Hi. I have been posting and lurking for so long, that I decided to start this journal....I usually do it the 'old fashioned' way, but I always on Preg.org, so why not do it here?!
I am 31 and Dh (Jon) is 33. We have two amazing children. Alexis, 3 1/2 and Ryan 21months.
I am one of those women who has both taken a LONG time and a short time to get pregnant. It took over a year to get pregnent with Alexis. After LOTS of testing, and a variety of drugs....We conceived after two months of Provera and Clomid. and with Ryan, we got pregnant right away the first month we started, with Provera and Clomid.
For me, its my periods.....I don't get them very often. After Ryan I went on the IUD because I did not want the hormones of the Pill.....and now I am VREY worried about the small amount of hormone in the IUD itself. I got the IUD just over one year ago and I have not had a period since May of LAST YEAR! That is not normal. My Doc had said that your period become lighter and shorter, like spotting, but when I say nothing...I mean NOTHING! No Spotting, not even pink discharge! So I am WAY nervous about this.
I get my IUD out tomorrow, which I am so excited for. We were going to wait one more year before we TTC #3, but we decided to go for it now....for a few reasons: first, Jon is in school and will graduate with his MBA next spring. We don't know if he can get a job here, so we have decided to open the job search ANYWHERE...scary, and we want to have MY Doc for this last baby of ours, and have all of our children in CT where we live now. Also, is the health insurance thing.....either we have the baby under his insurnace now, or we wait to TTC until AFter he gets a job, due to the 'preexisting condition" thing. Stupid. and last but not least......DH's father daid in January. He was only 58 and many many of his dreams were never realized. It is/was very sad. and it made us realize thatlife it too short to be planning for life.....you have to LIVE your life! KWIM?!
So, here we go again. I hope to see a BFP this summer so that the baby would be born next spring (before August when we lose health insurance).
I'll let you know how it all goes tomorrow after the IUD removal.
Oh. News today....I went out and bought some Dollar Tree OPKs and HPTs. I'm sooooo excited!!! I'm probably nuts for getting them so soon, I still have that freaking IUD, afterall...but it will be gone tomorrow and I wanted to be ready....and they were only a dollar! hee-hee!
On a side note: I have been reading so many posts in the last few days that are simply heartbreaking! I am sitting at the computer crying my eyes out for those of you (our sisters here at Preg.org) that have experienced the loss of m/c and/or inability to even get pregnant.
I have had one m/c that I know of...but it was very very early and while tough, it pales in comparison to some of the losses others have faced. I'm lucky. I'm blessed. and I pray to maintain my luck with this TTC. All while I cry for everyone else.
My sister-in-law is 28 and is going to have a hysterectomy on thursday. She will never have a baby. No hope for her, at all. its very very sad. But I have said that if she ever gets married that I will be a surrogate for her. (As long as I'm not too old!)
ANyway, just needed to vent. I'm already emotional about all this and I have yet to 'officially' begin!
Ok the Minera IUD is OUT!!! Let me just say that is was a very quick and painless procedure. I didn't even know she did it. It felt the same way that a pap test feels.
Anyway. She was actually concerned that I did not have any periods in the last year. She said that the hormones in the Minera should have lessened my periods, but not completely stopped them. So, she said that if I have not had a period in 3-4 weeks that she will likely do the Provera and Clomid combo that I used to get pregnant with both of my kids. If I do get my period, then she was to do a cd21 blood test to see if I am ovulating. I told her I am and will be charting and she liked that.
God I love my Doctor!!!!!
I am glad that she is willing to be proactive in all of this. I don't have to wait 3 or 6 or 12 months. Thats good.
So- I am officially on the TTC banwagon! woo-hoo!!!
OK. I've been doing some thinking.
I am going away without DH at the end of June for a conference for almost one week. I have to be VERY areful about how my provera and clomid cycle falls on the calendar. What if I O when I'm in DC! Dh won't be there!!!!!
I guess there is no sense in borrowing trouble. Lets see if I get my period on my own before I jump to the provera thing. its just good to know about it and keep it in the back of my mind.
On another note. I have been charting for about 10 days now, b/c that is a good way to see if I am ovulating. and my temps are so LOW. 96.7-97.0 isn't that low?? I also have a very low bp 109 over 51. I wonder if they are connected?
ummm. "lots of things to think about, nothing to worry about" - thats my new favorite saying.
ok. why can't people just be supportive? or why does their level of 'support' come off as criticism??
My parents found out that I had the IUD removed. I wasn't going to tell them right away. I don't know why.
I have awesome parents and an awesome family. I am lucky that way. But I don't know. My mom has been making snarky comments since Ryan was born......."you're going to wait a while before the next one, right"......."you're not oregnant are you?"....."you're nuts to have another baby"...that sort of sttuff.
To make it even worse...I am one of THREE kids! and MY mom had at least 3 m/c that I know of.....so why give me the guilt trip for wanting three kids??!! I am one of three and DH is one of three, so for us, three makes the perfect family. Isn't that natural for us to want three??
ANyway, my friend, who I told aboutgetting the IUD out, let it slip that that is why I was at the Doc's yesterday. andm y mom said something under her breath, like...."oh God" or maybe "oh sh1t"...I can't remember exactly b/c all I saw was red. but I called her on it. I said "don't oh-sh1t me....its my choice" and my dad jumped in and changed the topic of discussin.
I just hate that when I am so excited, my mom, the person who was present (besides DH) holding my hand at both of my babies birth, has to go and bring me down. Sheesh.
I"m sure that once I am pregnant, she will come around. She is a GREAT grandmother! But come on. Leave me alone. or, take your own advice...if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.
Ok my temp this morning was 96.5 thats WAY low, isn't it? and it was about two hours earlier than I normally temp, so I adjusted it to 96.6 for FF. Like it really makes a difference....because
I GOT MY PERIOD TODAY??!! I am so surprised! I don't know if it is a 'real' period, of just spotting b/c of the IUD coming out, but I am happy about it. SO now I get to chart and watch to see if I O and get tests done on cd21 to determine if I O'd. Wouldn't it be CRAZY if I O'd on my own??! I've got to go look on the calendar to see when that would be.....
Things have redeuced to light spotting....so now I don't know if I can consider this a 'true' period or not. SO confusing. I guess I'll stick with my plan to keep charting and in two weeks call the doc to see what she wants me to do.
I've got to remember that May is my practice month!\....I want a spring baby, so I'm really hoping for March 08 and that would mean a June conception. So things are ok.
manwhile. BOTH of my kids are sick. We're talking 103.5 fevers and vomit and fatigue. Its so sad. They are so active and quick and bright and I hate seeing them this way.......and DH went away for a few days, so I am my own...shesh!
Hopefully things will settle down quickly.
Day #3 of bleeding, although much lighter today. I am going to put my self out of misery and say it is a period. Ta-Da! Now I just have to O. Either way, I figured out that If I o and move on to anotehr cycle naturallY (wouldn't THAT be weird..) or if I go the Provera and Clomid route, my June fertile days would be 22nd (ish). I leave for a week on the 26th..... I hope I don't delay Oing that month!! I'll eat and exercise the same and try to stay calm and then maybe everything will work out.
and if not, well then by July, I'm sure I'd have this whole thing figured out! This is going to be my last baby and I want to try to stay calm and enjoy EVERY aspect of it. From the anxiety of TTC, to the nerves of the 2WW all the way through to L&D. I have had a wonderful two pregnancies and I hope that my luck continues.
Hi. I have been in Massasschusetts visiting my SIL in the hospital. She had a hysterectomy on Thursday and had some complications and she's still in the hospital. I feel so badly for her. She was better today. Maybe she'll be able to go home in a day or so.
I am cd6 and AF is finially over. Some minor spotting today. So we wait one week and see if I O on my own. I have decided to go ahead and 'not prevent' this cycle. We were going to wait until June...but why not. If I O on my own, it would be a minor miracle, so why not ride with it...I would be due February 15th....so I could have a valentines day baby. How cool would that be. and the only birthday in Feb is my MIL...so that would be ok.
The other consideration is that I coach Rowing in the Spring. and I've been trying to balance out having health insurance and my husbands graduation and our possible moving next summer with my desire to coach...and thats why I decided to see what happens in may. b/c if I did have the baby in Feb than I could coach begining in April, even if I was BFing. - so thats my story.
Dh and I 'figured things out' last night. I'll jump him tonight after "Greys Anatomy" to practice BDing...... hee-hee. Then we're coming into my fertile days (hopefully) so we'll be seeing LOTS of eachother. I'm just glad we're back to normal. I hate BDing when we're not really connected. I know, I'm sappy! and now I'm glad I'll be gettin some!
So far, things are looking rather good. My chart is pretty close to the chart where I conceived DS (I have it overlayed), so maybe thats a good sign.
in other news, we had a micro-burst (possible tornado) come through yesterday. Very rare in CT. so we could not go out on the water. Today in ncie though, hopefully the boys will get some good water time in b/c its their last race on saturday. They are undefeated since I took over as their coach. I came over from the girls team half way through the season....so I would really like to finish the season that way.
oohh- and my MIL is moving next week, so we will be helping her, but she is giving us her King size bedroom set! woo-hoo! We are swaping our queen with her. Its just too big for her new apartment! I am SOOO excited for a king! WIth two toddlers coming into our bed every morning, it will be nice to have the extra room! and we'll be ready for serioud king size baking making too!!!