Well AF is still toying with me a bit, but I think its starting to be more definate. Monday was light spotting then nothing. Yesterday was a deeper red and more than just spotting, but nothing afterwards. And I had more like yesterday again this morning. So I'm still waiting for a day to call CD1. I haven't gotten to the store yet to buy a thermoter, but I think tempings going to be the only way for me to figure out my o-date at this point.
Well af arrived full scale today, at least I think so... it's got me so lost right now... but I had to go to more than just a pantyliner finally (sorry if tmi) so I think its officially here. I have cramps tonight. Af arrived with a sore throat. I sound like Minnie mouse. I had to make an appt with sears today to get my stove fixed. We bought an flat top electric stove when we lived w/my father-in-law. We couldn't take it with us when we moved b/c they only had gas in our kitchen. We finally get the electric installed and get the stove over here, and one of the burners doesn't work. My sister-in law and her df (who moved in after we moved out) broke the stupid thing and failed to tell us. Everyone looked at me like I was crazy when I started yelling that they are paying for this!!! Am I wrong??? One very good wonderful thing happened yesterday. I mentioned before about my sons severe speech delay. We had a home visit yesterday from the special needs preschool coordinator. She spoke with ds for about 2 minutes and declared this child is not the same one in the testing that was done, and aside from a few sounds hes right on track!!! I'm so excited! He went from being severely delayed to perfectly fine! My son is fine!!! I know that there are a lot worse things than a speech delay, but its a relief knowing its gone. Shes going to get ds into a local preschool program where he's a "peer model". Its for normally developing children to go to school with the special needs students, to integrate them and make eveyone feel the same and learn from each other. Its perfect in so many ways. For one, it gets my son into preschool, he'll still benefit from the work they do with the speech delay students as far as his sounds, it will get him around other kids his age, and it will help him to feel comfortable around people different than him and to treat them the way they deserve, as normal people. Yay! Whew, I'm full of stuff to say today.
Well, my vacation from work is officially over. Actually it was over yesterday, but I had to call off. I had laringytis or however you spell it. I also have bronchitis which isn't really bothering me except I'm coughing all the time and I'm exhausted. I could barely sleep last night because everytime I laid down I started coughing. Oh well. Man this is the boring part of ttc... I'm on CD 3... I know I'm not pg AF is still here and O is almost 2 weeks away.... la di da... Oh well, my b-day is Friday so that should help me pas the time some...
Wow, I did not realize how important my nightly routines were to me! I have non ttc related bloodwork to get done tomorrow, and I can't have anything to eat or drink other than water for 10 hours prior. I'm going first thing in the morning when I get up. I wouldn't be such a big deal except that I work until 2am (its now 2:44am, Im home and trying to get ready to sleep). So even though I've been up, I haven't been able to have anything for the past few hours. I thrive on caffeine (I know, bad for ttc) and I'm used to coming home and having a small snack before bed along with a glass of chocolate milk (chocolate milk is like a staple in my family, no-ones too old). I can't do either, and its driving me nuts!! Oh well, despite the break of my routine, I am completely exhausted so hopefully I can sleep. On ttc... AF is still here, although shes winding down. I think she'll be gone by late monday early tuesday. Yay! Of course, then I still have a few days before bding commences, but at least its moving on somewhere!
Yay! AF is pretty much gone. And I'm feeling a lot better, still coughing some but not nearly as bad. My b-day is friday, and I won't O until several days after, so I can have a little bit of fun that night Well short entry for me today, not a whole lot to say
Ugh I wanna cry! Its almost the end of my shift. I have 3 wonderful days off. And I have the beginning of a freaking migraine. The normal path for my migraines is:
1st day: little bit of pain
2nd day: more pain but still bearable
3rd day: I wanna crawl into bed no light no sound and pass out for as long as possible but I can't because it hurts too bad!!!
Not the way I want to spend my days off. I have too much to do. Wensday I have to help my father-in-law move, Thursday I have a doc appt, Friday I have to go renew my license, renew my tags, sit around and wait for the guy to come and fix my stove, and go to dinner with my family and my bf (and her) for my b-day. On top of that, DH starts his new job Thursday, so I can't hide in bed all day! On the bright side, I know I'm not pg so I can take some exedrin. I don't want a migraine!!!
Whew. What a week. Did all sorts of running on my days off. Yesterday I went to renew my license and tags. $79.50!!! Jeez, as if my car payment isn't high enough every month... it took forever at the bmv. They were really busy. It was strange because this bmv is usually pretty quick. They have 12 lines and a number system that usually works pretty well. I spent at least an hour there yesterday though, maybe 2. I saw a girl I used to go to school with on my way in. She has the same b-day as me. When we were in school she came up to me and "informed me" that it was HER b-day not mine. Seeing her on our b-day just reminded me how much I could not STAND her We went out to Damons last night. It was verrrry good. It was nice getting to see my best friend, I haven't seen her in forever. Even when she and her bf split up after almost 2 years, we both have such different schedules that I didn't get to see her. Nothing really going on in ttc land. I did finaly buy a basal body thermoter! I can't wait to actually be able to see results from it. This is my second day of testing. I'm proud of myself for remembering 2 days in a row. Me remembering ANYTHING 2 days in a row is a feat in itself!
Uh-Oh. I think I may have O'd today. I had watery cm, which according to what I can find, is fertile. And I've had cramping. I used to always cramp when I O'd, although this cramping reminds me more of AF, my old O cramps were sharp pains. Now, first off, if I did O, I'll be happy, because it will mean that the left over effects of the bc are not stopping me from Oing. However, I'm at work today. Did not bd today or yesterday and will not get the chance until DH gets home from work tomorrow night. The last time we bd was on Friday. I know its possible for the sperm to last up to 5 days, but I doubt it because I had no cm that day, and I think that would have been a necessary part. So if I did O today, I seriously doubt I have a chance of a bfp. Hopefully my temps will stay down just 1 more day, or waits until Wensday as I will not see DH at all Tuesday. Crossing my fingers!!!
I think I O'd. I got all excited and became convinced that I O'd. Now I'm afraid that I jumped to quick. Not that I have any reason to believe that I didn't. I have the same O-pains that I had before I got on bc. Much different than the other night (I think I had gas, sorry I know TMI). When I had these pains I immediately knew what they were. But I'm my temps don't go up... Oh well. Will wait and see. Andrew has a speech therapy appointment. They had told me that it would probably be January before he got it, but they have an appointment now. I kind of regret agreeing to the time. 10am-10:30am. I normally don't wake up until 10:30, and I'll need to be up by at least 9:00am. I know, I sound lazy, but I don't get up until 2:30am! I forgot to tell Andrew. Oops Its ok though, he'll be excited.
Ugh. Things just aren't the best right now. Emotionally DH and I are fine. Our relationship is good. But for whatever reason, we just seem to be having trouble getting together to bd. I think it has a lot to do with his new work schedule. He's up early in the morning, I'm up late at night. It hurts though. For one, I miss him. For two, I hate knowing that no matter what I do know af is coming in November. We haven't bd'd since friday, and I think I O'd yesterday (tuesday). I just don't see it happening. I don't want to bring up ttc with him as the reason for wanting to bd, because its not the main reason, and I don't want him to see it that way. He doesn't really get the whole situation with the day you O and when you need to bd. I just really feel like crap right now. I never realized how much of an emotional roller coaster ttc would be. I don't want to stop ttc, I wanna be pg! But I hate setting myself up like this. I probably won't be posting on the boards for a few days, I'll be replying but not making my own posts. Everyone here is so great, I just need to take things by myself for a few days. Ugh.