dh is quite pleased with all this extra curricular activity

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Posted: 2002-08-26 19:42
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ttc#1
cd#14

I would just like to get something off my chest without sounding like a martyr if I can. Dh and I have been ttc for about 3 months and I have been off birth control for about 8 months. This such an emotional rollercoaster. I waiting on having kids until I was married. I have a great husband and now we are ready. I have done things by the book. Alot of times I'm afraid I'm infertile. I know alot of women feel this. So maybe some of you can relate when I say this "Its not fair". Its not fair that I just got off the phone with my sister and one of her friends, little sister is pregnant. 16 and pregnant. Some of us who have a stable, muture, financially secure household are not finding it that easy to get pregnant. So now I feel better. Back to working on my own baby.

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Posted: 2002-09-02 14:11
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ttc#1
cd#21
6days past o?

\ well I'm on cd 21 and last month and this month I have started getting sore breasts really early. Prior to that it was strange cause I wasn't really getting sore boobs.. Dont know what to think of that. Anyway I think I am 6 days past o and my boobs started getting really sore about 3 days past o. I am in the 2ww now and that is the hardest part but I am hanging in there. Have had a long weekend off work and I'm not looking forward to going back tomorrow. Anyway ladies your ttc journals have really helped me in this crazy ttc business. Thanks. lila

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Posted: 2002-09-06 18:47
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ttc#1
cd#25
dpo 10

Well hello everyone. I am going crazy. My boobs hurt like crazy. They have been for 8 days now. Anyway I had some slight cramping about 2 and 3 days ago. Nothing since then. Although I don't think I'm preggo. But here's to hoping I'm wrong. I just think AF will come a little early. If it's gonna come I hope it just comes and doesn't drag out. This ttc drives me crazy. Sometimes I think it will be my turn soon and other times I just think it will never be my turn. Scary. I dont know how so many women keep the hope going, its gotta be really hard. Well wishing everyone baby dust.

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Posted: 2002-09-08 21:03
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Cd#27
dpo #12
ttc#1

well everybody. my face is a zit farm. I am bloated, grouchy and I think it is all due to AF being on her $%#^ way. I have cramps tonight. Which bums me out. This ttc is so frustrating. So I am a little bummed.

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Posted: 2002-09-15 17:28
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Well I have had a heck of time of it lately. We had a crane accident at work thursday. I had my wisdom teeth pulled friday. Af came about 5 days ago so I'm starting all over with this damn ttc business. I have been depressed lately. Hopefully I will get out of this funk soon.

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Posted: 2002-09-24 21:34
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cd#14
Well hopefully I am o'ing now. So I have been forgetting to temp but last month I o'd on cd#15. Since I have not been temping I have not been stressing the ttc business. I have had alot of other stuff going on with work and home. I think I o'd yesterday because I had o pain. Well we will see wont we.

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Oh my gosh I just posted all this stuff and lost it. AHHH Well it is Cd20 for me and I'm not stressing this month. I have not temped cause I have been forgetting and I have had alot of family drama distracting me. Well I went with my friend to babysrus to pick out some stuff for her and I decided I can't wait to do that for my own baby. Even though I haven't been stressing I really hope this is my month.

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Cd#23
ttc#1
9 days past o?

Not stressing. Not stressing. uh-oh starting to stress it. The 1ww always sucks. I know I'm stressing when I think I'm further along in my cycle than I am I thought to myself today wow the last time I posted I was on cd20 now I must be on cd#26 or something.
Well I'm only on cd#23. 10 more days till I know anything. An eternity. My boobs are sore but they have been that way lately starting cd#15. so that is no clue to anything. I'm being grouchy to my husband but that is nothing new and I feel a little sick to my stomach. Nothing new there. So I'm not thinking I'm pregnant. Just hoping.

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ttc#1
cd#26
11 days past O?

Well still in the tww. yuck. I am trying not to test. I have two tests in my cabinet from last month and with them readily available it is hard not to test. Ya know? Anyaway I had really bad cramps in my left side on cd# 24. which may have been 9 days past O. But I have felt any pain since then. I was sure AF would be coming early for me this cycle now I'm not so sure. Well we will see. I will not test for another 8 days. Which is one day past my longest cycle. Wish me will power.

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TTC#1
cd#28
13 days past o?
Well I started to have some hope until I sat down to the computer then I started to have cramps. So no doubt AF is right around the corner. AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! Frustrating and disappointing. Up down Up down with the emotions. Work is really stressing me today and I was hoping for a bfp to cheer me up. Oh well.

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Cd#5
Ahhhh. This damn ttc is so disappointing. I think I'm taking this cycle better. Round 4. Anyway AF came on CD#29 this time. The las two cycles have been on cd#30. If I can remember I am going to temp this cycle. I bought some opks for this cycle. Well anyway maybe this is the cycle I will be 25 in less than 10 days. So the baby clock is starting to tick louder.

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Sorry all I haven't been posting lately.
CD22
11dpo I think
Well this month is no different yet than any month really. I haven't been keeping my temp but I took an opk on cd. 10 and got a positive. So that is cool. Since it was so early AF will probaly be here early. Probaly nov 3. So I only have a few more days to wait I guess the nice thing about this cycle if I dont get a bfp than at least it was short. Ya know. No preg signs just the usual sore breasts. No real AF signs either so maybe no sign is a good sign. Here's to hoping that this is the month.

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I'm glad I decided to post before my journal got lost. I have been taking a break from the cpu lately. Well the good news is DH got an SA and he came back normal. I got an FHS or FSH whichever it is and it came back normal. Tomorrow I go for my HSG test. I hope to hell it comes back normal. Also in the up and up dept. the dr put me on prenatals and my finger nails are really long. This month when I started had to be hardest month yet. I cried. I think its because my friend had her baby and it just made me want it more.
Also we just bought a house and closing is feb 28 and I want to move into planning for a baby room. Not just to move in and have an extra junk room, even it is just for now. WEll I will check with u all later.

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Posted: 2003-01-10 15:38
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Okay Nobody told me how bad the HSG hurts. Oh my god. Anyway besides the unbearable pain I have good news, My tubes were blocked with a mucus and now the hsg has cleared them. So this last year of trying has been pointless, but now I really have a chance. I am on
CD # 11.
Dh and I bd'd last night and will on cd # 12 and again on cd#14. I am happy to know I have a real chance now. YAY.

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CD#24

And the wait begins. Okay I'm in the 2ww, which I hate. I have been really busy lately, I had a friend pass away over the weekend. Actually it was my friends 18 year old son and he was killed in a car accident. It is such a tragedy. Anyway I have decided I'm not going to test until CD#33 because my longest cycle is 33 days. Well Af came on day 33. So that will be Feb 1st. What a suprise that for my sister it would be if I get a BFP because that is her b-day. Wow will it be nice to get some good news after this tragic weekend I have had. Anyway other that sore BB's I don't have any other symptoms. Well that is my update. Lila

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CD# 29

Well I tested twice 1st time on Cd 26(because tht is the earliest day AF has ever come) and then on Cd 28 (yesterday) both times BFN. UGHHHH!!!. This month is the worse for hoping since I know my tubes are clear now. I knew is was going to be because before I wasn't for sure I could even get preg. Now I know that according to the Dr. everythings normal and so now I'm expecting it to happen the first month of trying and actually having a chance. But even though its the first month of having clear tubes its not the first month of trying because I have been trying for a month. I had cramps a couple of days ago then none for a day then cramps last and I was sure Af would be here by today sometime, But Nooo she has to play games with me. So then I have had cramps on and off today. So if AF is coming she will probaly be here tomorrow because today has been the worst day for my emotions. I have wanted to cry all day at work. ohhh this ttc is so hard. I have just about been able to plan everything else in my life but this. Oh well I wish I dont see Af for nine months but if she is coming I wish she would just come on. Sorry for venting guys, it has just been one of those days.

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Well Af came today CD#31. I am not too bummed
I expected her. With all the negative test I took. Well maybe this month will be ours. Keep your fingers crossed for me. Lila

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CD #12
Well the bd marathon is on! I am so hoping this is our month. Please, Please, let me get a BFP. I am feeling good about this month since this is the first real month since my HSG test has cleared my tubes. I have had alot of cramping lately which is new for me during O. Well maybe that is a good sign. Lila

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Hi all,
I am going to try to post more. Alot of times I feel like my journal is boring and nobody is reading it. But when I get pregnant I am going to print this and clip it in my regular journal so that when my child grows up he/she can read it. I dont know if it is just me but I kinda stay away from my friends that have little babies. I don't mean totally away but I am a little a reserved. I guess its because its hard to see their babies cause I dont have one. Okay I am just babbling. Dh is being a great sport about all this scheduled bding. That is why I love him. Well all talk to you later.
CD#13

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CD #21
Hi all nothing to report yet. Not even sore bb's which is strange cause they usually hurt a little by now. I will CBL.

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CD#23
Well strange strange I don't have sore BB's yet. It seems to me they are always sore by now. Perhaps I ovulated late this month. I guess since I'm not charting or doing OPK's I have no way of knowing. Oh well I still hold out hope that this is my(our) because of that Hsg test. Ya know. Well I will talk to you all later. Lila

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CD #26
Hi all. I am now in the 1ww. And every cramp I get makes me think AF is on her way. I still don't have sore BBs and that is strange. I am hoping and praying this is our month. I dont know how much more of this I can take. Well that is pretty much the update. We close on our house this weekend so I'm excited about that. Well i will check back with you all later. Lila

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CD#5
Well Af found me. I guess its round 201. AHHH. The good thing is we closed on our house this weekend. So that is a happy thing, I was just hoping for 2 happys for the price of one.

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CD#19
7 DPO
Hello everyone. Had to update before I dropped off the page. Well I am feeling positive about this month because I did OPK's and got a positive two days in a row and we were able to BD during. So I'm pretty sure I caught the eggy this month. I hope I hope. Anyway if I do get preg this month then I would be due in late november early december which isn't bad. Please oh please oh please. Let it be my turn.

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CD#28
16 DPO
Well I am pretty sure Af is coming my chart said she should have been here yesterday. So I'm pretty sure it will be today. I had cramps all last night and all today. I took a test yesterday it was BFN. So now I am really in a bad mood and really discouraged. It feels like I'm never going to get preg.

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19 DPO
Cd # 31
Okay all my bb's are really sore. More sore than they have ever been. I tested Wed. on CD 29, 17 DPO and I got a barely there BFP but I dont believe it yet because I tested again this morning and got the same thing. Last time I didn't use first morning urine but today I did shouldn't the line be darker? because I dont want to show it to somebody(dh for example) and have him say " What second line?" So please keep your fingers crossed for me because I am testing Sun. again and I am so afraid I will get the same thing and that this is just a chemical preg or something. Scared, Scared, Scared.

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CD#32
20 DPO

Well I broke down and tested today. I only waited 2 hours since the last time I pee'd and it was BFP. Still very light but its There. I told DH today. He was shocked and happy. We both don't feel like its real yet. I am going to call the doctor Mon. and see if I could get a blood test asap. I just don't even know what to think yet. WOW!! I have been trying for a long time and its been soo dishearting that I am always thinking this is going to not real or I'm gonna have a MC or something awful. Ya Know? Well I will check back later.

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CD #1
Well everybody it was a chemical pregnancy. I started AF full force this morning. This really sux. DH is trying to be positive. At least now we know we can get pregnant. I just really hope it doesn't take too long to get pregnant again. Well I have to go mope. I will check back soon.

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CD#9
Okay I thought I better check in since I have fallen off page one. I am doing okay last week was really long and I was sad with no energy but I am doing better now. It almost time to start BDing. I haven't O'd yet, haven't gotten a positive on the OPKs yet but I am hoping I dont have to wait another three months to get another(for real)BFP. But hoping doesn't get you too far in this game now does it? Alright everybody I will check back again soon.

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CD 20
8 DPO

Okay I figured out how to get this journal over here. I just put all my old posts on one new post on the new journal section. Okay so DH and I went home to our real home in GA where we just bought a house. I finally got to see my really expensive furniture that I had ordered but not actually seen(living room) until we went home. Happy about that. Anyway I have a feeling its gonna take me another 3 mths of trying until we see that real BFP.. I'm trying not to get my hopes up this month. Ok until later :?

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CD#26
12DPO
Okay last post at 8DPO I was on CD#22 not 20. Just wanted to get that straight. Well I have 3 more days until Af is due and it is the longest days of my life. Ya know? Especially after last months chemical preg. I really was trying not to get my hopes up but that is so hard. I did OPK's again this month and a positive!! So I'm assuming I ovulated even though I had a chemical preg the month before. I was sure I wouldn't ovulate the month after the CP. Anyway the tests in my bathroom are calling my name. I am trying very hard to ignore them. Okay all I will CBL. :banghead:

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Hoping hoping.Please Please let AF stay away

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Ok CMFCEE I'm with you if I don't start by sunday I'm testing as well. We will be test buddies. STICKY STICKY STICKY VIBES TO US!!! :roll: Anyway I'm trying so hard not to POAS and I have done very good this month. I have had cramps lately. So that worries me. However I do have sore BB's which didn't start until about 2 days ago. God, I just don't think I can take failure again this month. I really really want to be preg. Okay I'm gonna go now. CBL

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Ugh!

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14 DPO

Okay I broke down and tested this morning with FMU and it was BFN. Doesn't that just figure. I am soo sick of this. I wish I could think of something else but ttc. Everybody's like relax, it will happen when your not expecting it. Well when you have been trying sooo long its not that easy to just relax and just let things happen. Ya know. If one more person tells me that I'm gonna kick em.(not really, but I like the thought) So after work today(yes I work 6 days a week) I did some theraputic shopping at Pier 1 for my new house. I figured since Af is on her way why not treat myself to something nice. Well it took my mind off of AF/TTC for about an hour. AHHH. Okay ladies thanx for letting me vent.
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AF SUX

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Af showed up today. feel like crap, going to lay down Sad

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I'm back0

Wow. I havent posted in a long time. things are good with me I'm like
3DPO today.
So I have been really busy and lazy about posting. I don't think this is my month cuz dh and I didnt get at chance to bd on the day of the big O.
Just the day before. Another friend had a baby. I'm really sick of that.
Now I dont have any friends without kids. Ya know. Okay gotta go cbl.

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I did it!!!!

Wow, I thought I hadn't posted in longer that that. Well I did it finally. I am pregnant. Lol I am sooo excited. It feels like I have been trying forever. I got my first beta test done thur and I go back this thursday for another one. I'm worried after my chem. preg. but I'm still excited as my preg tests are getting darker and darker. Wink Well that is all.