Tomorrow feels like Christmas to me. It could be the day that I get the gift I really want...or it could be the day that they forget again! I am tired but I almost don't want tomorrow to come. I was also looking at tickers and it scared me. I saw that I would have just over 35 weeks left. I know that is still basicaly 8 months...but still. To me right now it feels like it is right around the corner. I don't mind though.
Oh I was bad but good today. I ordered 8 more Disney movies to add to my collection. They were 50% off after the first 2 at regular price. Once I find out I am pregnant I am going to start on the Baby Einstein collection. I think they are so cute!!! Plus they are not too expensive. And the baby wish list will go into a registry and I can finally indulge in some little baby gear items and buy stuff that is on a really good sale! I think I am getting way too ahead of myself.
Oh and I know day time temps don't make much of a difference...but they have been over 99 all day today when they are normaly mid to high 98 post ovulation. Yes I am addicted to temping. And I am tempted to say what my DH says about it...but it is dirty...use your imagination!!!
OK...must go to bed and dream of positives. I know I had some crazy dreams last night...
Well...I saw the dreaded words not pregnant on the digital. I am going to go back to sleep and temp in 3 hours if I can stay asleep that long. I did temp at 2:45 this morning with a little over 2.5 hours sleep and it was 97.8. So I will use that if I can't get back to sleep. This is such a bummer. So I will test again on Tuesday morning unless the witch shows before then. I just wish AF wouldn't drag out so far if I really am not pregnant. If I didn't really ovulate until the 2nd + opk then I have another 3-5 days to wait before AF and me getting the Monitor for next CY. If I didn't Ovulate on CD 13 then I don't really have a shot at all. So far I am able to hold it together...
So my sleep didn't get much better. I even had a dream about temping and a few other things. I woke up thinking it was real and that I had already temped at 9 am and so I looked at the term and it wasn't the same temp. So I took my temp without looking at the clock and it was really 6:45 Talk about some real dreams. It was real enough to make me think it was later and that I had already temped and got 98.1!
Well...I didn't post this earlier. This is the test I had to look at:
I am going to demand a blood test for hcg and progesterone tomorrow if no AF. If I am pregnant regardless of when I did Ovulate I will be at least 9 DPO tomorrow. I have played with FF and taken away tests and all and going by temps only I am over 9 DPO. So I can stop stressing over everything if I know if I am based on a blood test!
DH is so sweet. When he got up a little while ago he at first acts like the test is his and not mine just to be silly. Then he takes a pen and crosses out the not and tells me hun this test says your pregnant. He is a keeper!!!
Well I just read the following on peeonastick.com
I wanted to see how crazy I was to think there was still a chance.
5. Can I still be pregnant if the test is negative (have a "false negative")? In a word, yes. You could be testing too early (before your baby is making enough pregnancy hormone to be detected by the test.) And some women (this is fairly rare, but possible) never get a positive urine test even when they're definitely pregnant (for some reason the hormone doesn't make it into their urine.) I have a friend who didn't get a positive HPT until 25 DPO! (With her second baby, a test at 23 DPO was negative . . . but a test on 30 DPO was positive. Oddly enough, with #3, her positive test came at only 12 DPO.) If you get a negative test but think you might be preggo anyway, wait a couple of days (giving the hCG hormone time to build up) and try again. It's not over until the fat lady sings-- and your period crashes the party.
And I just found this as well. So from the looks of it in all cases...it would be a really good idea for me to go see my obgyn...
18. My period is really late, but my HPT's are still negative. What's up? For women who chart their fertility: One of the main causes of a delayed period (extra-long luteal phase with high temps) with negative pregnancy tests is a luteal cyst. In a nutshell: when you ovulate, your egg ruptures from a small follicle. This follicle is known as the "corpus luteum" (literally means "yellow body," named for its color, and is the origin of the term "luteal phase.")
Anyway, the corpus luteum produces progesterone. In the event of pregnancy, this progesterone will support the growing embryo until the placenta takes over and makes enough progesterone for itself. Then the corpus luteum shrivels up and stops functioning.
In the event that there is NO pregnancy, the corpus luteum also shrivels up and stops functioning-- ending the luteal phase. The drop in progesterone causes your period to begin.
SOMETIMES, however, there is no pregnancy, but the corpus luteum turns into a small cyst and continues to secrete progesterone long after it's supposed to stop. This is called a luteal cyst, and is responsible for too many false hopes! (Progesterone also causes PMS and pregnancy-like symptoms, such as tender breasts.) If this is the problem, it's simple to resolve (usually a single injection takes care of it) but your doctor needs to see you! Note: this type of cyst is not the same type associated with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS.) Women with PCOS are no more or less likely to develop a luteal cyst, and women who develop luteal cysts do not necessarily have PCOS. Luteal cysts do not cause false positive HPT's.
well...another negative this morning on an internet test! Called the OBGYN office and the nurse told me to wait another week and wouldn't give me a blood test. She told me not to stress that it can delay my period! Last time I checked...stress cannot delay your period once you have olulated. Stress can delay olulation though! So it figures as soon as I am willing to do a blood test I can't get one! I was stress free all the way up until I was I don't know...late and no positive test. So I give up! You think they might do a blood test if they can feel the baby kick...even then I'm not sure! So back to waiting...another freaking week. I just want to know...at this point I will be happy if AF shows...at least then I will know something!!!!
Well...I took another IC hpt this morning. Still no change. It is still the VERY faint pink line that I think is most likely just an evap. DH looked at it and said...I thought you said it was negative!!! I don't think I will be happy until I see it on a name brand. I will use my second digital on Friday morning and hopefuly get a blood test later that day and know something by Monday! I hope so anyway!!!
DH has now had 2 people walk up to him and tell him I am pregnant. Just 2 random people that he was talking to while he was working. There is the crazy woman who looked into his eyes and said I was and the crazy man who tested the air and said I was. VERY odd...I would love it if they are right.
Oh and the whole constipation thing I thought it was a fluke the first 2 times...well now I don't know. I am an at least once a day more likely 2 times a day...well now I am like an every other day rabit poo lady. It is killing me. Oh and I have been doing these weird dry heaves coughing things lately now. VERY odd. I think I am looking too deep into things. I could go on, but I am going to stop there and get ready for work.
If I am preggo...I will at least be a lot closer to my u/s day!!!
I am so bad! The other day I went and set up pregnancy tickers so that I would have one ready for when I do get my bfp...I keep thinking it is just around the corner. I am very calm about it. A few of my posts on my journal bit the dust with the update...so I know it doesn't look that way...but I am. I feel oh so ill this morning...every day this week the lady I share an office with keeps asking me if I am ok that I look like I am not feeling my best...to which...yeah I think it is alergies or something!!!
Well here are the tickers I played with...I know it is sad...but it helps pass the time!!!
I can't wait until I can really use them...even if I have to change the due date...I want it to be my turn...and I know my time will come
Well...my wonderful PCP came through and thought it was time for a quantitative blood test. I might find out the results on Friday...but most likely not until Monday since they have to send the tests out to be done. So my fingers are crossed. And he said we are going to think POSITIVE And if it turns out I am not...I am going to get my monitor!!! My doc told me I just wanted another toy to play with if I wasn't pregnant. He is right...I have to have something to cheer me up IF I am not pregnant!!! I love my PCP...he is the greatest.
Oh and the most recent events...nipples throb...dry heaves this morning...and horible heartburn...and hungry buffalo is what I am!!! So if I am not preggo I am crazy!!!